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PANG ZHUANG YI
true enough. well, if i am not talking when you see me, it can only mean two things; either i am overwhelmed by someone or i am E M O ing.
temper is on the SUPERB extreme. try me if you do not believe in that.

if a cluttered desk is a sign of a cluttered mind, of what, then is an empty desk?

no wonder my desk is always flooded. =D

i met my cousin at woodlands to pass him the cream and then i headed to orchard. first time i hate orchard SO much. i was trying to find the bus stop which has 132 which gets to the old police academy. i nearly gave up, was on the verge to call sabrina and told her that i was not feeling well.

but then i did not give up. i walked my way to far east, hoping very much that i can find the bus. GOSH. i think heavens took pity on me and let me see bus 132 passing by. i went to the opposite side and realised the bus i saw was the one i was supposed to take.

i waited for the next and it was already 530 when i boarded it. i alighted at the stop when i saw many students. i thought that was opposite catholic jc. yeah yeah. suddenly the heavens hate me again and it turned out that it was not that stop. i boarded any bus and landed one stop after my destination.

GRR. i walked my way back to the earlier bus stop, hopefully, coz the bus went over a highway and i wondered if it can be linked back. it does and i was thanking everyone in my mind. i walked, walked and walked AND FINALLY, i reached old police academy. it was already 6pm.

the measuring, cutting, taping, coiling, QUALITY CHECKING and packing were all filled with our laughters! =D fun fun FUN! tml will be another 3 hours of fun! maybe plus a bit of stress that we cannot finish everything on time.

dumb SHC which changed my appointment date from 5 feb to 10 mar. and then the title was"RE: [SPAM]". gosh. who will be so free to spam SHC? grr. i am angry now. WHY WHY WHY. all the arrangements have been made, until that email came. GRR!

i wonder if "the day" will ever come, but still,

patiently awaiting the day. ((:


i almost overslept today. but in the end, i did not. isn't that what "almost" means. hahaha. i went out and came home empty-handed.

I HAVE NOT BOUGHT MY NEW YEAR CLOTHES!
BOTTOMS, SHOES AND BAG! humph.

i still cannot believe what i have done to the stranger on the train home.
GOSH.

i found this on suriani's blog.

What Pang Zhuang Yi Means

You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people. Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems. Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way. And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life. You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

i wonder why i am so fortunate.

firstly, pus flowed from my blister like how i salivate every night (like real. hahaha!).
secondly, i thought i could not find any plaster at home.
thirdly, SMS MEMORY FULL AGAIN! i am going to samsung mobile to get it fixed. 230/500 only!
and now, i am transferring ALL 230 of them into my another phone before i sent it for upgrading.

1: yishun junior college science
2: serangoon junior college science
3: yishun junior college arts
4: serangoon junior college arts
5: pioneer junior college science
6: pioneer junior college arts
7: innova junior college science
8: innova junior college arts
9: early childhood education (ngee ann poly)
10: business studies (ngee ann poly)
11: accountancy (ngee ann poly)
12: culinary and catering management (temasek poly)

btw, the part about me salivating every night is a FICTION.

i miss you loads. do you?

patiently awaiting the day. ((:


i have decided to update my blog after many days of games. hahaha.

24/01: it is the day we received our judgment. fine and well. efforts put in=/= efforts shown on paperwork. nvm.

25/01: i went to serangoon junior college before heading to HTA. it was my first training at HTA for NPAP! seriously, i was roaming around looking for anyone needing help. in the end, i stuck myself to derrick who is in charge contingent 10, consisting of area 2 and 6.

for the whole training, i was wondering how to pronounce his name. i am also embarrassed to ask. usually everyone will know what is the person's name when the person is in full uniform. "cheuk ho" is on his name tag.

we went for dinner. i ate claypot rice, alvin and derrick ate pepper lunch and rahimi nasi briyani, i think. we talked about our CIBTC days. I REALLY MISSED THEM. i do not mind going for another one. (= yeah! i have 4 new blisters on old blister spots. why is it that my boots are seasoned in that manner that the sides eat my skin away. -,-

26/01: i arrived late for the training coz of one ludicrous reason. teaching the sec 2s how to salute AGAIN. drills and drills then short period of camp craft. i scolded them AGAIN. i find it funny but no one laughed. but if they did, they can never laugh, i guess. -,- life in NPCC seemed repetitive. hahaha. but always fun!

i went to yishun junior college with amy and weizhou leading, after fortune fiesta with rahimi, victoria, wenwei and kongjian! i forgot to visit a place which is always being praised. hahaha.

27/01: last full day to decide on schools and courses. lalala. i then watched 881 for the first time at my grandparents' house. nice nice. but then i think i have to watch it a second time in a more conducive environment. i went to ethel's house to submit the JAE form then print. i forgot to add my handphone number, evelyn gave me the wrong pin but still able to login while peixin typed in extra "l" for email.

28/01: i ate corn and went out to walk walk AGAIN. it is so so so difficult to buy bottoms, shoes and bag that i like, are suitable for me, are of a reasonable price and family will not object to them. hmm. who can i go shopping with?


i pray it can be done and you will like it.

patiently awaiting the day. ((:


i was woken by rahimi's call at 0602, ignored it, had a dream of me changing the bedsheets and then woke up to really change the sheets.

i had maggie and went out to meet joycelyn, hui yu, vanessa and howleong. we chatted until 6 then i left for HTA for the briefing.

the briefing is about how the parade is going to be like- where the people march from, how they enter, where to exit and how to exit. we had "dinner" at ljs and home.

lousy mood on the way home. russell was "scared" of one of my statements. coz i said i was troubled by something. i said, "not boyfriend la", and i added, "also not girlfriend." and he looked as if i was some monster. HAHAHA.

alright. tml is the judgment day. actually, the judgment was already made when we handed in the paper. it is just that we get to know the conclusion.

i am deluding myself.
or rather,
i have been deluding myself since then.


i am sorry. )):

patiently awaiting the day. ((:


22/01: i was woken up by many people today. smses and calls from mas, my mum and i forgot who else. i switched on the laptop and watched the last episode of COFFEE PRINCE. it is a really nice show. 5/5 thumbs UP.

why am i always hungry? let me give you rough examples from these few days.
i wake at around 11, eat some biscuits at 1130, bathed and prepare for training. lunch is around 1230. training blah blah. dinner at 7+. at 11pm, i will be hungry. not just want to bite something, but EAT.

i am so not going to let my body to continue expanding sideways. i will say yes to ansar's date to gym the next time we are on the phone. i will then push all other appointments aside and really workout. ARGH! my stomach is grumbling again. it is scary!


my birthday lands on yours again, in year 2019.

patiently awaiting the day. ((:



while i was waiting in the yishun interchange today, i saw this funny incident. this incident involved 2 boys and 2 girls from a school in yishun, but i shall not reveal here. hahaha. if you want to know, you may ask me. =D

two girls were walking in the interchange and one of the two boys were following behind them. what i observed was, he seemed to signal to the other boy and the second boy appeared. he took his nike water bottle and started to aim and squeeze the water out at the girl on the right.

MY GOSH. isn't that what some of us did when we were in sec 1? hahaha. i slapped my forehead when the girl strikes back at the boy by chasing and hitting him. hahaha. to emphasize it again, at the interchange, in their full school uniforms. it was, hilarious?

seriously speaking, i was never involved in such a sneaky incident. i was proudly involved in those OPEN kinds. hahaha. sec 2 self study if i was not wrong. especially rainy days.

i had dinner with abang minah and bedok and michelle left earlier. we talked about irritating things. hahaha. the girls' school joke was like. hahaha! not insulting any girls' school, but if you want to know, you may ask me. seriously, not insulting or discriminating in any single, teeny weeny way.

yeah yeah yeah. just to share with everyone what i have been spending my time on.

MISS SWAN'S VIDEOS ON YOUTUBE. gosh gosh gosh. you ought to watch at least one episode. and i guess, the addiction will not stop.




I AM LOOKING VERY FORWARD TO BRIEFING AND HTA TRAININGS.
AND THE DAY WE ARE BEING ANNOUNCED GOLD UNIT, AGAIN.

i must receive excellent news on 24 and 25 jan 2008.

i am really thankful for all that.

patiently awaiting the day. ((:


18/01: i was late for meeting cheryl and mr low. so sorry! anyway, the things for sec 3 camp were more or less settled except our passports are not handed in yet.

cheryl and i had lunch together. we chatted about O's, class and CCAs. rahimi joined us for a little chat and then me and him went back to the room to, again, polish our boots. hahaha.

i took the sec 2s for the first time after such a long period of "break". my voice went berserk today. i cannot shout like usual and i wonder why. >,<

19/01: camp craft training. i really hoped we can do it for them. it is tough for them, it was even tougher for us, i dare to say. they can do it, but they are not. why are they doing such things?
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i am really glad to see them work together and getting very satisfied with their product. but see them getting demoralized like that just because of passing rumours, it is really saddening.
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when i thought i had learnt more. yes, i really did.
but what was "more", is not at all enough to deal with the situations i faced these two days.
i am really disappointed with myself. )):
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I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO THE BRIEFING AND TRAININGS.
AND I AM MORE EXCITED FOR 25 JANUARY 2008.

i hope to receive excellent news on the 25 january 2008.

patiently awaiting the day. ((:



i went to meet up with joycelyn and huiyu for lunch and vanessa joined for dinner. we talked about many many things, ranging from those non-prioritizing ones to important issues that mattered us. =D
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why do you always have to put me down? i know i do forget and am a slow learner, but still i am putting in effort.

never in my life i am going to defend anyone again. whenever i am defending the person mentally, the person will turn his/her back to bite me, till i bleed. it really hurts.

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i only show my true emotions to you.
you may ask why i always have a smile?

coz i am really happy when i am by your side.


i hope to receive excellent news on the 25 january 2008.

patiently awaiting the day. ((:


the post below was plainly scoldings.
16/01: i woke up with a smile coz i heard jay chou's singing. HAHAHA. really, because usually are shoutings.

anyway. i woke up and saw siqian's and mr low's replies. alright. i am again faced with many many choices which i do not know which to choose. i wonder why are there so many dilemmas in this recent 3 years of my life.

i went out with yurong, howleong and sandy to j8, bugis, orchard then me and sandy went to toa payoh. our schedule seemed interesting right? THE DEDUCTION OF ADULT FARE WAS MORE INTERESTING. i think i have donated about $5 to SMRT today, JUST TODAY.

gosh gosh. other than losing that amount (which also includes top-up which is only $10, no more $5), i have gained nothing. maybe except lunch from howleong and spade membership card from yurong. i did not buy anything, unlike yurong. -,-

someone: the imitation + container.
pang: another imitation + container.
only me and someone will know. hahaha.


girlfriend, i am sorry.
i TRIED to listen to you,
but it was uncontrollable. )=


i hope to receive two pieces of excellent news on the 25 january 2008.

this year, my birthday lands on yours. (=

patiently awaiting the day. ((:


alright. i shall start my post proper.

when people say that "common sense is no longer common", PLEASE believe them.


all the lies about "self respect".
all the lies about "you give me respect, i give you back".
all the lies about "RESPECT IS A TWO-WAY THING".


thank you for all the things you have done.
it made me more determined to change my life.


sometimes i have no idea on what words to use to describe my feelings towards you.
i guess these words:
- 100% (since people now use 101% and so forth),
- way something (people also use wayyyyyy),
and just one last example,
- simple adjectives (coz the list just goes on, like "superblyextremelyveryso").


i guess ms goh is right. you will definitely be the first that i will thank when i am successful.


do not blame me for what i am becoming to be.



13/01: basically i slept like a pig for the previous night. LOL. 2130 to 1330. GOSH! 16 hours (small case). hahaha.

you cannot blame me. i only slept for 2 hours the previous night. -,- i shall move on to what happened on sunday. hmm. i cannot really remember. hahaha. let me move on to 14/01.

14/01: i watched some shows on kids central and learnt things. amazing right. i vacuumed the floor before i left home. OBEDIENT RIGHT. i forgot to cut the paper for my mum though. nvm. i met szejin and samuel for dinner. yeah yeah. and i postponed my health appointment.

15/01: i went to school for training again. i forgot about my $300 again. x= anyway, remember that i vacuumed the floor yesterday? my mum cut some new year decorations and the small paper pieces happily landed itself on the floor due to the GREATNESS gravitational pull.

tml going to meet szejin, samuel and yiling. woots. hahaha.

AND I AM LOOKING VERY FORWARD TO HTA TRAININGS.
AND THE DAY WE ARE ANNOUNCED GOLD UNIT, AGAIN.

i hope to receive two pieces of excellent news on the 25 january 2008.

i just realised we are both element metal.

patiently awaiting the day. ((:


12/01: i was all glad that i smsed desmond at 0500 to call me at 0715, if not i do not know what time i will sleep till. x= being the person who enjoys pig life to the fullest extent.

i woke up and confirmed that i have everything (as in the uniform parts) then i set out to HTA for the selection. woots!

i thought i was really running late when i see that i boarded the train to cck, it was already 0750. i really pray that the bus will come as soon as i crossed the road to the bus stop. hahaha. that was just fat hope.

i met si qian at the bus stop. it was such a long wait that we almost lost hope and took a taxi. in the end, we waited till 0820 then bus 975 came. and there was this CI of earlier batch who wore his half-u without his peak cap. although his boots were rather shiny, but the issue is, was he allowed to wear half-u without headdress?

we reached HTA at 0835 and quickly changed into our full-u. instructions to put our bags inside the locker and proceed to the unity square. we were so worried that we will be late, in the end, there were people who reached everest room in mufti when we were going to proceed to the unity square.

i think that what were taught in the earlier batches of CIBTC, were really different? some said we do not have to march to the unity square. -,- i found it quite ridiculous.

we were told to fill in a form. rank, name, batch, email, current institution and contact number. later part was 9 different positions in the NPAP itself and we have to rank them 1-9 according to our choices. the 9 were:

-ceremonial flag party; 4
-CI-in-attendance; 6
-goh commander; 1
-gold unit flag party commander; 2
-guard turnout; 5
-mass flag party commander; 7
-parade commander; 3
-parade trainers; 9
-supporting contingent commander. 8

my choices are above (as in the numbers beside the position, if i am not wrong). =D
we had around 15 minutes of warm-up drills, 5 minutes break then split into 3 groups- flag, sword and parade trainers. i guess no one put in their first choice to be CI-in-attendance, guard turnout, mass flag party commander and supporting contingent commander.

we further trained in our sub division squads. for every squads, we were told to take turns to command the squad. i guess i was put to an advantage, being the contingent commander during the POP of d07. coz i am more familiar and more experience with the sword in a way or another.

i hope to receive two pieces of excellent news on the 25 january 2008.

patiently awaiting the day. ((:



i had work with my sister at CMP Asia at somerset on 10/01 and 11/01.

what i have been doing for the two days was, writing information on the invoices, packing flyers in the envelope, wrapping them up like how vernicia and yiling wrapped the presents at carrefour. hahaha. anyway, i think carrefour had made a wrong choice for not employing me, coz i think i am a real talent in gift-wrapping. XD. there will be visual aids for everyone later. (=


the nice pile which i wrapped.


i felt that this is the best.


a closer view.

two days were spent like that. it is not as easy as wrapping paper. it is some sort of plastic material. so it is already very good. next it is friday, 11/01. as usual, sec 4 ssgt training. although it is friday, cca day, attendance is still pathetic. boys went to move sofa, sec 1 ncos to sec 1s, nyp and of course, as always, some disappeared. at a point of time, i have only 7 GIRLS.

dinner with rahimi at ljs. we discussed about future plans and stuff. we saw the 4e6 srjc people. they taught us one new cheer. hahaha. xianglong said he will come back to the unit to teach us the pussy one. hahaha. i so look forward to the day. hahaha.

12/01: happy birthday to jolene!

in the end, i convinced myself to go, after asking many, many, many people. i hope it will be successful.

if selections were to be as easy as ABC, there will not be any reasons for them.

i am polishing my boots now. lalala. while chatting with desmond about later (0900 hours). my boots are REALLY shiny now. hahaha. i can see what are behind me! hahaha. i wonder how long will it last under the sun. -,-

awaiting the 200th and the day.


sometimes i wonder. i wonder why i fell for you. coz when you left me, you left me helpless and my life just crumbles. like how a cookie does when you crush it with all your might.

again i wonder. i wonder why are you back. you may not be back for me, but when you are back, you just add on to the crumbling. thank you very much.

usually, i just stop wondering and try to forget ALL about you. yeah yeah, try. try is a subjective word. it could be successful or not. and i have always knew that i belong to the second group.


it is because of you, i have the trust in things.

and it is also because of you, i began to be paranoid.


please direct me.


the next time if someone asks me about what are some of my good points, i will honestly tell them, "i am good at acting noble.

good at acting = people do not know.
acting = i am "noble" on the outside, but inside, i am feeling the pinch of the world. no one knows, except me.


i need you, really.



the 8 shortlisted contingent commanders.


the final formation that we were supposed to do!


this is the one i find it very true.


this is the one i find it most inspiring.


first time wearing the rank.


taken in the toilet, as obvious.


nothing much,

just the stress donning *that* rank.


there is more than being an angry kid and loser about me.

i wish you will discover what is within me.


the wonderful memories in my mind.


woah! i slept at 2030 last night! hahaha. so early.

i jumped up at 0645, very scared that i am not late. usually the follow-up action of sleeping early the night before, is waking up late. PHEW. it is only 0645. i carried on with my sleep, hoping to catch more sleep. i jumped up at 0745 again, until then i decided to really wake up and prepare for the day.

i packed all the 4 items into the bag and then set off my journey to HTA (sounds like some mountainous journey). BUT IT WAS ADVENTUROUS. i was almost stuck in the lift! the door was stuck for like 10 seconds. many thoughts flashed past me during that 10 seconds. what if i am late? what if it takes me hours to get out? then when will i return the uniforms? the door suddenly opened and i saw light! hahaha. it then took me 22 minutes to reach CCK mrt station and then the bus came 2 minutes after i have reached. hahaha. God is kind to me today.

the journey was enjoyable as i enjoy the spacious 4 seater, except that there was this man, who boarded the bus after he was just done with his cigarette. x= the smell is very very strong. gosh. lalala. i reached HTA at 0950. i waited and then 172 came and all other falcon members alighted.

we waited and waited until suddenly charlie members went in, so i went in with them. i returned the uniforms, ranks and buttons and i received BRAVO's assignments, CDs, benson's and my notebooks and our ranks. woots!


Cadet Inspector Trainee.


Cadet Inspector.


what was pasted on the notebook.


the original certificate by HQ (you can actually see me in the reflection, LOL).


the modification by BRAVO Instructors (click to enlarge to see the stamp).

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i sat outside at the bus-stop after leaving HTA. i took the seventh bus and went home for lunch. i helped out by washing the dishes, removing and putting on the bedsheets. after that, i went out to set off my journey to tampines. this time round, i did not take lift b, the problematic one. i took lift a.

my phone first protested by telling me "sms memory is full, delete some messages", when i see the memory status that text messages is 235/500. i deleted half of what were in my inbox and sent items. things did not get better.

journey to tampines was GREAT! with LOTS of fun and laughters, peace and joy, except for the man who boarded the train after he smoked.

the second protest was that, all the sensors did not work! OMG. i really felt like jumping off the train and run to any samsung shop. it decided to recover itself when i was reaching eunos. THOSE TWO EXPERIENCEs, WERE EXTREMELY SCARY.
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i do not think that i am wrong. why you cannot do the things that an independent child could do? if you can do it, anyway it is for yourself, do it yourself. troubling others who are busy for your own things.

if you care or even realise, you are getting weaker while i am getting stronger. there are always some days that a person's emotions will rule over him/her. those days will happen to me too. i do not need to say what will happen if one day i cannot control my fist. all i will hear, is no longer your scoldings and orderings, but you whining in pain.

when i feel that things are getting redundant, i will reply and do things my style, whether you like it or not. fyi, i feel that things are already getting redundant when i was around 13 or 14. i have already grown up.

there are things you do not need to mention and i know i have to do them. it is up to me, if i want to do it or not. anyway, why must i do things for you to see? i know that i have done things, it is enough for me.


i should have realised earlier,

that we belong to two different worlds,


though our interests are somehow the same.



CIR during area cleaning.


some pictures taken on day 3 of STC during PT. scenery pic 1.


scenery pic 2.


scenery pic 3.


scenery pic 4.


drawn by wenni during STC.




last, but not least!

Cadet Inspector Basic Training Course 73rd Batch, d07!


my current rank!


woah. today is a hectic day for me!

i went to school and met mr soh to go to HTA to draw number 1s and sword. before we went to HTA, he drove me to teck whye to have breakfast. prawn noodles and tea for us. hahaha. procedures were standard. i checked the number of buttons and rings and the uniform parts. sword was changed twice coz the first two were difficult to be drawn out.

i was actually supposed to go home to take my tunic SUDDENLY but i realised my keys are in school. we went back to school, took my keys and went back to my house. everything is more or less done except their ironings.

i brought everything to npcc room and then set off to bedok to meet jasmine to return her her rank. she offered me her drink, i was thirsty, but i rejected, coz i am still sick. -,- we chatted about funny things and then she went off while i continued my ride back to yishun.

blah blah blah. i was lucky that my ez-link card has sufficient amount inside to be charged for overstay. -,- coz i did not bother to bring my wallet out. i had the ultimate urge to buy a cup of bubble tea! but then. firstly, no cash on me. secondly, i am still sick. x=

i ran back to the room and then changed into my uniform. WOAH. my boots are shiny! hahaha. i paraded myself in number 1 and sword. it was rather boring, seriously. hahaha. before that, i sort of punished the sec 2s. long time since i last shouted. LOL.

mr jack tan took millions of photos of me for the npcc banner. GOSH. it will turn out seriously ugly, coz i am inside it. from what i heard from mr soh, it is going to be something like BB's. the one with regina inside. hai. i am not photogenic at all alright.

maggie-ed for dinner.

things to do:
- wash number 1.
- wash dishes.
- polish boots.
- pack my wardrobe AGAIN.
- pack my bag for tml.
- continue to stop myself from eating the refrained food.

reminders:
i must not eat chocolates.
i must not eat ice-cream.
i must not eat fried food.
i must not eat tidbits.
i must not drink cold drinks.
i must not drink soft drinks.
i must not drink milo!
i must take care of myself.

((=


life is boring if you are in my shoes. i wonder what i will be doing after this hectic week.

i refuse to rot at home. i want to work, but they are not in need of assistance.
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i should not have got used to the days with you around.

i am feeling very miserable now.



i feel that i am not being treated seriously anywhere.


02/01: first day of school! it felt weird. i was in polo tee and pe shorts. i can see all the tired faces of the student-ly ambience. hahaha. almost everyone i saw at the yishun mrt station were in school uniforms. 3 weeks JC course. i am going back to ytss for orientation.

orientation is almost like what it was last year. the games and the rotational system. but this time round, i am viewing everything and everyone as the outsider's point of view. everything and everyone seemed different.

and i just realised i look like a sec 3 to a sec 1. OMG. at least other classmates of hers said sec 4 or 5.

03/01: i woke up late and xiu bin was rotting at the security post. hahaha. so sorry. i did not join them for the first round of amazing race. i stayed in school and hovered around the CCA selections and emo-ed in the canteen. hahaha.

i have received news yesterday and was prepared for it. in the end, it is just a waste of my time and energy. you said you will call me. i waited for your call. i called you since 1450 and you did not pick up. i called you for around 5 times from 1450 to 1630. you wasted my time, efforts and energy. i even smsed you once.

you mean you cannot see all these missed calls and sms? you answered when others called you. you said you forgot all about me and was shocked that i waited for you. you did not even mention a thing or apologize when you struck a conversation with me after that. that is rude and what you did was unbecoming for a person of your position.

this is not the first time anyway. i must get used to how you are behaving and doing things, am i right? yes i am free, but can you just ask if i can make it? you just told me the time and venue. what if i cannot make it? and the way you said it, tells me that i have no choice but to go. there are things i am busy with too. yes, you trust me but this is never the way to do things.

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today is then the day i found out about the shocking, disgusting and scandalous truths after years. gosh!

no doubt. i have been wondering what kind of ridiculous dreams i am having nowadays.

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i guess it needs time,

just like how it did.


but will it be as long?



there was once i deleted someone's number,

to stop myself from smsing that someone,


i wonder if i have to do it again.





but the thing is,

the numbers are so easy to remember,


yet so difficult to forget.



lyrics for reason why by the click five.

Yesterday, I waited for your friends to walk away
So I could say just what I mean
I know we're moving fast
(We're) Running from the past
I'm holding on before it fades away,
Could it be that...
Maybe it's our first mistake
And baby that's alright
It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
There's a reason why they
Say that we should give it time
But time is not enough
And that's the reason why
When you're young you fall in love

Standing still, I'm waiting 'round to see if this is real
Cause I feel like I'm asleep
I'll open up my eyes
Cause you might be the type
Of girl that makes me dream when I'm awake
Could it be that...

Maybe it's our first mistake
And baby that's alright
It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
There's a reason why they
Say that we should give it time
But time is not enough
And that's the reason why
When you're young you fall in love

So tell me can this really work
Or will we end up getting hurt
Is this love a myth
So tell me are you in for this
There's so much more than we can see
More than you, more than me
It takes two to believe

Maybe it's our first mistake
And baby that's alright
It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
Maybe it's our first mistake
And baby that's alright
It's crazy how we lost ourselves tonight
There's a reason why they
Say that we should give it time
But time is not enough
And that's the reason why
When you're young you fall in love

And that's the reason why
When you're young you fall in love

And that's the reason why
When you're young you fall in love

Your EQ is 140

You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. You are warm and open. Even when life gets you down, you're unafraid of the world and its challenges. You are comfortable with who you are. And you accept your weaknesses - as well as the weaknesses of others. While you are quite stable, you don't respond perfectly to every bad situation that comes up. But you have enough emotional intelligence to know when you need a course correction.

You Are a Werewolf

You're unpredictable, moody, and downright freaky. You seem sweet and harmless, until you snap. Then you're a total monster. Very few people can predict if you're going to be Dr. Jekyll or Mr. Hyde. But for you, all your transformations seem perfectly natural. Your greatest power: Your ability to tap into nature Your greatest weakness: Lack of self control You play well with: Vampires

there are too many things to accomplish.

patiently awaiting the day. ((:


WOOHOO!


HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!


people. have all of you made your new year resolutions?


i just thought of a few?

1. lose weight? oops. that is a bit, yeah.
2. grow taller? i must catch up with lizzie worsxz. hahaha.
3. earn more money?
4. keep my temper in MORE check.
5. take care of myself.
6. quit as many bad habits (too many to list).
7. improve on my current skills.
8. remember. do not think about the regrets you have now, but recall all the wonderful memories you once had.




life is short, cherish it. lee hao's msn nick: live like you are going to die any minute.

alvin
derek
doreen
lizzie
jiaxin
joel
jolene
jonathan
julitta
kang ming
kee kwoon
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rahimi
razak
rena
si qian
valerie
wei hao
ziyi

ansar; BAI SHER BAH
howleong
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peixin
sandy
yiling

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ferry
hannah tan!
hannah tan!
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peiwen
STQY
selina
ting hui
wen yan

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chuanwan
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eileen
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frederick
huiyu
kian ru
li fen
patrine
sin yee
siti suhaina
vernicia
xiubin
xueli
yi shiuan
zi wei

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