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true enough. well, if i am not talking when you see me, it can only mean two things; either i am overwhelmed by someone or i am E M O ing.
temper is on the SUPERB extreme. try me if you do not believe in that.
if a cluttered desk is a sign of a cluttered mind, of what, then is an empty desk?
no wonder my desk is always flooded. =D
07/11-08/11
Thursday, November 8, 2007 @ 9:52:00 AM
07/11: happy birthday to dharman.
today is my first day of work back to kumon tiong bahru since i have stopped last year before christmas. i am looking forward to another direction of job- marking. i think it is very fun, but the thing is, you can never finish marking, unless there are no students.
i reached there at 150 and then i saw all my colleagues that i have not seen for almost a year. haha. they asked me about my O's and stuff. they taught me new stuff such as marking, picking and packing of worksheets. second time marking (last year only once), so there are considerable number of mistakes. i know them and am rectifying.
the kids there are still familiar to me as it has only been a year. esp a boy called chao hong. he can be quite irritating, coz he always ask all those questions that are not related to his classwork, homework or corrections. and he is also funny. jing wen too. very very cute with her chubby cheeks. hahaha. jie min even said her cheeks are not as bouncy coz it has turned into muscles.
i was very very tired. i have not adapted to sleeping normally at 11 or 12 and i have to wake up early sometimes for my work. i also have not rested enough since the end of O levels. if you have been staying up half or the whole night for might O's like me, i think you will understand how i feel.
i chatted with vernicia from 1140-0110am. to vernicia: thank you so much for your time. i think you have enough of my rubbish. hahaha. i see what i can do about the matters. if i have the time and money, i will heed your advice. and thank you for telling me what is my problem.08/11: as i slept considerably late last night and i have to wake up early for meeting at 9, i overslept. i woke up at 830. i went to bathe immediately i left my bed. i smsed melissa that i will be late and ansar to ask what he is wearing later. i dealt with my recalcitrant hair too. blah blah. i went out of the house.
i have this bad feeling as both did not reply me. i called ansar. he told me he just woke up. okay. i went to take the train to sembawang then (meeting venue). when i was waiting for the train (7 minutes -,-), ansar smsed, "call me. or you want me to call you?" i called him back and he told me the meeting has been postponed to tml and he did not inform me earlier was that information was passed down late like 12-1 AM. he was asleep and like what i had said earlier, he woke up late. and he said his parents are at home and he cannot leave his house so soon.
now i am dumped at sembawang. SO MUCH for waking so early despite being bushed after not resting enough from the stayed up nights and what aggravated my bad condition was yesterday's 7 hours of work. if i had known earlier, i will not bother to wake up SO early.
i called ansar, rachel and geena and asked what to do. SOMEMORE TODAY IS DEEPAVALI. festive mood while i was dumped ALONE at sembawang. behind is an excerpt from friday, november 2, 2007's post.
"LIBRANs: ... ... energetic and very sociable. hates to be alone. peaceful..."see that? i do not mind being alone, as long as i have my handphone, which has a function called mp3 and with all the fabulous songs from my favourite singers. but the importance is, i was dumped, there, like so rubbish. (now i see a lady peering into my house through the door, TWICE. wrong place la.)
what have i done to deserve that? can anyone tell me? or rather, can anyone tell me, what have i not done to deserve something BETTER? i even felt like smashing everything on my messy table to the floor. but on second thoughts, for what? my things are suffering and my table is already so messy, it will generate more work for me.
i do not know who and what i am scolding now. i am just very very angry. i have never felt so angry before, not in my life. even my juniors in NPCC and SC have not made me SO angry like now. balala.
i do not know why, what and how.
i really feel guilty; the guilt is still residing in my heart. i am feeling very terrible. i do not want to be diagnosed with the bystander syndrome.