26-27/07
Sunday, July 27, 2008 @ 4:00:00 PM
it has always been the battle between prize and points.
it has always been the battle between faith and glory.
i know i am and can be more cui than how i am now. ):
apprehension took me unaware and it is still haunting me.
i know i cannot, should not, must not, but i am still doing it.
anyone, please extend your arm and save me from falling.
once my love, forever my love.
everything does not go well.
everything is unsuccessful.
everything is haunting me.
everything in my life sucks.
"Experience new things with someone you've been wanting to spend time with. Make a list of everything you both would find exhilarating to do together -- whether it's scuba lessons or a poker tournament. Be creative."
tell me about this.
although i said nothing, but i care. i hope you know everything.
24-25/07
Friday, July 25, 2008 @ 6:00:00 AM
i am trying to get accustomed with this half-owl life and see if i can study and produce results. my learning style tells me that the best time for me to study is in the morning. hmm. i have tried it for 3 days and i still cannot judge the effectiveness.
24/07: a long, boring thursday, as usual. /=
"you MAY become a math professor, IF you devote your life into math."
this is quoted (obviously) from mr oun during the math lecture. i asked myself: will you receive recognition if you devote your life into other things which are non-academical? the amount of recognition is definitely different, but i believe the degree of satisfaction and sense of achievement is the same or more. (=
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it has been confirmed that blood donation is on 5 august AND it also has been confirmed that i am going! there is a record that a person has donated 78 times in her life. WOAH.
as i play the song every morning when i study, i get reminded of you. so, tell me, is there/will there be a song that will remind you of me?
when i felt that life was -,-, i told myself what you told me.
25/07: good morning! TGIF! (=
i am writing my econ essays outlines. EoM is due today and nothing is done as yet. /= coz i remember what REN told me before, thus i must push on, even it wants my life. i will reply, take it.
LOL. i will be stuck in school until 7 today. i guess i will drop myself dead when i reach home later. i have been absent for trainings and i think i do not like it at all. x= i want to go for more trainings before i restrict myself when national day is over. i will then be able to concentrate all my energy on them when 2010 comes. i do not want to be still studying for A levels by then. x=
t3 weekly tests!
28/07 - chinese
06/08 - math
13/08 - econ.
25/08 - chem.
27/08 - GP.
it felt so real when there was the warmth.
22/07- 23/07
Wednesday, July 23, 2008 @ 6:30:00 AM
22/07: no blood donation. -,-
biggest event of the day: i slept from 1830 to 2230, no one woke me up, despite me sleeping and occupying the living room's three pax sofa while everyone watched tv and chatted. x=
i watched half an hour of tv, slacked for another half an hour, read my book for 1 hour before i was unconscious again. x=
here i am, supposed to be mugging for history test. x= i mugged for 2 hours then i decided to check my mail for any research materials sent by the library for EoM. we will be extremely late if we do not get them soon. x=
OH NO. i am still left with cuban missile crisis. drats.
this is my horoscope for today:
"When you chat one-on-one with someone new make a point to not just listen to what they're saying, but hear them. Sincerely paying attention to conversation will encourage others to truly open up."
someone new? what about someone old? ): is it the same?
jiao bing BI bai. you seemed to have forgot this.
the bigheaded-ness of yours will not take you far.
trust me. you have no influence at all. wake up.
stop assuming you are very good in everything.
good luck for my history test. i am left with this test and one more assignment to get past promotional examinations. x=
i have no idea how to make you feel loved.
19-21/07
Monday, July 21, 2008 @ 10:30:00 PM
19/07: .38 shooting. (=
i went to meet carla at yishun mrt station for WR without my phone. lol. i felt stupid and lost. well, since when i am not?
i went home to rot and slack until i left home at 0830 to meet jasmine and harry. we met pamela when we are at the range. there are a lot more officers than inspectors. x= does it mean anything- i do not know. XD.
EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO.
my heart sank into the deep, dark dungeons.
you are the ONLY one who can pick it up. (:
we had lunch at LJS and i drank coke like a thirsty hippopotamus. a large drink was not enough for me. x= that is probably due to excessive talking without any inlet of liquids. do not ask me how i survived the next 1 hour of waiting and another 2.5 hours at the cinema.
by right we should not talk, but we heeded by left. =D
brain food! food for thought:
have you ever wondered how intense will the pain be when your most loved one was to forget you? forgot totally about you, the happiness, the sorrows, the weals and the woes? until the point that you need someone else to introduce each other, until the point that when he/she addresses you by the wrong name, until the point that he/she treats you like a stranger beforehand, until the point that he/she is totally polite with you.
you are the only one who has the ability to replace the smile back onto my face when i am at my lowest times. i hope you will know it. (:20/07: mugger at work. do not crap along.
i spent my day at the library again, mugging for the nearing A levels. it is good to start early and i must start early to salvage the depressing situation. x=
i was invited for lunch when i sat down at the table for less than 1 hour. hahaha. food is energy. energy is productivity. productivity is ACES.
she performed her perfect first aid on me. XD. when it was not even a cut, but a poke by the compass needle. that was painful, but tuesday's blood donation is going to be more painful. especially with the punch to extract sample blood. they want to check if i have AIDS, SARS, dengue fever, bird flu, mad cow disease or other FATAL and CONTAGIOUS diseases.
back to topic. we vandalized my notes and assignments badly until 1845. XD. we then roamed to find nice books to borrow and i realized i am too lazy to do so. hahaha. dinner was KFC (i forced myself to be full so i will not waste money to buy the whatever value meal). toasted twister was painful for me. x=
we talked about our courses' days. 3+1=4. therefore it is "courseS". all the secrets, moments which are very funny, interesting, inspiring (btw, inspiring is also gossiping in sms language -> random), memorable and
our experiences.
the situation gets clearer and clearer.
my thirst for the truth is worsening. x=________________________________________________
this was what i had prepared:
i have GP test on mon. x=
i have blood donation on tue.
i have HT test on wed. x=
i have NDP training on wed.
i have unit training on fri.
i have promotion test on sat.
gen ni zai yi qi de shi hou, wo si hu dui shi jian mei you guan nian.
wo zai hu de shi, wo men gong du shi jian mei ci guo de hen kuai.21/07: GP test and frisbee.
the test was the first period and it certainly got my brain working (although it is difficult to convey the messages from the knees to the hands -> against the gravitational pull). that explains the strenuous process for me for any tests. hahaha.
i was dumb to titrate the whole flask of solution when i should pipette an amount to proceed on. i repeated it 4 times. i was the last to finish, so unusual. i should have passed my chemical bonding test if not for the careless mistakes. GRR.
PE was frisbee! we were like dogs, chasing after the frisbees to catch them. it is part of practice for our interclass tournament for the sports meet. we also had a defence talk by the SAF representative and gary is the second
lieutenant of a division. woah. it has only been three years since i last saw him.i was hardworking and went to the library to look for the comics which i read about 8 years back for my sister. in the end, i could not find it at all. x= all burned by emperor qin? ROFL. i guess it is my efforts and thoughts that count. XD.
as i roamed along street 21,
as i roamed along street 22,
as i roamed along avenue 2,
as i roamed along my heart's desires.
i wish i will faint after donating blood tml.
school is a chore. let alone the loneliness.
all the little opportunities;
i seize them one by one. (:
18/07
Friday, July 18, 2008 @ 11:00:00 PM
the ever so pek chek zhuang yi is here to blog.
the correct way to start today's post was actually, TGIF with exclamation marks. but now, my day ended off with only a "TGIF." a little bit of excitement still resides in the block letters.
burning with anger:
my day started with mum shouting at me.
i read my notes during EC.
i slept through chemistry tutorial.
i wanted to fulfill a task. WANTED TO.
i reached home with dad shouting at me.
MY WORLD IS CRASHING ONTO ME.
okay okay:
duty was fun! it was boring initially.
duty ended late.
i activated my laptop's mahjong.
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no amount of help is going to be useful,
if you do not want to help yourself.
no one/nothing can force you to mug.
only you can allow yourself to score.
limit yourself to ONE year.
(do you know how to count? O-N-E-, ONE)
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JAVELIN! (=
i have a undesired urge. x=
i feel like rotting at home.
i do not want to move an inch.
MOST IMPORTANTLY.
i am moodless for shooting.
HOW CAN IT BE THE CASE?
i must get my mood back by 11 hours. if not the same thing which happened in 2006 will happen again tml. no one is going to lose coz of me.
coz i am not going to lose. i must win.
this is my daily horoscope for 190708. x=
"Getting along well with others proves challenging when all you want to do is go back to bed. Turn your bad mood into a happier outlook by surrounding yourself with friends who know how to get you laughing. You'll be smiling sooner than you think."
WOAH.
ni jue de na ke neng shi yi jian xiao shi.
ni zhi dao ta dui wo de ying xiang ma?
15-17/07
Thursday, July 17, 2008 @ 5:30:00 PM
15/07: 2 days to LC, 4 days to .38!
i went to northpoint to buy my dinner although it was drizzling and i wore my frictionless slippers. -,- i bought EVM upsize and i got the Coca Cola Olympic Cup (Archery). i am going to collect all 5. (= i hope i will not miss out any!
Archery: 10 - 18 julyVolleyball: 17 - 23 julyAthletic: 24 - 30 julyBasketball: 31 july - 6 augustSwimming: 7 - 13 august________________________________________________
448 days and still counting. )=
wo de shang xin yu nan guo, shi wu fa yi jian dan de xing rong ci ju xing rong de.
lian qian yan wan yu ye mei you ban fa ba yi jiu de si nian, ni neng gan shou ma?
oh yes. after dinner, i vomited. hahaha. i would not want to disclose the full story here. it was stupidity on my part. -,-
wo xiang wei ni de dao ni yao de yi qie.16/07: 1 day to LC, 3 days to .38!
i just had NDP training in school. i was shouting in the hall while the badminton/tennis people are having training. hahaha. it was quite a cool experience working with some people i have never talked to. it is going to get more intensive. minimal fried food, minimal heaty stuff and more water for me for the next one month! i will be skinny by NDP. =D
meanwhile, i am blogging, drinking coke, watching tong xin yuan II, listening and singing to music. =D such a great multi-tasker. bad memories of me sleeping during LC and the horrible experience i had with the whole chinese department. x=
tml is listening!
i will not sleep.
i must not sleep!
is that a desirable thought for me to habour?17/07: such a nice number. (:
i am done with my listening comprehension! well. i spent $2.80 to keep myself awake. compass, sweets and green tea were my weapons. =D although i forgot about my secret weapon- my pen knife. x=
i have UG duty tml.
i have .38 prelim this sat!
next week is also a busy one with tests and trainings!
rang wo lai zhao gu ni, hao ma?
nonsense.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008 @ 12:00:00 AM
i feel like nonsense.
i feel like rubbish.
i feel insignificant.
i mentioned that my friend just visited me. that is something which i have been wishing for, but do i genuinely want that?
i have been saying that i am emo-ing for many times. am i only lying to you or have i managed to deceive myself as well?
i want to be like before, to be in full control of my emotions. judging from the situation, am i already numb of everything?
i have figured out. emo = me without you.
10-14/07
Monday, July 14, 2008 @ 10:30:00 PM
10/07: boring thursday.
oral was yesterday.
shooting was yesterday.
i regretted not going down today! coz coach demonstrated live rounds! x= mr soh said coach's grouping was like so concentrated, so dense and mr soh was impressed. instead i went home and rotted since there was no history. hahaha.
i am always thirsty for fond memories. (:11/07: .22 finals.
as a friday, it is short and i cannot wait for it to end as soon as possible. i created a joke during EC. how to differentiate students, NS men and adults.
i learned from ms cindy soh that there was a CI who was not awarded the SPF badge but he/she wore it. in the end, he/she was expelled from the Corps. x= true. it is an issue of integrity.
top shooters of the day:
192/200 from bartley sec.
178/200 from cedar girls'.
HMM.
you were not there to relive the joke with me.12/07: a day for reluctant tanning.
i heard A hates B for something A also does or has, just like how north pole repels north pole. well. i am one of them. -,-
now my legs are like a short stretch of the less intense zebra crossing. each portion is approximately a palm's width. x=
i must say, i am such a jerk.you xie shi ji du bu lai de. x=13/07: the tears which fell.
nan er you lei bu qing tan,
zhi shi wei dao shang xin chu.
i understand how you feel, coz i share the same pain, even though it was not as much as what you have gone through.
i share the same sentiments, coz i was treated the same way, even though it was not as intense and prolonged.
i want to do what you want to, coz i hate the same thing, even though your emotions were stronger than mine.
i ponder about this, you wonder about that. it will be lesser speculations if everyone could just come clean with all our thoughts and feelings.i like it more when you share about yourself. (:14/07: blue blue blue.
my long time friend has revisited me. when buddy was telling me, i was wondering, will my friend visit me again. i longed for the reappearance but i am unable to meet my friend. now my friend has visited me after a long time, all i want to do is to stuff my earpiece, blast the music and do nothing but stare.
IF every single thing was to be in my control.
09/07
Thursday, July 10, 2008 @ 12:30:00 AM
09/07: boring + interesting.
0530: reveille
0545: wash up
0600: revision
0655: COV
0705: sickening activity
0740: COA
0750: flag raising
0810: test
0915: tutorial
1010: MT
1140: tutorial
1240: LUNCH LUNCH LUNCH
1330: COV
1400: the moment: ORAL!1420: it is over! and the end.
1500: COV
1600: cab cab cab. x=
1700: SHOOT!
my NRA target sheet. (=
a close up on the black portion. (=
kong jian's grouping. not bad huh.
1845: meet up
1930: movie: wanted
2130: COV
2300: online. (=
this was taken yesterday? it was taken at the same place of the same place as the picture on top. same direction towards chong pang but under different situations at different times of the different days.
before i forget. i must blog about the dogs at Camp Resilience. there are 4 dogs, a black one, a big erm "white" one with 2 puppies.
on the last day of ATC, i was tasked by masdiyanah (actually i threw the task back to her) to bring the black dog away from where the cadets are doing their PT. the black dog seemed like those who do not bark, but you will know how powerful they are, when they strike. it looked extremely fierce and i have to somehow "pull" it away.
i have been wanting to play with the dogs but they kept running away when we approached them. i slowly took my pace towards the big "white" dog and it accepted me. hahaha. i started to stroke its fur. i was then beside the cadets. if they do neck stretch to their right, i will be seen. hahaha.
after a while, the puppies came nearer too. when i was about to walk away, the dogs followed me! woah, they are really friendly after being unfriendly for the past 2 days. XD. the big dog started to "stand" and put its paws up. i held its paws and then i remembered i was beside the cadets then i land its paws onto the ground and walked away again.
once again, it followed me! oh man. how am i to brush them away. the same cycle repeats itself. the dog raised up its paws, i held them, land them down onto the ground and walked away. the cycle repeated thrice, if i am not wrong. x=
finally, i really cannot afford to play with them. i landed the paws lightly onto the ground for the last time, and took off a run to the command post. woah. the dogs were friendly at the wrong time. hahaha. anyway, the other CIs were standing at the side, laughing at what were happening between the dogs and me, especially masdiyanah. x=
if everything was to go as what i planned. (: (:
05-08/07
Wednesday, July 9, 2008 @ 11:50:00 PM
05/07: training.
ATC AAR and sec 1 camp AAR. hmm.
it was an eyeopener and a new experience for me again. i wish there was to be a container which i can preserve my memories inside. currently, my mind is a sieve. i forget things the moment i try to remember.
that is bad, really really disastrous.would you be there? will i see you?06/07: no, i did not get to see you.
i went to my grandparents' house after a very long time. x= we celebrated my cousin george's birthday. we gave him a surprise by giving him a normal sized cake after presenting a cupcake to him. XD. we even stuck a candle on the cupcake.
i do not wait for opportunities. i create them. (:07/07:
qi yue qi ri qing. (:i woke up early in the morning at 0730 to go to national library to mug. i have finally persuaded myself to mug for all sundays unless i am going out for family events, meetings or important events. studying has finally become one of my priorities other than NPCC.
many must be doubting my earlier statement right. -,- hahaha. no choice but i just seem like a NPCC-aholic.
hu ran xia qi le da xue.this time round, i touched all the work which i brought there. from the most to the least: EC, GP, MT and MA. as usual, i did the same sums and gave up before i surrendered studying. x=
i am proud to announce that my productivity was relatively high, finishing 3 EC essays, 1 GP essay, 2 MT assignments and nothing for MA. BUT I TRIED. (=
bu gan zheng kai yan.studying for long hours can be really boring at times. i admit i was in a state of trance for a not-very-short period of time. i looked around, "chatted" and sms-ing. hahaha. but some smses only made me more worried. x=
NEVER forgetting the always-existent hunger.
xi wang shi wo de huan jue.mugging from 0930 to 1800. WOAH. is that a new record set by pang zhuang yi? hahaha. it is such great pleasure to mug at times. that is, i guess, without MA and CH. they make me bored although I LOVED THEM VERY MUCH a year back.
my heart bled again. ):08/07: happy birthday to george, who has yet to invite me to view his blog. x=
i hope we will do their best. our first A.
this is the list of the songs which make me really emotional (evoking feelings, thoughts, memories) upon listening to them. i guess they are ranked according to merit? (:
1. Zhu Guang Wan Can
2. Qi Dai Ai
3. Reason Why
4. Wo Bu Pei
5. Yi Ge Ren De Sheng Huo
6. Shou Neng Sheng Qiao
7. Over You
i create opportunities but they are not always a success.
01-04/07
@ 11:25:00 PM
01/07: the first of july!
the first of every month never fail to excite me, for some weird reasons why. rofl.
i love PW, shiok shiok PW,
i love PW, run run away ar.
see the PW, rotting there in the sun,
all thanks to everyone,
run run away ar.
i have been avoiding issues. x=02/07: a lovely wed morning.
i wonder why did i say that for. wednesdays are wonderful. lessons end at 1535. hahaha. the earliest of the whole week. it was never relaxing to end school early, coz of the thought that i will slack anywhere. hahaha.
i wanted to do everything by myself.
i went to CCHSY to look at the parade training. woah. doreen and i had quite a bit of fun by being sarcastic to others. (=
it was a rare chance but i wish that you were the one who was with me.03/07: PE = a talk?
aiya. my longtime enemy is haunting me again. SBJ. argh. my life is ruined. or rather my sleep is ruined. remedial PE. my injuries, my backbone, and of course
my dark memories.
i KO-ed during EC. why why why!
wo cai gang gang da suan fa fen,
ni jiu shi wo de jing shen zhi zhu.04/07: FRIDAY!
i went down to HTA, or rather, i was tricked to go down. -,- no wonder he said i was dumb. i think so too! i went down just to give out tickets. x= nvm. at least joseph accompanied me for a while before he went off. he treated me to sweets!
okay, i know i sounded childish. i was freezing and starving in the FI office. i was smart to grab my jacket before going down. =D we went for dinner at LJS. woots. the topic for the night was,
encounters (what we discussed for BRAVO outing). =D
my train was packed with people. i was feeling stuffy. i wish i am sick but not at that point of time coz it is already weekends. there is also an appropriate time to be sick. XD.
wei wo mao xian, wei wo shou shang.bu zhi de, bu hua suan, wo bu pei.
27-30/06
Wednesday, July 2, 2008 @ 9:00:00 PM
27/06:
END OF BLOCK TESTS!
ARRIVAL OF DEATH. x=
one day free! coz i do not take H2 PH or BI. i went to parkway and had lunch with xiao-xing. what i ate was totally insufficient. the moment i reached the school gate, i am hungry again. my ferocious appetite. should i fear it or actually be proud of it?
such a thought-provoking statement.
contingent training, muster parade, investiture.
dinner at BK, had discussion about the competition and finalized everything. we are now left with the help of all units in singapore! area 1 to 20, a total of 155 units and we cannot get 10? oh man.
why were you the one who contributed?on first thought, i was really at fault. ):28/06: sec 1 camp AAR.
we talked about the sec 1 camp and unit's AOB. wah. i am going to take over sec 1s next year. how can my ferocious temper (and my ferocious appetite) be able to handle them? hahaha.
BRAVO OUTING! purple is gay and gay is happy!
i flew home after AAR to bathe and change. hmm. i smell great! hahaha. i went to tampines to meet jasmine for some shopping before meeting the rest. everyone was late, except keith who arrived at 1730. hahaha. he was dismissed from work early.
eighteen chefs at east point was our final decision and none of us regretted it! eighteen chefs is halal, cheap, great food and has nice ambiance. it was a suggestion by lizzie!
good evening ma'am.
i, I/C of BRAVO squad reporting ma'am.
total strength 26, present 10.
permission to carry on ma'am.
the 10 in no order of merit:
ain, cleopatra, elizabeth, HO kang wen, jia xin,
jasmine, ME, ngmeiqijolene, qaiyuum, russell.
according to the photo:
ME, qaiyuum, elizabeth, kang wen, russell,
ain, jia xin, jasmine.
this is a bit very very very cliche, but i still must say,
IN MEMORIES, WE ARE EXTREMELY RICH.
i do want to be rich in memories and financially. XD.i wanted to make it an alternate week thing. hahaha! initially weekly. well well well. i cannot even make it for all sessions if this is the case and i cannot expect everyone to turn up.
all the sacrifices are worth it.
coz all of them are for you. (:
29/06: SUNDAY!
i mug mug mug at national library.
i brought math, chem and CHINESE (which made us very excited)! in the end, i only finished IMF tutorial and at most 3 math questions? that was really sad. my productivity has decreased drastically! it has been like that for a very long period of time since school opened for JAE and of course, i have been ignoring the pressing issue for that same very long period of time.
from today onwards:
- participate in UG activities ;
- attend less trainings (NO!) ;
- DO NOT LAG BEHIND ;
- sleep more at night ;
- awake during lessons ;
- STUDY AND REVISE.
that seems like the best i can think of and COMMIT to at the moment. i will be freer after two weeks! blah blah. suddenly i thought of napfa. -,-
maybe i will add, GOLD FOR NAPFA.
do not take everything for granted.i must treat every moment as a gift.
30/06:
school reopens.
agony is a CD and is on play mode.
soon it will be fast forward.
OH NO! i was reminded about assignments!
why do i get sudden unpleasant reminders?
my brain must start working now now now!
why you cannot accomplish it?
it is such a simple task! -,-
you are so, so, so useless.
NAPFA.
ASSIGNMENTS.
quan xin quan yi de xiang he hu ni. (:
22-26/06
@ 8:45:00 PM
22/06:
we will not know the end unless we have endured through the process. can i put the sentence to talk about BTs? hahaha. i must try to throw all positive thoughts to face the BTs for these 4 days. x=
i must start to MUG after the BTs.
i must not procrastinate again.
if i do, i have such a BLEAK future.
are WE regretting everything now? x=i hope not. coz they will be worthy of it.23/06:
today is the start of my favourite! =D
economics!
concepts are very comprehensible but they are difficult to apply. you cannot miss out any points. essay format is although similar to GP and history, yet they vary from the approach.
confusing. -,-
every single bit and piece of my life,
reminds me of the enchanting you.24/06:
i went down to HTA to hand in my forms. i tried to study outside the room where i returned my number 1. how much success it is, will have to depend on my BT results.
they used to be my favourite subjects, but judging my situation now, they are enemies now. x= however, no matter how deep are my hatreds to them, i must learn to embrace them, accept them and merge them into my life. hahaha!
i hate those areas which are fenced or blocked up. it places too much emphasis on my idiocy.i am still watching tv. x=
watching it reminded me of how i grabbed your hand for the first time. the lame excuse which i cooked up just for it.25/06:
math math math.
it is similar to amaths! single digit and everything. hahaha. but my attitude towards maths is not as bad as my attitude for amaths IMPROVED! i am already practising my sums at this point of time whereas i started for amaths during prelims.
the sense of NOT belonging.
the extreme paranoia. the ultimate fear.26/06:
LAST DAY! history and chemistry.
such subjects which require intensive mugging sessions for at least a week! i had always found history interesting and chemistry EASY when i was in sec 4. hahaha. but the levels of difficulty increase with the increasing number of years i am on earth.
I WILL NOT TALK ABOUT WHAT IS IN THE PAST!
my BTs are really badly done. x=
i need your agreement,
i need your approval,
i need your assurance.
can i get them from you?
ATC.
@ 8:30:00 PM
i have not been posting for 14 days? i have been in quite a very very dull mood lately. x=
ATC.i met aaron to get the instructor's shirt to wear during the ATC. before i saw him, my principal came over and talked to me. woah. she recognized me? are my results that bad? hmm. i think so. hahaha. i went down to unit then to northpoint to take a taxi down with the others.
the cycle from the shop to the campsite was insane! especially i cycled to bahru! i stopped thrice due to the mountains. hahaha. it was my first time, so i will be giving myself chances for remedy. i hope i am going for the one in october as well.
IBG.i am the group instructor for falcon. just like LMSC, i asked them to do a simple introduction of themselves while i frantically tried to copy their names down. hahaha. coz everyone could not remember each other's names, we repeated the cycle twice. and of course, i could not finish copying their names. x=
we did not play the most standard ATC game with them coz dzafir and i brought them to the training shed and it would be a bit too impossible to bring a bench over. hahaha. btw, if you have no idea, it is the one which you have to arrange yourself in a certain order, i.e. birthdays, first alphabet of your name etcetera.
TENT PITCHING.
i did not shout at anyone until i realized sometimes human beings work better under stress. =D here arrives the sadistic streak!
TBG.i am the CI in charge of TBG. the lesson plan which i spent one day working on, was not used at all. yes, my efforts were wasted, but at least no hiccups occurred. x= i am the SM of key punch. woots! i would consider this the most exciting and competitive game!
i felt sadistic when i kept the timing from the cadets. they were so anxious to find out. everyone put in their best, if not they will be targeted. hahaha. if everyone was to cooperate for everything on that basis, it will be world peace. LOL.
learning points:
- HAVE THE TARGET/GOAL IN MIND
- determination
- communication (the non verbal kinds)
- cooperation
- coordination
- LEARN MATH
why have i become so cui beyond words? what have happened to me? where have all my confidence gone to?campfire. i am the youngest of the whole Camp Resilience's Instructors. x= so i entered the council ring last. sian. what if i get abducted by monsters? HAHAHA. that was really wishful thinking. i walked back to Bahru and feasted on the watermelons and honeydews. YUMMY!
i cooked maggie mee and heated curry chicken while reading economics notes. snorts! i was alone. i slept at 3, woke up several times to check on the cadets and pushed myself off the bench at 5.
i finally exploded on the last day. hahaha. it is a bit too late though. it was not even 50%. i guess no one can make me till 100% of my anger. i have decided, i should not accommodate with people who do not deserve my tolerance and they will get scolding(s) from me. =D
blah blah. jing lin and i cycled to the jetty and bought the cadets cold soft drinks. they did not have time to indulge themselves though. hahaha. lunch at long john silver and i fell asleep while smsing, AGAIN.
CI gathering at a carpark. although i feel that why is the bonding after the camp, but overall, the activities we had were really fun! although i have several bruises from yew chow. he is really violent and he whacks without a care. next time he shall be sandwiched in between two female HOs. hahaha. he needs to be controlled.
SLEEP!
my plans went into the drains, isn't it?
those days were really different from now. (:
