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PANG ZHUANG YI
true enough. well, if i am not talking when you see me, it can only mean two things; either i am overwhelmed by someone or i am E M O ing.
temper is on the SUPERB extreme. try me if you do not believe in that.
if a cluttered desk is a sign of a cluttered mind, of what, then is an empty desk?
no wonder my desk is always flooded. =D
30/10
Thursday, November 1, 2007 @ 2:04:00 AM
i was wanting to post this earlier on 30th october 2007, but my dad was using the laptop as usual. anyway, i was good and slept at 10 that night and woke up at 2 in the afternoon the next day. HAHA. so now, i am writing in the sense of 30th night.
it is mother tongue paper tml. so nervous. hahaha. i am not re-taking. just nervous for my friends who will be re-taking for the third time. i really pray for them to get an A or even better, A1. it really took quite a bit of courage. i do not have it and have no time to handle the consequences of the courage.
how can you take it when so many teachers just happily
"discussed" about you in front of you and as though your fate lies in their hands? i cannot take it. so i left. perhaps what ms goh said was right? when i grow up, i will thank the people like them, who have once discussed about me so openly and thus made me strive so hard to prove them wrong.
on the other hand, i really wondered if they really created such a big impact in my life.
what spurred me on, were not them. the people were my friends or rather enemies, regardless we are/were close or not.
what i can only say when i come back next year is that, thank you for rejecting my request to re-take my chinese. your kind reject has given me more time to study for other subjects.
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finally art is over! as i was telling huimeng on my tagboard, ART NOW IS SPELT AS O-V-E-R!
i will really miss the days we had. every night before any submission of boards or any lessons, we will always receive smses from our friends- why friends? coz our favourite shop is ART FRIEND. i know it is lame, so i just move on. from our friends to ask how much we have done. we will always be frantically asking, how. haha. it is torture but thinking of it, it was really fun. after art exam or anything, the reaction is always, phew, finally!
the mass work during the art camp. haha. we simply worked through our "movie time" which our dnt counterparts enjoyed. we really love ms kwa, as in FOR REAL, not sarcastic. we know we are really slow and need the time, so we did not really blame her. i remembered me falling asleep and then i was jolted awake and started to colour vigorously. it was the joke then. so embarrassing. i did not sleep for the night before. i did work and blogged. haha. so fun lor.
the deadline for canvas which was postponed many times. haha. i was still touching up for the last time on the submission day. we were running in the art room and screaming for help here and there. i remember ansar and i were happily scolding vulgarities coz we had no help and do not know what to do. i think the mess was really cool, having all the backs of the double-sided tape, labels like page 1/8 & many, developments, layouts, final layout, colour schemes, final colour schemes on the floor. it was really really messy. my room at its worst, pales in comparison with the art room then.
we really felt relaxed then. all the art lessons after the submission of canvas, were changed to self study. the sova and the dnt students were envious of us, but who suffered later, were the happy and lucky ones who got to study earlier. we reminded each other of the last self study lesson we were having. we received our paper 2 questions on 9 october 2007, 16 years after i was born. we also received the photo of our canvas and the motivational message from ms kwa behind the photo.
she even showed us a powerpoint about the rules and expectations. she also gave out the timelines and the appointments she wanted to have.
You think: I can finish my prep within 2 days.I say: GET REAL!!! You think: I don't have to start today... I'm too tired. I say: Like it or not, your art exam has already started NATIONWIDE. There are people out there using the FULL span of the next 3 weeks. You think: Layouts are not important. I say: Remember the tragic prelim? You think: It's too troublesome to go to school just to consult the teachers. I'm better off staying at home to do work. I say: Then why was the prelim so tragic?My logic: Quite frankly speaking, Ms Kwa and Mr Tan do have better visual senses. You are better off consulting us. It might save a lot of time!!6123 was marked with a FULL-stop after the invigilator said, please stop your work. and mr tan added with, there are two things you can do now. you can either dry your work or string your work up when you are ready.
looking back at the days, it was really short and the tortures of sleepless nights, seemed easy? of course. we are not experiencing them now.
the art days we had with our friends were really fun and we knew that our friends are with us. we were in it together.
the things ms kwa told us, sometimes made us laugh.
when she was giving out our past works."the shit that all of you submitted to me".yiling: "then why we still can get 60+?"her reply: "coz i cannot fail the whole level?"yiling: "but why prelim like that?"i forgot her reply.when she realised that eric was not around for all three sessions, she said, "he must be creating miracles at home."
i cannot help but feel the pinch on my heart caused by guilt after what she said before meeting the invigilators. "i wish all of you good luck" with a genuine smile on her face. why can't i wake up before the emergency bell rings?