13/12 - 20/12.
Sunday, December 20, 2009 @ 1:00:00 AM
13/12: ATC briefing!
reached kilimanjaro room at 10 to see the ATC shirts on the floor. i guess i am fine with any colour and not really excited to see it coz it was not what i voted for. ): however, i was really shocked to see the common blue with black collars and cuffs! navy blue won all other colours but it was d08's blue with black replacing the white. so called the rotten smuffs.
lunch was mac delivery and continued to 2pm before touching instructors' lessons. all the way until 4 then we started to practise our performance for the first time. it was quite horrible! hahaha. keys were off, lyrics was slurred coz we do not know, actions were awkwardly done by us and everything do not come together. hahaha! still, i believe our performance will still be a blast. =D
went home to check mail for proposal. waiting for trainees to send in while eating dinner. have to finish them real soon coz i still need to go over to jasmine's house for stayover. in the end, when i said i wanted to reach her house by 8, i only received the trainees' proposals by 8. -,-
vetting, sending, taking my stuff, going off, waiting for bus, travelling, walking over and i reached at 10. -,- super late la. but still, she was doing her group identity. blue ray, thus her identity was some blue strip of cloth with blue and a sting ray. cool huh.
talked talked talked, she talked, i talked, she packed, i helped her to pack and we went to sleep only at 1am. oh man! so late la. confirmed will die easily for ATC de lor. plus i am going to have debrief sessions until at least 1am every night. x= but i only officially fell asleep at 2am when i am on the floor, which i do not know why. x=
14/12 - 17/12: CIBTC ATC.
well done jean grey. (=
for the efforts put in, for the mistakes you have made to let all of you learn, for the memories you have given us, each and every one of you. all 19 of you allowed me to learn 19 adjectives and i hoped i have taught you something.
felt really lonely. listening to the sad song as i am typing now. which made this part more emo, which will cause a big difference between the abovementioned and what are coming next.
people mature, people change. i may not have matured, i may not have changed. is that what made me different from others? is that what made things more difficult for me to accept? is that what i cannot and do not know?
washing dishes almost every meals, eating late and leaving early every time, meal duties every meal. you can say that i have ulterior motives, whatever. but these are what that threw me into deep thoughts all the time. about how and why things have changed within a year, about how and why people changed so fast within a year, about how and why i have not moved on within a year.
18/12: investiture rehearsal.
went down after publicity meeting. felt out of place coz firstly i do not know what to do, secondly, i am doing things that i am told. x= helped with finding stuff, helped with coiling twine, helped with logistics, helped with clearing things. am i more of a SGW or what i am supposed to be?
19/12: investiture.
duty was delta registration. hmm. a guy asked me a random question which was, if i was from tanjong katong sec. hahaha. another trainee's friend asked if i know her coz she was from tanjong katong girls. random area 11 people.
wonder auxillaries. i really wonder.
seeing their investiture reminded me of 73rd CIBTC passing out "parade". on that day itself, we finally successfully formed the formation. but the weather failed us. ): cat one was announced after we have formed up at the sides! waited and decision was made to move into harmony hall for a ceremony. ): what i heard is that, after we have moved into the harmony hall, cat one is over! nevertheless, this is our only souvenir. ):
that is mingjun over there. hahaha. thinking back, i also remember the course days, ATC days, parade trainings and of course what happens before and after falling in in the harmony hall.
parade training, lunch, prarde training, squad time (russell and i exchanging identities, stealing of jasmine's round hat), (i think we did not have doing up of uniforms), forming up, adjusting my uniform, moving into harmony hall with a low batch morale, donning of ranks (by jasmine and pei en), reception, flashback video, phototaking, going crazy, falling in, back to classroom, COA into our CI shirts as d07.
such wonderful memories. (:
back to d09. =D
so fast a year has past. x= thinking back at d08 with haojun as my partner, charlie as my squad, more batchmates were around. this course was really foreign to me. syllabus, trainees and even the committee members. ): felt really lonely la. ):
one trainee took a photo with me and i thought that would be the first and last. from TKGS. next was desmond asking me to eat with them at the table. felt really bad coz i left my empty plate there and left with my batchmates to look for our course coordinator, neo soon keng who was caught taking food with mr quek's son. -,- taking food is not wrong, but making us run all over the hall to find him is. hahaha!
next was gavin and his friends. really random for his friends to join but still taken. hahaha. running all over, seen people like julitta, joseph, michelle and vincent, taken more photographs like the elite ones, the sui bian ones and with audrey (alvin's sister) who commented that me and zhiguang seemed very close during course so she wanted to take a picture with us. ran all over again, seen more people like calista, fiona and macrina, left the harmony hall with me and zhiguang disturbing jolene about her height. =D
attended d08, attended d09. may be attending d10 and so on. i guess i will meet more trainees and try to inspire more. was really disappointed with myself, with the instructors, with the trainees. was thinking back why did i come for d09. was thinking why did i apply for d08. was thinking why did i want to go for d07 even. zakiah's words set me thinking even harder.
d09 changed many things. my WOC (still trying to recall MINE), my mentality, my willingness to put in the efforts. nvm, coz NPCC is over for me till 11 months later.
20/12: nua nua nua. had weird dreams again.
random one:
i dreamt a scene when i was about to get married. -,- in the saem scene, my dad was commenting about my results as compared to someone (i think the person is that special one). the person told everyone around not to tell me about what my dad said about my results. i cried out and said, like i cannot hear and see!
due to that, when my dad tried to wake me up at 1530, i showed him attitude. i kicked inside the blanket i was in. he complained to my mum of me showing him attitude. XD. i woke up realizing that whatever nasty things he said was in my dreams, i kept telling myself, all in my dreams, all in my dreams, he did not say that, he did not say that, repeatedly.
going out with the na-s on next sat. will be meeting jing one fine day too. hahaha. depending on which day i guess. =D
