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PANG ZHUANG YI
true enough. well, if i am not talking when you see me, it can only mean two things; either i am overwhelmed by someone or i am E M O ing.
temper is on the SUPERB extreme. try me if you do not believe in that.

if a cluttered desk is a sign of a cluttered mind, of what, then is an empty desk?

no wonder my desk is always flooded. =D

22/09: two more hours free! =D

my FFF tried to infect me with the GG virus. i think my immunity towards this kind of things is quite high. hahaha. therefore, i survived it. (=

they sat away from me, for some reasons which i forgot. maybe due to me asking FFF to move coz of the shaky table. -,- we got back CF 2 test and i scored an A (FINALLY). and the suan-ings came along from FFF, who already have THREE A, when i only have 1, finally. -,-

i asked for break leh! =D so proud. LOL.

xiao hong passed me her script with 41 marks and she asked me to find her two more marks. i wondered why then i counted her marks and realized it is supposed to be 31, therefore needing two marks to get C. in the end, i managed to find.


23/09: another two hours free! =D

nothing much for college.

i went to town with jing after the delayed birthday celebration for kang en (not around), crystal (late), sophie (late) and siang wei (late).

abigial said it is for 6 people, then i counted with her and said there are only 4 september people. she directed me to fiona and she was stunned when i asked her who are the two extra people. i therefore concluded that it includes dharnesh and me! i told FFF that and she said no one is celebrating it for me. so in the end, i guess there should be another for dharnesh and me, coz no one sang for us! hahaha.

she bought many things! interesting erasers (which i thought they were paper weights), chocolates, pencil case (which she asked me to buy it as well and i did not) and food. i bought snacks from muji for the thursday-bore (two hours of math). we then went to soup spoon which turned out to be my dinner. x= and then home.


24/09: earlier than usual.

after math, manfred told me that tml is the final submission for WR. i was thinking "like it is my concern" until he told me to ask mrs kwang to release us earlier, then it became my concern. i asked auntie clara to help to say coz it is none of my business that WR submission is tml. hahaha.

we went to book seats for lecture before going to the library to do work. as usual, lecture was in a mess. hahaha. kiasu people rushing in and kiasi people rushing out. explanation: last row during the lecture will be called to answer questions while last group of people to leave the lecture theatre will have to be the last row for the next lecture.

ms aminah was in a joking mood but till the end, she flared.

she was asking what are public goods. some said street lights so she asked why and why are torch lights not considered. no one answered, i guessed they are afraid of saying the wrong things and get scolded. but after about 3 seconds, FFF and i mumbled at the same time, "coz torch lights need batteries." we and xiao hong sniggered under our breath in fear that we will be called down for thinking that the lecture is funny (it occurs frequently).

she was giving examples of government intervention of external benefits. she gave an example about her beautiful flowers which she will talk to before she leaves her house and after she reached home. saying that her neighbour who is so stressed after work, he will cheer up after seeing her beautiful flowers being an external benefit. so should government give her money to grow more flowers in order for the external benefits to be consumed at the SOOL?

she was giving another example of government intervention of external benefits-- cosmetic surgery. she asked us to tell her a kind of cosmetic surgery so i said botox. i think she looked at me and said, "okay botox. so you think i need botox?" in her usual um-chio manner. hahaha. i kept shaking my head and said no, of course.

so the example goes like this: after having botox, the people will look better and others who look at them will feel happier (EB) coz they are better-looking now. so would government give money for people to do cosmetic surgeries in order for the external benefits to be consumed at the SOOL?

just for laughters, if you can get it.


25/09: i was tired, felt uneasy, fell sick.

history: normal. disturbing wy and clarice.
math: felt nauseous. x= i even prepared, thought of and rehearsed what i will do if i vomit. such as throwing everything in my hands aside (except the plastic bag), opening the folded plastic bag in my hand (of course i will NOT keep it in my bag. it will be ages after i have vomitted when i finally take it out) and lastly do what i was supposed to. HAHAHA.

nothing much during break. (= glad enough.
econ was lifeless and distracted. x=
break: i was so tired and restless.
PE: tired and chatty. hahaha. totally sat aside for PE, not coz i was sick but i just did not join. but the teachers did not ask as well. HAHAHA.

chemistry: E M O T I M E .

ice-cream after that with sally and spark.
home to sleep and sleep and sleep.


26/09: study at thomson plaza.

i went to study with char and jing at thomson plaza. afterwhich, char's friends joined us. nothing much was accomplished by me (oh great!). at exactly 1730, i felt extreme and sudden chills until i ended up into severe shivering fits. x=

i cabbed home and slept from 1900 to 2030, ate dinner, watched tv and wanted to sleep at 2230 when i realized there is wang jing's show. i watched that and slept from 0130 to 1400. a total of 14 hours of rest.


27/09: now. so sick. so slack.

i am going to do my work now.
math tutorials due tml and wed.
history test on end of CW at 0910.

i must recover by tonight! or at least feel better by tonight. or at least at least no disturbance caused by my illness from 0910 to 1010. x=





reminders!

> 27/09/09: less than TWO weeks' time!
- 12/10/09, 0800H: promo papers START!
- 20/10/09, 1000H: FREE FROM PAPERS!

- 18/09: general paper.
- 12/10: economics!
- 14/10: mathematics!
- 16/10: chemistry!
- 20/10: history!



>>> ultra needed reminders!

1. send watch for repairs
2. buy medicine
3. buy spectacles hooks
4. shop for friendS' birthday giftS
5. get birthday giftS for myself! (:
6. carry on MUGGING for papers!
7. stop slackening!
8. some seniors' outing. -,-
9. collect fantastic results for promo! (:

16/09: testS.

economics test was a bit off.
math test was rather easy sia!
but the previous easy was only a B.
i hope this easy will be an A! =D


17/09: i almost died. hahaha.

max tried to kill me with his and li min's tutorials. i asked li min if she has handed in hers, she said nope and max seconded that response. i told them to throw then i said drop your tutorials down then i will pass them onto her table. apparently, max's drop is to aim those tutorials at me and expect me to catch. -,-

crystal felt unwell and she left for home during geography tutorial. x= i hope she is okay and does not catch the stomach flu from vince (somehow).

easy dismissal for math when she said she is giving us more time to study for our GP the next day. omg. x= it is just tml.

i went out and stayed in the library with jing till char came along. we left with heng wei and on the way, we saw suria. he is so sickeningly funny! dinner with heng wei, char and sam. we then resumed studying at 1930 then i officially stopped one hour later. super productive. -,-


18/09: GP promotional examination.

i was almost late for paper. x= like last year. hahaha. i stayed overnight at LXLJ's house to help her last year the day before paper, but the paper was in the afternoon, so it was not so bad when i reached home at 0830 and napped till 12. this year, i had to iron my uniform in the morning and thinking of what to bring. x=

paper one was okay. the question that i attempted was the one which i saw jing trying to comprehend her handwriting for her copied outline and the one i read the night before, with similar contents. it was RJC's prelim question for 2002. hahaha! so long ago huh. "'The Computer and Internet, while being useful, can never replace the classroom and the teacher.' Discuss." the question that i attempted was, "'Teachers are irrelevant in the age of technology.' Discuss."

very similar in contents. anyway, i think my essay is better written. hahaha! there MIGHT be some changes in the expectations from cambridge in 2002 and 2010. so i should not TRY to compare huh. XD.


i lunched with andrea, dawn and FFF.
a is for andrea, b is for boy, c is for coconut, d is for dawn! creation of this song was by tracy and continuation was by me! after that, i went shopping with FFF before going home then training. my objective of going down was not achieved. x=


how could i have felt that way? x=


19/09: saturday rotting day!

it seemed really pointless to get it fixed when no one contacts me. that really really really sucks and i really really really hate it.

i woke up after 12, nearing 13 hours of sleep. i guessed i have replenished the sleep that i lost since tuesday night. i tried to start work but tv postponed it till i have to leave to get to my grandparents' house. x= we tried to drag my grandmum along, but we failed. ):

dinner at a restaurant in bedok. it was like a posh restaurant but in the HDB estate area. price was like a posh restaurant's though.


PICTURES.
i was the not-so-professional stand-in photographer of the day coz my sister did not go.




the signboard.

supposedly appetizer here. but i forgot to take.



some yu biao thing. similar to sharks' fins.

supposedly a fish here. but i was too busy eating. LOL.




chicken. if you fail to recognize it (somehow).



a bit of the chicken from my share.



some vegetarian food. x=



this is super nice. coffee chicken. yummy!




steamed prawns.

supposedly fried rice. but not interested to take. LOL.



desserts. longans and jelly and "water babies". LOL.


20/09: selamat hari raya!

i stayed at home, did a bit of work and crying from 1am to 2am then went to lalaland. parents' air-conditioned room. apparently my air-con is still down. x=


21/09: out with michelle! (:

second-lunched at ajisen.
walked from mall to one.
met my and her friends.
bought bottle and ring.
but not really what i saw and wanted. ):


fiona talked to me about the dumb birthday celebration. -,- she reminded me that it is monday's timetable tml. long long day, BUT NVM. not that i have turned optimistic or whatsoever, but i will get THREE hours of break from tml onwards for monday!

no more PW,
no more GP,
no more sit-ins to listen to PW,
more more more more breaks! =D





reminders!

> 21/09/09: less than THREE more weeks!
- 12/10/09: papers START!
> 20/10/09: FREE FROM PAPERS!

- 18/09: general paper.
- 12/10: economics!
- 14/10: mathematics!
- 16/10: chemistry!
- 20/10: history!


>>> ultra needed reminders!

1. send watch for repairs
2. buy medicine
3. buy spectacles hooks
4. shop for friendS' birthday giftS
5. get birthday giftS for myself! (:
6. carry on MUGGING for papers!
7. stop slackening!
8. collect fantastic results for promo! (:

i am very ready to make a mega short post.
or maybe a long post in a mega short time.

i was super pissed before PE actually started. great.
i started my day without realizing that the nation anthem and pledge was played and taken. first.
i knew that our noticeboard has to be done. x= second.
teachers were being anxious to send us off to our respective venues. in the process, they started to shout at us. third.


tchouk ball! i think we did not regret it. (=
except i was being a joker, i ran and fell.
not that i tripped myself (so cui), but fell.
saying that i tripped myself, is an insult to my already ___ intelligence.


this is the knee.



this is my left shoulder.

i am telling all of you coz i feel that i have to establish a point that i may be smart in taking self-taken pictures, but it is definitely not easy to take self-taken pictures of one's joints. i have tried, maybe it is my limbs' fault for looking so hideous, but just get the point that the first photo is my left knee and the second, my left shoulder.


i ran towards the ball to prevent the other team from scoring. i think friction has also met its maximum when i tried to run and drag myself to the other half-court. suddenly i cannot slide anymore, i jerked forward and fell flat. due to the overwhelming momentum that i had, i bua-ed the floor of the tennis court. -,- if you do not know what is bua, another way to phrase that sentence would be, i slid on the floor of the tennis court.

before i fell, i saw that the person of another team MISSING the goal, meaning i did not fall for a good cause. it must have looked like i dived for the ball, which has yet to come. -,- anyway, my FFF was kind to tell me that she was bewildered by the fact that a lot of people was crowding a person, that person is me and i am on the floor.

i landed with my knees first, my hands, my left shoulder and my head. i had the tendency (then) to land on my left. therefore, only the left sides of my head, shoulder and knee are injured. hands are not maybe due to the fact that pegs have made my skin thick enough to suffer the blow. x=

i landed as super"man".
flat on the ground.
hands and legs stretched out.

just like how superman flies.


xiao hong and FFF admitted to their crimes during lunch today. xiao hong to her crime of playful theft and FFF to her crime of zhi qing bu bao. -,-


thanks for the attention and concern everyone.
i enjoyed and did not like the attention.
as for concern, really thankful i have such good friends.

side-tracking, i am SO going to get my phone back tml.


ending the post with a CUTE photo of my nephew.
i forgot his name! give me time okay. x=
and he was the one who struggled when i wanted to bring him back to the house for desserts. x= tough time handling a child who LOVES to take the stairs. hahaha! must remind my cousin to bring them to climb the stairs more often.


the bib writes, I'm a little monster.


i never denied i was an attention-seeker.
i thought you already knew, 20 months and 4 days.
but whose attention do i want and do i not want?
it was a sad song reminding me of the past.
but i still listened to it, crying over the past.
damn me. really.


12/09: HSA and meeting.

i am so tempted to donate my plasma next! (:
and our date to donate blood on 2nd dec!


13/09: last day to college reopening!

meeting in the morning at mac.
exploring northpoint after that.
home to watch tv, lunch and a nap.
took the stairs with my niece and nephew.
so cute! and i was so tired after that. x=
home to finish some work and online.

EMO-ed FOR QUITE A WHILE.


i do drastic things when i am upset! ):


14/09: sluggish morning. x=

GP: decorating noticeboards.
HT: debate was okay, but sweets were great! hahaha.

CH: i displayed my mentos and ritter sport chocolates on my table, LSK asked if they were mine i said yeah. the next moment, i saw one mentos gone. as in one "tube" of the mini mentos was gone! at the end of the lesson, i saw it back there, with the others, but someone has eaten one! i asked xiao hong and FFF if they have seen it and if they were the ones who took them. they said they did not. this cycle of asking and answering was not for once or twice. in the end, i concluded that it could be stolen by LSK. hahaha!

CH: ultra sickeningly boring. -,-
EC: okay okay okay, except that i ignored xiao hong and went to lalaland. ms wong had to wake me up thrice. x=
GP: erm. okay.
MA: erm, nothing much.


we then went to the library to do our econ market failure project. we realized that it was so slow and decided to come to my house instead. hahaha. why didn't WE think of that initially? introduction of my closet was done by FFF. i wonder how she amazingly described it to be seemingly attacked by a tornado and that made xiao hong and yin mei super excited to see it like immediately they entered my house. x=


some amazing pictures taken with my FAST (zoom zoom!) web camera named, Crystal Eye. =D



testing, 1, 2.




09/09: happy birthday to choppie!

i realized she has many names by the inventions of her friends, one of them is me! i heard sohie and others which i forgot. but mine is the most special and i forgot how i got her this-- CHOPPIE. =D

she is such a great person (and blur of course) and ever so last minute! she only booked her BBQ pit at ECP on the morning itself, bought all the food items in the afternoon and reached later than her deyi band friends! gosh. that is so CHOPPIE-like. XD.

as usual, after each BBQ, i will wash my hair twice, apply hair-conditioner, bathe twice, scrub my legs, toes and slippers. i just cannot stand the BBQ smell lingering. x=


10/09: slack slack slack.

due to the late timing i slept last night, i woke up at 8 or 9 plus (i cannot remember), went back to sleep, woke up at 11, went back to sleep and finally reluctantly woke up at 2. x= i did nothing and wasted time all the way until 1730 when i decided to accomplish the task of sending my phone for repairs. (=

i saw them at junction 8's mac, joined them and found out that hannah also sent her phone for repairs. her phone took a million years to be ready. hahaha. her excessive number of smses and items to be transferred. the staff (fatimah, who was from YJC) helped me to settle mine while we waited for hannah's phone to be done.

after that we returned to MOS. i wanted to get a burger before accompanying char and we waited very long for it. x= she was so sickeningly rude to the MOS guy while i was ordering la. hahaha. she kept huh-ing the guy. -,- i could tell that he was irritated by her and his attitude towards us are so different!

we sat outside for an hour plus, went back in and she left. i left at about 10, leaving lay woon and hannah still studying. (=


11/09: study at lay woon's bishan loft.

we studied beside the swimming pool, were amused by the cute children, were laughing at the irritating about-to-be teenagers and entertained by the cool group of people (which are us!). =D

he asked me out ot the IT fair! but i was supposed to go studying with them, so i did not go. ): he said wen jie mentioned about me therefore him asking me. woah. now i realized how long since i have last talked to or about wen jie. x=


zhi you you xin ren hui ji de -- 091091.
not once or twice that someone forgets.


02/09: back to college. x=

time flies and work are still not done.


03/09: dental appointment.

i already forgot how i feel when i am waiting for my dental appointments. hmm. i cannot remember the last time i visit a dentist. hahaha! as in those who are not in those travelling dental vans. was it last year eoy?

the day to extract my wisdom tEEth is nearing!


04/09: very interesting PE session.

i finally caught a movie with xiao hong and her other parts. XD. so i watched UP with sally, shawn and spark at bishan's GV.


05/09: CSI competition.

though jon's proposed drill competition did not happen, they have changed it to a CSI competition which received great response. much appreciation to all for the participation and help. (=



they said, at least he offered. damn! do i care? what is the point of offering when it was not meant for me. damn it. damn the fact. damn me.

you told me once that i was appreciated. yeah, "was". not now or in the future. i do not fancy all those big thank you and rewards. just a simple gesture, i do not even need the word "thanks". everything is over now. i am over with it.

i have no rights to say goodbye, coz i am not willing and able to let go. damn the fact that i keep getting stuck. damn my decision to stay or to leave. damn myself for being so selfish and selfless.

back to june 2007, back to feb 2008, back to september 2009.


06/09: paternal grandfather's birthday celebration. (=

i am not inferior. i am not scared. i just cannot blend in that well.
do not ask me why, coz i do not have answers.


07/09: non-productive mugging. ):

1040: went to college.
11++: started "work".
1230: lunch.
1330: resumed work.
1400: distracted and holland everywhere except my table and back to my work. ):
1600: stuck my butt back to the chair.
1830: started to pack up.

4.5 hours without factoring in breaks! shyt.
is this what a person facing second promo should do?


08/09: addicted. that is so me.

i just saw a cockroach flying into my sister's piles of books, papers, files and things. finally the relative of the xiao qiang i killed at LXLJ's house has finally tracked me down after a day. x=


thanks for giving those false hopes.
i guess it is not yours, but my fault.
i am the one imagining everything.
sorry to include you in my dreams.



reminders!
> 09/09/09: LAST intensive months.
> 20/10/09: FREE FROM PAPERS!

- 18/09: general paper.
- 12/10: economics!
- 14/10: mathematics!
- 16/10: chemistry!
- 20/10: history!

>>> ultra needed reminders!

1. buy post-it notes!
2. send watch for repairs
3. buy medicine
4. submit claim forms
5. buy spectacles hooks
6. send phone for repairs
7. contact cleo

28/08: refreshing SPA SPA SPA.

two answers surfaced. fine. mine was not logical though i was comforted by the fact that the chemistry PRO has the same answers as me. hahaha.

dinner at northpoint newly opened mayim.


29/08: .38 prelim and ROD.

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wei hao
ziyi

ansar; BAI SHER BAH
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hannah tan!
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huiyu
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li fen
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vernicia
xiubin
xueli
yi shiuan
zi wei

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