24/08 - 28/08.
Thursday, August 27, 2009 @ 11:00:00 PM
24/08: i slept till 3pm despite sleeping
early.i finally had crabs after SO long. x= yummy!
i went to paternal grandparents' house.
i had my dinner at amk s11 and saw josephine sir!
he smsed me and i was like, who and where? hahaha. coz i lost almost all contacts and for a moment, i THOUGHT i was stalked. hahaha! joke.
25/08: not blue but...
aiya i have no idea. well. what i have to say is that, i have stayed for night study sessions for this week only till wed.
econ diagram for case study!
26/08: the more i look at myself, the more i think i am a joke, the more i feel that the joke is not funny.
decreasing rate of:
- popularity
- attractiveness
- amazement
27/08: what a joke he and they are.
it has all been a confusion. i am now wondering if i have been too attached to them and want to have things my way OR is it that the "request" was too much for me to accept. one thing for sure! i just cannot understand the rationale and i guess i will not try to understand your brand of it. =D
born a procastinator,
i shall not die as one!
there is a new phrase between us: 真的.
my joke on her was mean.or was the joke on me? x=
28/08: "dental appointment".
i went home, brushed my teeth, woke my sister and she told me that she has repeatedly told me that dental was next week. fine. -,- i am glad that i went home! hahaha. in the end, i went to NTUC, got sweets, to my doctor, got medicine and returned to college for lessons.
on my speedy way back, i was enjoying the super cool breeze that reminded me of the past. long time since i had enjoyed such breeze. (: i was walking in an amazing speed which made me appreciate the breeze MORE! as i was on the running path beside my block, i saw two familiar german guys walking towards maybe the MRT station?
fyi, there was a group of german students who came to my college for an exchange program. many girls went gaga over the guys, well they are quite good-looking but then as usual, i did not go bonkers. hahaha.
the two guys were the ones whom my FFF was constantly buzzing about! i was considering between calling her or asking to take a photo! in the end, i did what i thought was more logical.
to jog to them, ask them to take a photo with me, to spite FFF! =D another thing to note is, SERIOUSLY IGNORE MY HAIR. there was a cool breeze, remember? and you can see that for one and another photo, the hair was good and bad. LOL.
i suddenly had a lot of people initiating msn conversations with me sia! buddy, yee tat, mas, jasmine and michelle! actually there were more but i forgot.
buddy: about his girlfriend.
yee tat: about a 'famous' blog.
mas: about shooting.
jasmine: about people's units and asking me to go and study and mug non-stop.
michelle: about shooting and telling me that my birthday is on 10th oct. ):
- i am not that BLACK btw.
my stomach is grumbling now! i will proceed to lalaland now and dream about eating
ginger buns! hahaha.
29/08: chemistry SPA. all the best to me! (:
22/08 - 23/08.
Sunday, August 23, 2009 @ 12:00:00 AM
happy birthday to roland! (=
22/08: woke up at 12 after xiao hong called.
yeah she woke me up from my fantastic sleep.
nope she did not wake me for being almost late.
i went to SMU to study with hannah, char, jing and jing's friend, kim. we did not managed to find seats at the basement so we settled less for the non-air-conditioned level one and it was quite stinky coz we were beside the food places. x=
i did math for about 5 hours, with pek chek breaks and food breaks in between. after that i fished out my econ case study, did a question or two then officially called it time-out when we packed up and left for dinner. super unproductive!
why is it that my weak determination is so easily wavered by passing remarks, mere suggestions and basically what i see? the day before, i was telling myself, i will try. but just a few hours ago, i decided that i will give up soon.freak show life.
conservative idiot.
should i ever give up?
18/08 - 21/08.
Saturday, August 22, 2009 @ 12:34:00 AM
18/08: MA supervised. GP supervised.
it is like we get supervised every now and then huh. before the june break, we got at least 4 times? just for GP alone is 3 times? numerous. too free, too free.
19/08: ms aminah is back!
she is back for our EC. oh gosh. i finally see the light after crawling (baby style, nua style and commando style) through the tunnel for at least 3 weeks. one week before the CA test till two days before the next test. which means i have skipped about 2 weeks worth of EC? oops!
20/08: vegetarian day!
first day of the month, first day of the seventh month, i have decided to go vegetarian on all 1st and 15th of the month. =D part of the reason is also for diet. LOL.
super restless for the whole day. i told jia min and rui ling that i am like that coz of not eating any meat for the whole day. gosh. i wonder what is the real reason. hmm.
SS2 module test!
so easy compared to SS1.
almost all came from tutorials.
hopefully i can clinch an A home! =D
21/08: EC supervised.
i was supposed to go for movie with buddy on tue after lessons but postponed to today coz i needed time to study for SS2. when i checked the timing today on yahoo, it said hub's UP is at 5pm and 7pm. he decided to watch 7pm's coz i had no time to rush down from college to hub. after dinner at MOS, we went up to get our tickets.
oh man. to think that we found out the timing is actually 6pm and we had dinner till 6.30pm! oh man. how can i dua him?! well. i am also the victim. dua-ed by yahoo movies timing.
after that, i went home to get my stuff and back to college for self study in home clothes. LOL. char and i had to see mdm koh and some visitors at the library when both of us are in the wrong attires (she in shorts, me firstly in home clothes, secondly shorts and thirdly slippers). the teacher was staring at me and hannah when we stepped into the library with the wrong attires. x=
previous weekly phrase is not continued.
lazy to think for the next. hahaha.
i am going to study, i am going to mug.
i am going for night study sessions! =D
reminders!7 more weeks to go for PROMO!
> 21/10/09: FREE FROM PAPERS!
15/08 - 17/08.
Monday, August 17, 2009 @ 10:00:00 PM
15/08: sat sat sat.
i had an event management workshop for the NE ambassadors. it was only on friday itself that i know that i am an NE ambassador and not wellness. -,- but i know no one from NE, maybe not no one, but an insignificantly small number!
i went home, nua-ed, bathed and went out.
1800 at bugis mrt station with the kids. =D they were talking rubbish, behaving in such a horrible manner and talking super loudly, but still, i was beside them. hahaha. we left the station at 1830 after raymond came.
we reached the venue, placed our orders and waited. the others joined us and we started at about 1900. i started my proper meal only at 2030 when i was starving. before my proper meal, i was eating my bei lei (shell type food) and some thin slices of meat. x=
before 2030, jennifer and karen that two small kids already declared themselves full before i started on my proper meal! after that, i chiong-ed for plates and plates, bowls and bowls of food like mee sua, the fei lei (starchy type food), fish and vegetables. i think my table is the only one with vegetables. coz of who? the health conscious ones. LOL.
i estimated i ate about 6 plates of food. =D jennifer saw me then shook her head when i was having my fourth plate and when she heard me that i was not even half full. x= as for karen, she was eavesdropping on me and the others while she was being full beside me. she dropped two chopsticks shortly after we began eating. -,-
we took a photo and we left the shop. after that, jasmine dug out a card from them from her bag and it is with jiamin now. i have not seen it yet! nvm. she will pass to boss, boss will pass to jasmine and see how i will manage to see it. x=
16/08: AVD duty at indo embassy.
they were having their national day! well. i was warned that they had 50 odd casualties last year, all were wet and limp (coz most and fainting cases, if not the feet would be injured coz of stampede). but we only had 2 today! =D one accidentally smelled another's arm pit and fainted and another was too hungry.
from this duty, i knew d11's figurehead. why do all leaders i know are figureheads? sickening kind of arrangement when singapore claims to be democratic. arrows flew all over and gun shots too. four out of six posts were filled up by those who appeared today (initially five).
PDO- edwin, log- me, community something- diana, admin- samantha (initially fundraising- hui qun). well. all of us need to have an assistant but edwin and i only have a choice! we will see how la huh. x=
full, tired and loaded with work, i went to my room, pulled out my iSqueeze and brought it to the living room. after 8 hours of duty, standing and walking, time for some massage! totally ease off my pain and weariness (maybe coz i was numb) after the fifteen-minute session. i staggered myself back to my room and with a thump, i floated to lalaland with my work on my shoulders.
ni cen shuo guo, dang wo zei zhuo ni he ta shi, we duo hui biao xian de wo shuo de hen shuang. na shi duo me de yuan wang ar! ni you bu jian de kan dao wo fei chang bu shuang dao lian dou bian hei de shi hou. li you we ye bu yuan yi zhi dao...of course i woke up later than my desired timing to finish my work. i am such an dishonourable idiot. -,- saddening.
17/08: lessons resume!
AQ was whatever.
history was cold.
chemistry was talking a lot.
chemistry was laughing a lot.
econ was lalaland time. x=
break was storytelling.
GP was getting work.
math was zoom and entertaining.
i have such weak determination that i can just go home and sleep. -,- when i was at my peak period of concentration, my decision wavered and went back with ye qin, abigial and shan wen. weak weak weak. weak determination, weak soul, weak mind.
tml will be a better day! (suddenly being so optimistic when all along i am so emo. LOL)
reminders!> 09/08/09: TWO intensive months.
> 21/10/09: FREE FROM PAPERS!
looking dearly towards end of promo.
looking dearly towards year two.
looking dearing towards end of A's.
looking dearing towards money earning. =D
(what about NS? hahaha!)
11/08- 14/08.
Friday, August 14, 2009 @ 9:00:00 PM
11/08: back to college. yawns!
deduction of FIVE marks for my tutorial. greatness. in this way, how can i pass my DW. -,- probably get a C for math coz of DW.
12/08: brain exercise! thoughtful. -,-
what did i tell myself about being kind? what did i tell myself about being helpful? obviously this is so chi li bu tao hao!i had some ADVANCED first aid course by an external agency. firstly, it was not advanced. i did what i have learnt in SFA, except learning how to use the scoop. secondly, i am not really in favour of the external agency's paramedic. other than being touchy to us (females AND males), we laughed a bit here, a bit there and learnt less than what i could have in that three hours.
but still, i have to be polite huh. -,- thanks for coming. hope i will not see you again! *weak smile*
something about being kinky too. why am i degrading myself? or rather what is the point about being with friends like that? zi zuo nie, bu ke huo. huo gai.13/08: emo-ed more than usual.
what i do not like about mondays are actually not the point about needing to return to college after the weekends, but actually the timetable. i only have ONE hour of break when the day is from 0810 to 1710. twelve hours in college, ten hours of lessons, one hour of break plus another hour of being in college in the midst of coming and going off.
what i have done to deserve all these? such a weakling i have become. probably will just shatter into pieces within a touch. useless.i had fun getting myself angry and had fun shooting a person in sms today during math tutorial. anyway, such things like poor concepts. x=
14/08: TGIF. welcome my busy weekends.
history lecture was like that.
math was sleepy and attentive.
econ reflection was great,
econ tutorial was being soft-spoken,
econ venue was stinky.
PE was appearing to catch balls,
PE was laughing out loud,
PE was screaming and shouting.
mock SPA was hilarious and a joke.
THE weekly phrase: touchy!
probably continue next week.
all the plans. what for. when only MY plans will be cancelled.
movies (so near yet so far):
harry potter and the order of phoenix
harry potter and the half blood prince
orphan
moodless TOTALLY.
wait for others to date me? yeah, carry on waiting for miracles to happen, carry on with your hands stretched out for things to fall, carry on with your hopes being smashed like a water bomb would drop from a hundred-storey building.
reminders!
> 09/08/09: TWO intensive months.
> 21/10/09: FREE FROM PAPERS!
i wished i could just throw everything off my shoulders.
if i could, i WILL.
all those responsibilities.
all those useless thoughts.
all those insignificant people whom i once called them friends.
such a foreign word which i wished i never knew.
04/08 - 10/08.
Monday, August 10, 2009 @ 5:00:00 PM
04/08: smelly day.
we had our first inter-SG game (soft ball). nothing much interesting. except me and xiao hong renacted what happened on monday. the conversation over lunch.
05/08: boredom day.
i woke up this morning to find out that my eldest uncle has passed on. he was supposed to return home today.
i spent a good hour in the library. i forgot what i was doing but it had to be something not that productive. since i still have so much work left to clear now (as i am typing this post)!
06/08: agony day.
i had the last NDP training after lessons which still, not everything is confirmed. that is something bad and definitely worse things will happen.
i went to my grandparents' house after dinner and went home late with my sister at 11 plus coz she has work and i had lessons the next day.
07/08: NDP @ YJC.
indeed, things happened. hopefully those were not too obvious to the college. -,- pointing fingers at others do not exactly help so, let us not bother.
lunched with sally, spark and shawn at northpoint mac.
reached home, bathed and slept till 6 when i woke up, quarrelling with my sister. we then went to grandparents' house together.
dinner, prayings for my uncle and supper.
08/08 - 09/08:
my sister went home with dad when he drove to my grandparents' house. i stayed there with my mum and staying with my eldest uncle till 5am, which i fell asleep. x= i went up to sleep on my youngest uncle's bed till 1pm. x= woke up for lunch then watched my granduncles and grandaunts playing mahjong. me and my cousins also opened a table when we started playing.
dinner, prayings and burning the things we bought for my uncle.
the younger ones tried to keep awake by playing mahjong. in the end, my sister and i asked my cousin to sleep at 2. we played till 0445 and slept. when i woke up, it is only me, my grandma and my mother in the house at 9. we went down and started to clear things. at 1030, the band came and we listened to them playing till 1130 when the last round of rituals started.
lunch till 3 when we went up to clear all the remaining things. i went home at 5 in my father's car and slept from 7 onwards = i missed the NDP live 2009.
10/08: i slept for 19 hours from 7 to 1.
slackening till 5 which i started to clear all my tutorials.
no more time to lose, no more breaks for me to take.
reminders!> 09/08/09: TWO intensive months.
> 21/10/09: FREE FROM PAPERS!
movies (so near yet so far):harry potter and the order of phoenix
harry potter and the half blood prince
orphan
03/08.
Monday, August 3, 2009 @ 10:00:00 PM
happy birthday xiao-xing! (:i woke up at 0630 feeling slightly cooler than yesterday night. lessons were as usual.
for GP, we did the standard articles in the morning and Singapore's education system in the afternoon.
for CH: last question for block test review and going through tutorial during lecture. a lot of people left coz they did not finish. it is either they are brimming with integrity or they just want to find an excuse to leave the lecture. -,-
for EC: supposed to go through case study but we did not manage to get it. ms wong started comparing some welfare loss/deadweight loss thing for monopoly and PC firm. well, i was not feeling well then i slept half the tutorial. x= so sorry to ms wong. x=
for lunch: this is interesting. i somehow or rather "made up" with xiao hong. hahaha.
last friday, i had the excuse (that i cannot see the board) in mind and moved to sit beside xiao hong during math. i was already a bit sick so i was trying my best to focus in lesson. buddy is always smsing me. -,- trying to explain myself, trying to focus in lesson, trying to track qi long down.
my phone vibrated again, there it goes and i did not pick the phone up immediately. xiao hong thought that it might not be my phone since i have no reaction. she asked in an irritated manner,
xiao hong: "tsk, whose is it? (looks at me) yours huh?"
me: yeah, cannot meh? (frowns eyebrows)
after that, we did not talk much due to my sore throat and a slight anger resides in me. XD.
over the weekend, i did not contact her.
today during GP, i sat further from them, trying to fulfil my social responsibility to the fullest. =D she thought i was ignoring her when she called me to pass me the Times magazine and i did not hear her. when FFF shouted, i heard and i turned to get it. get the point?
during CH tutorial, FFF told me that xiao hong did not dare to talk to me in fear that i was angry. i was like, LOL, am i that unfriendly like FFF? =D during lunch, it was a perfect timing to break the silence when we went to get drinks. (oops, i think i ignored her when we had eye contact during CH tutorial).
when we finished our food, she asked if we want any drinks. i replied, i want to go there and see on my own. there we went together after ten steps, i went to grab her neck and said loudly, "why you don't dare to talk to me?" she suddenly said friendly-ly, "how i know you ..."
during lunch: xiao hong said what the f--- to me. i was like, wah seh, HY said what the f--- sia. hahaha.
for GP: i said a joke then she said what the f--- to me again. i therefore concluded that she must say what the f--- to me per hour. about 1330, 1420, 1500.
for math: she said the sacred three words to me at 1656 when lesson was ending. she missed the 1700 hour's sacred three words. LOL.
i finished this in 20 minutes (shortest)!
i am still sick and coughing severely. x=
borrowing 5th HP movie from chia wei.
going back to complete my math tutorials!
work to be done!- one econ essay
- two history outlines
- three math tutorials
- four chemistry tutorials
28/07- 02/08.
Sunday, August 2, 2009 @ 9:00:00 PM
28/07: i totally forgot about it.
29/07: totally slack. x=
how can i afford to slack?
only 10 weeks are left. oh man.
where is the mugger me?
did i lose myself in the selfish world?
i almost forgot i already lost my true self.
so now i also lost the fake zhuang yi.
greatness.
30/07: CA1 first attempt.
i will not get A.
i will not get overall A for math.
i will get very low for A level ranking points.
oh man. oh great. oh truck.
and the na-gang just came up with a new topic today during "lunch" break about -sexual. as usual, i am the target. -,-
31/07: NDP trainings at YJC and YTSS.
nothing much. just that my minor sore throat turned severe and soon developing a fever.
01/08: unit sec 4 POP.
buffet lunch.
subway dinner.
chicken wings supper.
guess what is my current weight? x=
02/08: rotting sunday.
officially developed a fever- 37.8 degrees.
10 weeks more to promo.
reminders!> 09/08/09: TWO intensive months.
> 21/10/09: FREE FROM PAPERS!
movies (so near yet so far):harry potter and the order of phoenix
harry potter and the half blood prince
orphan
sick, warm and tired now.
yawns. tired of all these shyt. ):
