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10/01 - 16/01.
Saturday, January 16, 2010 @ 7:00:00 PM
10/01: chiong homework day!
in the end, if you are in my classes, you should know that it was not very successful. hahaha. as i had to do my work in college!
went for CIBTC AAR from 12 to 6. dinner at home and prepare for lessons!
i cannot wait to know how will JC 2 and being with you more turn out to be like. should i be hopeful about the 4-month issue?11/01: first day back in college!
parade commander was almost late! due to the principal's talk, PE was left with 20 minutes. =D boring lessons as usual. like ec, CH, ma and GP.
OGL training four.
no more mass dance sessions i suppose? hahaha.
i could not think of a reason why you are SO nice and SO sweet to me. as friends? but isn't that too close to be just friends? i really do not know and wish to get the key to your locked mind. ):12/01: cannot remember much.
went out to meet jing at mac. jing took my phone and wanted to delete everything away, but i got agitated and took it back. sat there for 1.5 hours, talked to her before going off when her mum came.
talked to qinyi and jiahui after i reached home till 12 plus which i told them i need to sleep coz of lessons tml. such a sweet story they had, such sweet experiences that both enjoyed with each other.
i want my emotions, tears and everything unleashed, but it just did not happen. wonder why am i doing this to myself? trying to destroy my life further by wanting to hang onto you and ALMOST re-picking up something what i have took time, effort and endurance to quit.13/01: lessons ended early!
i was exploited of my time to do my work. ): in the end, i only managed to finish my history. by rights, i could have finished all my work except the GP articles (coz i think i will only do it by the last minute). i was at the wednesday expresso due to the exploitation, went to the band booth and talked to andrea, netball booth to talk to qinyi, jiahui and kailin, SRC to finish my work and lastly, quadrangle to see the last part of training when things happened and waited for hong yu and tracy.
did cheer practice with marv leading at wed ex. ended about 7.
dinner with the netballers and tinghui. stayed on to talk to qinyi and jiahui.
reality struck real fast and all the impacts came hitting right into my face, repeatedly one by one over this week. what a way to start my JC 2 life. well, in the view of qinyi, jiahui and of course mrs teo, it is still early in the year. never hope that the impacts came later, such as before major exams like the previous O's?14/01: parade commanding with retarded skirt.
one thing to clarify, my skirt is not tight. -,- it may seem so as i have to make it look longer. it was successful for looking longer, but not normal. thus, looking as if it was too small for me.
stood for GP for the lesson, but others got thrown out for not bringing the book. x= ma, CH, HT and then break. wasted the history lesson away coz we were talking about anything and everything. rather easy to start mrs low talking.
two droning hours of math after that and i melted down a little.
it may seem that i am emo today. but i was thinking about a lot, a lot of things. such as, what should i do if it is confirmed? what are my plans? what will my reaction when i become honest? i hate to think of these, and thus avoided such questions for the past 4 months.15/01: first EC.
who was the first to remind mrs kwang that we have 1.5 hours of lessons when she wanted to stop after one hour? -,- super irritating.
one thing to clarify, i am not fat okay! i have to lose weight, i know coz i am not very happy with my current shape, but i am not fat! or maybe, i THINK that i am not?
did group work about an essay question meant for RJC students. totally cracking our lousy YJC brains. x= meeting with ms kwok and publicity. left halfway, and my things left in SRC. x= lunch bought by hong yu and chemistry tutorial with a question shot from andy chng to me. to think that he said that he only will call out those he does not know. -,- he called me after he said he knows the parade commander!
i did not believe that i will doze off during lessons for at least the first week, first proper history tutorial, but i did that. totally gone for the whole tutorial when mrs low started talking about the lecture slides. not that she is boring, maybe a bit due to the afternoon heat, maybe another bit due to the fact that it is the last lesson though not from four to five, BUT i only slept from 0645 to 0800. x= trying to finish all the GP articles.
dinner with kai lin. of course we talked about many things over dinner. from the point we met each other to saying bye, it was two hours.
guess that my life has to go on without you. ):16/01: OGL training five.
reported at 0830, had scolding and punishment which is 5 rounds of the track. delayed till 0920, house meeting till 0930 and telematch started.
same group as the college race's group. travelled from stations to stations, games to games and finally, "protect the paper" which is jing's station, my last station. informed that we cannot play with water BUT we poured the water away, onto people. what was great was that jing poured half the bottle onto me.
mass dance with kun yuan. me and the other guys had to teach him while dancing, with cedrick acting pro nia. after that, YJ banja and an action "song". debrief, more punishments, cheer practice and HOME.
whatever emotions to be spilled, have been done over these few days.
the NEED to get over you,
the DESIRE to tell you everything,
the RELUCTANCE to let go of you, so much.saw the below paragraph in my email today.
"LIBRA - The Harmonizer
Nice to everyone they meet. Can't make up their mind. Have own unique appeal. Creative, energetic, and very social. Hates to be alone. Peaceful, generous. Very loving and beautiful. Flirtatious. Give in too easily. Procrastinators. Very gullible."
true true, how true those words are.