sudden emoness. x=
Sunday, February 22, 2009 @ 12:15:00 AM
i was stalking someone's blog since 2200. that person is a consistent blogger in the past but not now. i only read like four months during these two hours? more to catch up soon.
some thoughts so far:
(not about the blog but everything)
EMPTY PROMISES
why would anyone want to make promises and then break them? true enough that there is a saying which i thought it to be a retarded one, "rules are meant to be broken" BUT does that apply to promises? oh my, i am hating increasingly this.
perhaps it is really time that i fulfil one of my blog entry's content. though it is in my blood, with this rate of increase of hatred for everything in my life, everything is possible.
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WRONG IDEAS or SIGNALS
i think everyone should just attend gracia's talk for this issue.
- how to interact with the opposite sex
- how to identify what are the cliche dialogue topics
- how to know what does the opposite sex think
- how to know if you are sending the correct ideas/signals
and more modules coming up, DEFINITELY.
life sucks and i know it too well.
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OBLIGATIONS VERSUS NECESSITY
it is only the fourth week of college year one. why should i worry so much? no one cared that much last year. why should i? why should i be the one? why should i be the one to remind them instead of some "inner compass" they should possess?
bloody crap.
set any hopes of any sort/kind lower so that
disappointment will be proportionately lower.
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CCA VERSUS ECA
i know there is no more ECA under MOE policies, but i was taught before this lunar year started, that there are co-curricular and extra-curricular activities in life. so now i have to use my "inner compass" to decide which is which.
the conversation with jie bin started out determined. the metup with partner wavered it. the pictures of 75th CIBTC are simply evil. i am going to slice
IT out piece by piece. i hate to do this but life is cruel. i want to care, but i so cannot do it!
TRUST is essential.
DELIGATION of tasks is important.
but STUDIES is my future.
(i never wanted to say this but circumstances made me do it!)
"zai zhe ge min zhe bao sheng de she hui li, ni bu hui bao hu zi ji, ni jiu dei jie shou jie guo."what have you accomplished?have you done more good or bad in your life?
05/02 - 06/02
Friday, February 13, 2009 @ 1:00:00 AM
eight days since i last posted an entry.
initially i was still intending to blog about every single day of orientation, but i realized my orientation booklet was with someone else (and she already lost it by now), so i guess i will give up the idea?
fourth: amazing race in yishun.
our route was mostly in block 200+ to 400+. i did not really bring them all over yishun and it was wen yan who did it. hahaha.
we then slacked off after lunch and practised our CP skit at the basketball court directly under my block. not to forget the three idiots who were having a session (i do not call that a game) when we are just right beside them. not to mention a group of SS boys with one injured fellow.
i never realized that so many interesting events can happen over a duration of an hour under my block.
you are the only one who reminds me about it.i guess no one will talk to me about it.your presence makes it everything all different.fifth: duty cum jam and HOP (more of jumpings).
we separated into houses (did i mention about me having to change from PEIRCE to canberra?) and practized our house cheer. after which, we further broke the group up into classes for college cheer, class cheer and CP skit.
i think our skit is very interesting (maybe only to us), but CTG 120 represented our house with fat riding hood. i forgot to add on that, i was sleeping under my highly-communist cap when they were introducing the CTs and when they already started the first skit.
wen yan and i went off after the five skits (i only watched four coz i was still sleeping during the first one). we reported for early dinner at 1715 and appeared at our respective venues for duty! the three of us (wen yan, me and hui min) were in college with shi yuan plus yang rong who joined and left us every now and then to cycle around. actually to check on the carparks' statuses.
after that at around 8, i rejoined my class for the bbq and the jam and HOP. while i was doing my duty, i have no idea what got the people so high-spirited to keep jumping (instead of hopping) and shouting. i guess i did not and have not built up the emotions. x=
i joined in for the last song (which was on encore for more than 2 times, i think?) together with jia li. one song almost led to leg cramps for me, what about those who were in the crowd for three hours? oh gosh.
clearing up makes me think of YTSC and YTNP. hahaha. i have not been doing such things for 2 years! i quite miss doing them, not the acitivities but the joy i somehow derive from the time that i am "tortured" with my friends. (=
somehow aka quality time. =D
01/02 - 04/02.
Wednesday, February 4, 2009 @ 11:30:00 PM
third: we had external vendors planning activities for us.
first was about olympics, ranging from YOG to spirit, to mottos of olympics and sportsmanship.
we had a challenge which we had to pull each others' hands to get up from the ground. firstly, it was two persons, followed by 4, then 12 then the whole JC1. this part had got me really angry and i think i have to restart my counter (of being civilised). -,-
where is your anger management?after that, we played a game which we had to burn off people's raffia string using a candle under the immense 1000 to 1200's heat and the strong winds sometimes.
1) team bonding
2) planning
3) resilience
btw, CTG 121 was ethiopia. well, fantastic runners!
after that it was lunch! unhealthy wednesday!
next vendor is the high achievers.
(and i saw many's favourite-- jon tay!)
kidnap case planned by them. now i know where does the culture come from, just that the consequence is different. hahaha.
we had to find the kidnapee (is there such a word, i do not know. i just copied and pasted from the instructor's mouth), solved a puzzle, go through station games to get a chance to open up one of the twenty boxes which contain our password and key to the padlock attached to the kidnapee.
do things not just for the sake of doing it.do things not because that you have to.do things coz you want to and believe in them.talk by the performing arts group and floorball, debrief then home!
tml is the amazing race and i am so prepared for it. hahaha. i expect nothing much to happen tml. and i am the parade commander! oh gosh. x=
26/01 - 01/02.
@ 8:35:00 PM
first two days of CNY were spent visiting my grandparents, paternal on day one and maternal on the second.
other than the angpaos and the good food, there are of course the catching up and playing! especially with my cousins. and and and not forgetting my niece and nephew. oh gosh. my niece is getting in a way more sociable (sounds weird but then) and my nephew cuter.
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i forgot how and where i spent my third day.
and the fourth day was my last day at work.
on the same day, i suffered from a slight flu.
on the fifth day, i fell sick! really sick.
flu, cough and fever.
i am glad that i am in year one, still. =D
more bai nian at my friends' and grandparents' house!
college starts on the eighth day of chinese new year.
and i guess i have to start college still being sick. x=
i wonder how will things turn out when my classmates are not my lessonmates. oh gosh. my class is going to have arts and science students. and the timetable will be no doubt super confusing. how are we going to bond and really bond? like the objectives of the orientation. -,-
anyway, it is not as good as what it seemed like.
(from an experienced planner's POV. LOL!)