14/01 - 25/01.
Monday, January 26, 2009 @ 5:30:00 AM
14: erm, i forgot.
15: charlie bbq and overnight at chalet.
the situation is already so bad, plus the only possible solution is a long-term one. and i doubt those people will help. -,-16: work today!
i went to help my sister in her office. i did what i did one year ago. writing the consignment notes, wrapping up the flyers and additionally, filing.
17: i forgot. hahaha.
18: i went to my grandparents' house then shopping with philo for partners' gifts! but in the end, i still did not get what i wanted to get for him.
19 - 22: work!
20:
i cannot believe i actually helped my sister to bring THAT home.
THAT is so not my style.
i guess THAT is my limit.
without the stuff inside (luckily?)
until i am sure, definite and confident that the adulterous couple is mocking me, i swore to keep my cool and not confront them. till we meet again.
21: i went to SP for jogging with them! it was a long time since i last jogged, other than the mass run during ATC. before that, my last run/jog was in college? hahaha. i am so healthy. =D
23: we went shopping.
here is the photo of a whatever's nest outside my bedroom window.
here is a close-up photo.
after we sort of settled the whatevers, my sister just used something to push the nest down. this is the size of the nest as compared to my sister's foot.
ARGH. such a unpleasant sight and experience!
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24: cindy's birthday celebration!
the colour code was yellow and/or black and i realized i am the only one wearing yellow. -,- i have only one photo from the celebration coz the rest are in their cameras.
me and adeline!
appreciation dinner!
look at our crayfish pasta. both are the same plate of pasta but it gives a different feeling right? hahaha!
25: reunion dinner!
it is always great to have cousins gathering for even just a dinner. the jokes that we cracked, the insanity we have in our blood and the highly recognized sense of humour.
you are not good, but it is time for me to move on.tml is always a better day!
it could be a passing statement to you, but i can still remember it as a promise from you to me, which was 392 days ago.
bullshyt.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009 @ 3:30:00 PM
if you want a living dead me,
i can grant your wish.
if you want me to have EQ zero,
i can grant it as well.
but then you never cared.
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today's LIBRA's horoscope for random.
"The rules say do this and do that -- your heart tells you otherwise. Maybe it's
time to live outside the boundaries of what's accepted and expected. Let your
comfort level dictate how far you go. Experiment with interracial or same-sex
dating, get a piercing or ask a taboo person out."
erm i am not so sure about it.
08/01 - 12/01.
Monday, January 12, 2009 @ 7:45:00 PM
i am blogging so frequently coz someone commented that my blog is dead. i am announcing again that it WAS dead.
08/01: i forgot what happened on that day? i only know that i slept very late that night.
09/01: open house, CCA bazaar and UG visitation.
i have no idea what is wrong with me lately. somehow i just cannot wake up, with those alarms, the special tones and everything. i guess i really suck. x=
blah blah blah. soon it was time for the secondary ones to come and i was thrown into the conference room for the CSI video screening. it was quite a success from my POV.
xiao zi. ni zi dong yi dian ke yi ma?after training, the Instructors went to parkway for dinner and meeting. not forgetting that towkay-neo sitting on my monkey until it become two dimensional from three. x=
what a display of low IQ and EQ.such a failed loser as always. -,-10/01: rotting day at home in the morning.
AAR at HTA from 1600 to 2300. it ended at an appropriate timing but everyone stood waiting for one and other. this is what i have noticed from these three years. hahaha. you will wait for me and i will wait for you, not forgetting everyone will take their own time to walk. x=
11/01: NCO camp AAR in the morning. and everything dragged from then on. after that, i went to junction eight to find poh sin. i was so supposed to meet her at two and like what i have mentioned earlier on, everything dragged from then on.
i guess i just realized that? x=tell me more about social life.suddenly the night is dark, so dark.
now i have three weeks of LIFE.
12/01: school in the morning and i went home. the encounter with the female security guard was so interesting. should i be glad that she met the positive me and not an emo zhuang yi? hahaha. i did some housework, rotted and did some housework again.
first time i burnt myself so cui-ly. hai. everyone will have their cui moments, including me? hahaha.
06/01 and 07/01.
Thursday, January 8, 2009 @ 1:15:00 AM
hello everyone. i am here again!
i shall post entries like mad until no one approaches me and say, "you have not updated your blog for such a long time!"
for your information, this is the nineth post after i was missing for two months and two weeks. my "last" post was on 09/10.
05/01: i forgot to mention this. i went to shop after going to school for i forgot why. i rotted in guardian, trying to figure out what do i need to buy for unit's first aid kits. i know i should not be the one buying but do i look like i have a choice?
i approached the pharmacist to ask him about the solutions for eye irrigations and he brought me to the shelf. while i was walking there with him, a lady came to approach me and asked me about one product. i bluntly said (in mandarin coz she spoke to me in mandarin), i do not work here. and she was like, oh you do not work here? i nodded and got back to the pharmacist who was looking at us and waiting for me. XD.
-,- let me decribe to you what i was wearing that day. i was wearing a light blue GAP tee shirt, with white shorts and my puma shoes (such a lousy combination coz i was initially intending to wear slippers to school but cannot?). the focus here is seriously, honestly not about the brands but the combination of everything and the colour combination!
initially i was telling the Instructors that i have the i-want-to-have-the-food-takeaway face coz two different stalls had my food takeaway for not once each, but once for one stall and thrice for the other! now the guardian staff face (not despising guardian or what), so what is next? i am willing to accept challenges (inclined to shocks than challenges).
06/01: more details to be added on!
training was hatefully cancelled but we managed to get 18 NCOs back to have a session with them. i did not do anything (YET) but my student OC, roland, did what we (majority he and minority i) wanted. i guess that was NOT enough. nothing was ever enough for them plus it was not the full strength.
i half sorted the Instructors' cupboards! why is it half, coz there are still belongings of Instructors hiding somewhere in the room, names and not pasted, allocations not finalised, there are bound to be unhappiness about what i have done.
but what to do?
07/01: i tore off those bed linens which are supposed to be washed and placed new ones! =D not the job is done by me though but the usual person (sister). hahaha.
today was just there and then. boo to me. plus i so failed one of my missions today! x= it is not the first or the second.
change your attitude!basically, the result is not out today but on monday when college reopens. it lands on the same day as my trainees' result. well, my college is trying to increase the anxiety level of the nation, i guess? -,-
i am going back to college tml to do the booth for UG. what a late notice and i am going back to school to get some NPCC posters. i do not think anyone will realize the non-existence of the posters.
can you memorize your NYR and align your actions to them?
04/01 and 05/01.
Tuesday, January 6, 2009 @ 1:00:00 AM
04/01: yeah, i really rested for the whole day! i totally slacked the whole day. but not really either. hahaha. i checked out the cca bazaar plan, decided how to scold, decided how to pack up the room and done the floorplan. (=
what is the use of them being done when i kept forgetting to do things. -,-
05/01: i again nua-ed until afternoon. i woke, had lunch, planned the schedule and went to school to pass ms yap the receipts for the NCOC. i will be getting 200 plus bucks soon, but not mine, of course. hahaha.
i just got a shock when mas told me that the promotion test is tml? gosh. but we will be making it into a training instead. hahaha.
06/01: i am going to school to get the letter from ms yap then to HTA then back to unit. hai. busy life huh. I AM SO NOT READY FOR SCHOOL.
so dead big time.
may i know what are you doing all these for?
after course.
Saturday, January 3, 2009 @ 11:00:00 PM
after course.
21: rest at home.
22: advance party and BRAVO outing! five of us watched yesman, six of us went to simei and eight of us had dinner. super low attendance but then.
i do not mind being the joker of your life.23: "shopping"
24: christmas party at jia tian's house!
nicholas, vincent, hui ping and i were playing mahjong. we assumed that we were too loud then one person from the opposite block looked over. me, being the mischevious one, waved at him and he followed suit! what a surprise. zhiguang joined for mahjong a while later.
we had gift exchange. my gift was given to julitta (famous amos cookies) and i received a cup from xiaowen (which i was struggling to wrap at causeway point ljs before we reached jia tian's house). =D
"I'd rather be. "^infinity then at the handle, I'D RATHER BE
CAMPING"a bad day camping is better than a good day working" on the body of the cup.
my sister told my mum that i was staging a revolt. HAHAHA.
25: i stayed over at jia tian's house and went back via si ming sir's car. many thanks! i then woke up in the afternoon, seeing 10 missed calls. hahaha. actually mingjun was asking people to go to his house for party but i was obviously sleeping. i had dinner at my uncle's house.
26: advance party.
27: camp.
28: camp.
29: supplementary paper and meeting.
30: training. unit activity.
31: training. rope obstacles.
abnormal zhuang yi has thought of a new descriptive short form that she will put to use very often- bgl. XD.
what is the use of having activities lined up to the maximum when my mind is occupied by you?1: rest at home.
why was i so cranky just now? i have been camping outdoors since sec 1 to now, end of year 1. i cannot believe that i will behave like that even if i was mabo-ing.
stop being so disruptive to the peace; shut up and do your part.2: training. UG visitation.
3: training. recruitment drive.
i was not feeling tired at all when i did that. i cannot feel more energetic than that. i was being emo as usual. coz you never considered my feelings.4: rest at home? =D
since you do not give a d,since you do not give a s,since you do not give a f,why should i?
AVD and pay phone.
@ 10:10:00 PM
second AVD but first time attending to casualty. he was badly attended to coz i was not in the mood at that time. x= i felt so apologetic sia. and also with the addition of the uniform which she commented that i, for once, look feminine. hahaha!
deep heat was the hot product of the day. it really showed me the difference of a singaporean and a (i am apologetic to say) caucasian by the way they asked us for the cream. generally all singaporeans asked politely except one. -,-
he stretched out his hand and asked, "eh got deep heat or not ar?"
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i went to uncle jimmy's place to get the shirts one day. but as usual, my old sim card played pranks on me. so i had to use a PAY PHONE!
woah. it was such a long time since i last used one. that is when you already have a working phone but without a working sim card as a complement. -,-
nvm. soon enough, this brand new phone of mine will be complemented with a brand new WORKING sim card.
also a brand new mentality about life. (=situation now (03/01/09) is, i have the sim card but my phone is spoilt AGAIN. i seriously am getting a new phone. any recommendations?
03/01
@ 2:00:00 AM
supplementary paper has ended and there is no time for regrets; only time for repentance. there are always activities lined up for everyone, it depends on the person's willingness to take them up. for me, i guess i take too much of those which are,
what they say,
useless.
third day of the new year 2009. i already have last year's resolutions to last me for a long while, but i still have a brand new list. well, to me, NYR are not only made during new year. erm, NYR yeah, but resolutions can be made and achieved anytime.
you are supposed to change it, not ignore it.the one and only next up- CLTC.
yeah, no annual parade for me.
december.
@ 1:15:00 AM
i am posting about december now.
actual course started and everything comes in. not only worries about squad charlie, but also worries about the planning for NCOC and worries for units' stuff. and the cui me is getting more and more cui, mentally and mentally?
not really the mental strain by the course (i am not that cui yet), but also a lot of crap which distracts my brain. sometimes i really hope that my brain could malfunction regarding those matters. just for some moments of peace.
stomach flu in the midst of RC two. and i guess it is really contagious. after i came back, i realized quite many people contracted it. there were three which i know of, just from squad charlie. such a horrendous illness which created quite a bit of unhappiness.
i did not have much time to rest but to push on for the next lap of the course: ATC. as it comes nearer, my worry for the supplementary paper becomes more eminent. x= i brought notes but i also doubt i will really sit down and study coz there is no time and how can you when all others are so busy?
i reached home SLIGHTLY earlier than RC for ATC and the next day waking up to prepare lots of things. either my estimation of time is bad or i am just slow. i will take both. -,- i did not sleep the night before IC and i was aux-ed down for the reassessment for drills soft skills. i almost fell flat sleeping while standing and assessing. x=
i got really angry with the charlians when they told me about those matters and when they thought i was joking with them. sometimes it is extremely bad that you are slightly laxer with your squad. what else can you forget on top of your collar lapels and white tee shirts?
you enter the harmony hall as a trainee, you come out as a CI.
once you enter the harmony hall, there is no return.
no more mistakes can be afforded.
to all the d08 charlians who may or may not see this post:
these twenty days could be long and tiring for some while short and maybe a breeze to the rest. you may feel like giving up in the midst, i am glad that all of you did not. some admitted that you have doubted your purpose of joining the course, and now, i hope that you have found your purpose.
all of you came to the course as an individual, learning from the Instructors. in the process of this, many of you have bonded, nevermind the time taken, and proven to us that all of you are no longer the same individuals that we have seen. we see ONE squad charlie.
results for the assessments are disappointing, at times some of your actions are even more, but there are also moments which we were glad to see all 26 of you grow individually and as a squad. the 26 of you form a squad, physically, and hopefully mentally.
it is always a challenge for everyone to maintain the standards after returning to each of your respective units when there are no Instructors to keep an eye on you anymore, and that is also why we kept mentioning about expectations and not betraying your standards. there is no telling of the future after we parted our ways, the future is in your hands, so are the futures of your cadets.
to my squad charlie:
there are too many things we can have in mind for one and other, but too little time to put them into words.
do not keep praises of others for yourself as you do not know when will the others need it to push on in life.
do not fear telling people what are their mistakes as you do not know how much will the mistakes cause them to lose.
do not doubt your abilities and thereby hesistate to do things as someone might be waiting for you to take actions.
always remember:
do not betray your standards;
rowdiness does not show the bond.
only when you expect, you see the improvements.
01/01.
Thursday, January 1, 2009 @ 11:15:00 PM
happy new year to all!
today was such an eventful day, in my dreams. i slept until 1615 today. i guessed i managed to catch back as much sleep that i missed as possible since the start of december.
another possibility is that i am afraid to face the reality.
it hurts terribly when you talk to me twice, only in my dreams.life is tough.
new year resolutions-
some remained the same, some changed.
some were achieved, some were not.
(that is why some 2008 resolutions remained for 2009).
it is time that you learn to be a human being.
