rubbish.
Saturday, June 27, 2009 @ 1:00:00 AM
"if you want a living dead me,
i can grant your wish.
if you want me to have EQ zero,
i can grant it as well.
but then you never cared."
EQ zero. how low has my EQ got? i have many great friends now. people like queen b (who just talked to me yesterday), xiao hong, yin mei, ALL, wen yan, the rich one and others. living dead? EQ zero? somehow these adjectives are not for me. i have totally failed and also became louder this year. not in the sense of shouting, but literally as a person.
many know me as the parade commander, some others their UG, choir or CCS friend, nearly a hundred as their YTSS schoolmate and another hundred as their classmate. the special three know me as na dui. maybe i have been that outstanding as a passer-by A in their lives, coz i am one of the loudest?
all these do not show that i am a living dead or possess zero EQ. i have already said, those traits are in me, flowing in my blood. try draining me of my blood, and probably you can get rid of those exclusive characteristics. by then, the zhuang yi everyone knows will really be non-existent.
it is very miserable, trying to do everything that is not me. it has been such a long time, will i forgot that is the real me, who zhuang yi used to be and how was i like in the past. maybe a pathetic person who does nothing but waste time.
as least you still have the ability to remove the mask. i no longer see or even feel the difference between the mask and myself.
19/06
Friday, June 26, 2009 @ 11:30:00 PM
hello people. here i am again, although i said that the next update was supposed to be after my block test. x=
what for putting in the emotions when nothing will be rewarded for the efforts? such insignificant and dumb inputs. oh well, that is you. what else to expect?
preparation for block test is still hopeless, nonetheless, i am putting in efforts to carry on with salvations. ): after hearing what queen b said about giving her mum a reason to get her her dream HTC, then i thought it is a forget-it case for me. -,-
my G705! ):
there is nothing great being faster or better, coz you had the headstart! you ought to be different from them, be outstanding from them. can you allow yourself to be slower or worse?19/06: qi long's birthday bbq!
i went there with cheryl. i really have to thank her for that. we walked from carpark B to carpark i-do-not-know-what. it was the other end of ECP. -,- one hour walk from BBQ pit 20+ to BBQ pit 57.
we even thought that he pranked on us. lol. coz we saw some carpark with pit 56, without showing indication of pit 57.
20/06: father's day celebration at grandparents' house.
i bet i gained a few pounds. x=
21/06: zero concentration. -,-
li bu cong xin. -,-
22/06: chemistry.
23/06: math and chemistry.
i finished chemistry till IMF. last chapter for another day, before i started for math. it was such a torture attempting the questions, when i know nuts about it. i am going to put in another or two days for it, before i could even pass. what about my minimum C? x= this sucks.
24/06: zero [] and BBQ with them.
i do not even call it a class outing, coz the attendance is just 14 out of 26. slightly more than half. -,- abigial did not notice that we bought the cake for her birthday, but she knows it was for her (coz we already bought a vegetarian cake which she does not eat).
we met up with the PHD in tokcockcology and had great times. =D though we are in different course of life now, but then we are aiming for the same place!
plus i came up with a few abbreviations. =D
25/06: zero concentration. -,-
zhe shi ji shi kai shi de? wo de lian pi wei shen me guo le na me jiu hai shi shi ying bu liao yi qie ne? ta hai bian de geng jing bu qi xiao hua he pi ping. x=26/06: i slept and overslept till 1250.
i managed to finish demand and supply. i am going for elasticity and costs tml! i believe i can do it. i have better concentration today than yesterday, so if i just maintain it, no problem! (=
it seems like what fang yu taught me is going to be useless for block test, but definitely not useless for promotion or A levels. my eventual aim is A level and not some block test.
27/06: rotting at home for econ!
i am not attending the meeting.
i am not going for 76th IC duty.
i am going to stay home for econ!
28/06: wellness ambassadors CIP.
i will be taking the 7am bus there for some sports thing, exact details unknown. -,- i only heard from xiao hong that it consists of a netball competition.
i will be mugging math on sunday.
wish me luck and zero distractions.
01/06 - 18/06
Thursday, June 18, 2009 @ 4:15:00 PM
01/06 - 05/06: holiday lessons. nothing much to say. except that i know i will fail my chemistry test. and PA PSYF concert was a success. (=
06/06: the day which i broke my rifle, 3 years ago. XD.
07/06: analysis of test paper.
08/06: chemistry retest.
09/06: slack slack slack.
10/06: i went to HTA, univited.
11/06: late for chemistry lesson! =D
12/06: preparation!
in this society, no one affords to be weak, even for a moment. coz being weak means wasting time and time is essential to success. everyone is selfish, everyone just cares about themselves ONLY. everyone in this society just improves and advances.a weak being stays stagnant, and not forgetting the whole world advancing towards their goals. there is no use grumbling about how unfair the world is, how evil can this person gets. coz time waits for no one and nobody will wait for any others.think about the distance between a strong-minded and a weak being. that does not show how capable the strong-minded person is; it shows how weak is the other.13/06 - 14/06: i have said and emo-ed enough? lol.
15/06: happy birthday to qi long and abigial!
i did all sorts of nonsense when i woke up. i did the laundry, sunned the laundry and kept in the laundry. =D after which, i engaged myself in a very interesting activity- PT. hahaha. i did all sorts of exercises to keep fit. (= after the perspiration, i went to bathe and went online before meeting them.
we met up at 6 at yishun mrt station before going to the fish n chicks beside sembawang shopping centre for dinner. after that was 2110 at yishun GV for
. the dragging was not literal, so no worries after being pulled by your friends after the movie. there was not much fear factor, but shock factors were omnipresent. if your girlfriend is really timid, you can try and scare her a bit. hopefully your dream comes true.
16/06: i watched wolverine and slacked for the day.
i went to do chemistry tutorials after realizing it is already the third week. x= catching up with tutorials is still okay, but then at the amount i have caught up with, the fear of inability to finish the syllabus took me.
17/06: happy birthday to dad and jessica!
i went studying with hong yu from 10 to 9, with stoning breaks, lunch break and chatting breaks in between. shawn and jun yang joined after lunch. supper after 9 was okay. i did not eat much. coz the proportion of my food is always sama sama to the proportion of my monkeys.
18/06: the day which i finally posted. =D
just to say: i am going to be updating after 2 july. below is my schedule for the rest of my holidays and of course, showing everyone that i am busy. XD.
16/06 - 19/06: studying chemistry!
19/06 : qi long's birthday BBQ.
20/06 - 21/06: studying math!
22/06 - 23/06: studying economics!
24/06 - 25/06: studying history!
26/06 - 27/06: catching up with everything! x=
28/06 : wellness CIP.
29/06 - 02/07: block test. x=
03/07 : jogathon (my card is empty!)
04/07 - 05/07: CCS camp
06/07 : youth day holiday in lieu!
08/07 : CCS practice.
09/07 : CCS performance to JC1s.
01/06.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009 @ 12:35:00 AM
01/06: first day of holiday lessons.
chemistry lecture test! crystal, me, vince and lionel went to the auditorium which was the wrong venue. x= we ran off to the lab area after settling down and realizing. in the end, half the class stood outside LT 3 while the rest are already inside the lab.
i was drowning in the sea of panic and my handwriting was super big. like what i told hong yu, yue da, yue pa, which means, the bigger it is, the more scared i get. x= i was frantically drawing all the dot-and-cross diagrams and could not draw NO3-. x= nvm nvm. everything is over, and i know i will do quite badly.
relationship programme was more fun than expected. hahaha. you cannot blame me for the impression that the college gives for all activities. =D the speaker is danny/denny. he is super dramatic although he made me angry by waiting for 10 minutes (and college made me wait for 20 minutes). my life should not be spent waiting!
choir practice! it is the concert on this friday!
dinner date with fang yu! (=
astons at sembawang SC.
she is flying to china tml la. ):
having another date soon.