rubbish.
Monday, December 31, 2007 @ 5:29:00 PM
although i have told many and myself,
i am over and done with you,
i still miss the days we were together.
28/12-30/12
Sunday, December 30, 2007 @ 6:36:00 PM
Yishun Town Secondary School, National Police Cadet Corps, Skill Training Camp 2007.
irritating masdiyanah must make me angry with her smses which are not answering my questions. GRR.
me: fyi. aaron and i are going to mac to buy breakfast. do you want anything?mas: oh. okay can.me: regardless you give me your consent or not, i am still going. what do you want?mas: yes i want, i want!me: WHAT do you want? *m.f.*. do not make me angry.**: content unsuitable for children below 18.
fyi, i am below 18.
the campers fall-in and we stuck ourselves to each squad. i am in charge of BRAVO! the sense of belonging when my camp coordinators, fellow instructors and campers related me to BRAVO.
anyway. these are the people in STC squad BRAVO- karthikan, pira, wei hao, jian hui, samuel, kenrick, farid, jiawen, shahirah, syahirah and fatin.
as usual, the talk about punctuality, sense of urgency and responsibility. these are part of the core of NPCC and they are always lacking. the many COA, briefing during meal-times, the jokes we shared and the AFIs.
and i do not know why. no one reports to me. until the night of day 2. i stuffed the remaining of the pizza i was eating, into my mouth before the start of my lecture. AND THEN JIAN HUI REPORTED TO ME. i was struggling to make out "carry on" these two words. and then by the time he finished reporting, i was still not done with the pizza. again i struggled to make out the same words. x=
i think i was rather slack to the campers. i did not raise my voice at them AT ALL. i think most of you will be shocked to see the earlier sentence. i did not shout at all, i repeat. i think i also did not put BRAVO into pumping positions.
all i did, was to express all my ideas and elaborations within 5 minutes.
is this the standard you think you should show to me and your aaron sir? are you putting in the efforts? is this the amount of efforts you should put in to get staff sergeant? is this enough for staff sergeants-wanna-to-be? to get staff sergeant, you have to go through private, lance corporal, corporal, sergeant and staff sergeant. are you sure this kind of standard can get all of you to staff sergeant? SO ON AND SO FORTH.
i spoke all these without stopping and letting them to reply. or rather, do they even want to reply.
i was even slacker to them during campcraft sessions. i taught them the knots and lashings and went one by one to check. i think i will be labeled in their hearts, "the least fierce instructor for STC". i have toned down slightly for this camp, this camp ONLY.
people, wait till i get better and pang zhuang yi returns.
hahaha hahaha.
27/12
Thursday, December 27, 2007 @ 7:00:00 PM
i am confused, regarding i should be happy or regretful, to stop the wrong thing that i was doing.
26/12-27/12
@ 6:55:00 PM
26/12: i woke up at 12+ and i ate mee. hahaha. i ironed clothes! mine of course. my Cadet Inspector tee-shirts and uniforms. i was hysterical when i was talking to mas on the phone. i think only she and i know why. HAHAHA.
i so love him for pushing me to use the laptop in the room. the spacebar is not working so i have to copy and paste the space. IT IS TEDIOUS. you try to chat in a msn conversation when you have to copy and paste every single space.
interesting blog i came across yesterday. i wonder who is the blogger.
http://clauschronicles.blogspot.com/27/12: i woke up late, at 0818 when i was supposed to meet norvin and jasmine at 0830. in the end, only jasmine is on time. high standards ma. hahaha. i know she will see this but i am continuing to write this. hahaha.
we went from ang mo kio to choa chu kang. she threatened to push me off the train several times. but my stubbornness is not losing to hers. lalala. we reached HTA and saw falcon.
they were late to return their uniforms and they have to decide another date (gosh!)
(hint hint to all BRAVOians).
i went back to yishun campus and went for lunch upon reaching. hahaha (just in time). i then had chicken rice takeaway from the coffeeshop beside the mac.
i must take care of myself since i am sick. we then went to shop for more things and then back to yishun campus for more matters. we settled the objectives and went through the whole camp, by mouth. hahaha.
i rushed back home and bathed. OKAY. nvm. i am really really glad that i was invited. i may be disappointed. although i am not there, i wish all of them will enjoy their time there. (=
later meeting michelle to get the shirts. i must not doze off while sitting on my comfortable sofa while blogging. i am very tired which i do not know why. i almost fell asleep while drinking soup.
reminders: i must not eat chocolates.i must not eat ice-cream.
i must not eat fried food.
i must not eat tidbits.i must not drink cold drinks.i must not drink soft drinks.i must take care of myself.((=
24/12-25/12
Wednesday, December 26, 2007 @ 12:27:00 AM
merry christmas to everyone! hahaha. i am here to blog as i think the person i am supposedly chatting on msn, has AGAIN, fell asleep by her laptop. overthrown by fatigue. everytime never sleep enough la.
this year's christmas is a little too boring. as in no major celebrations like the past years. nvm.
24/12: the moon is extremely big and bright. WOAH.
i woke up in the morning to meet jasmine at paya lebar to take what i have borrowed from her. we chatted for about a good 50 minutes of interesting issues then i went home. as usual, i slept on my way home. I ENJOY PIG LIFE ALRIGHT.
after that i had lunch at chong pang with my grandmother, mother, sister and cousin. I BOUGHT NEW SHORTS! hahaha. one more item strike off my list. the list is getting shorter. hahaha. that is equals to,
happiness.
my cousin and i went to northpoint to get his school shoes and bag. it was settled in 10 minutes. fast right? it was time for time zone. we won a total of 160 tickets, i think. i was lucky to strike jackpot without any effort. except for the minimal joules i used to insert the coin in and pull out the tickets.
dinner was steamboat at my house. my grandmother, uncle, aunt, cousin and thomas came over. good food followed by good cake and desserts. yeah yeah. other than that, scoldings and sleep time. i fell asleep in the pile of clothes i was supposed to pack into my wardrobe. i woke up at 0110 and continued.
25/12: i amazingly woke up automatically at 1030, switched on the laptop as usual, smsed and ate. i went out of house to meet tian yun and min yen at plaza singapura. entrance la, christmas tree la, stage la. what else? hahaha.
we then walked and walked and walked. we talked about all the funny things and people we do not like. HAHAHA. shall we have another round
soon? =D it was soon time for goodbyes. we stood and sang part of umbrella as i was listening to it. hahaha. THEY WILL BE HAVING A PARTY TML. and i am sort of jealous.
i reached home, ate and watched tv. i then switched on the laptop again and started to see what are the things to update. nothing much actually. hahaha. as i had mentioned at the top of this post, i am here to blog coz the person i am supposedly chatting with, is most probably asleep by her laptop and waiting for her brother to wake her up.
just some updates!
the plastic bag which contains...
this box! and it contains...
this watch! and it is like...
this! cool? christmas present from my sister, jessica!
05/12-22/12
Monday, December 24, 2007 @ 4:58:00 PM
just some updates between the days from 5th-22nd.
05/12-13/12: CIBTC RC (residential camp). nothing more to say. all the thoughts have been expressed by joel, elizabeth and me. i reached home and almost quarrelled with him again. CRAP.
14/12: happy very-belated birthday to sue-anne and my blog! LOL.
i practically slept the whole day! i woke at 2. after finding out that starhub is under service till 1800, i slept till 1830 then use the laptop. LOL. one day wasted. with almost zero worries about the clothes needed, recee trip, group flag, group cheer, group name and group performance.
15/12: i spent about 50 bucks! MY HEAVENS.
i met jonathan at yishun mrt station and on the way, we saw syahid. i left earlier for army market to buy the clothes and stuff. 16 for top-up card. 4 for bum boat. 8 for food. 12 for clothes. 2 for watch strap. 2 for twine. 2 for gloves. i forgot what else i bought. but the price is about there. x= i slept extremely late at around 4am do up the horrible group flag. i should have killed myself for it.
16/12-19/12: CIBTC ATC (adventure training camp). all the thoughts will be in another post.
after that, i hopped onto bus 59 (i think) to bishan mrt station. it was a long and torturous journey. LOL. i was smsing amera and jasmine. i was so glad that my battery can last.
i saw this particular car, with the driver smoking inside. the worst part is, the windows are not opened to ventilate! MY HEAVENS! how can one survive? i was staring with half disbelief and half disgust.
20/12: 13 BRAVOians met up to have their dinner at boon keng's chong pang steamboat. it was so ironic that i have to travel for one hour to have chong pang's steamboat when i live next to chong pang. -,- THE JOYOUS TIME WE HAD.
21/12: CIBTC POP (passing out parade) training. my boots are polished for the fun of it, seriously. and the fun was to get grilled by the smiling sun. i did not sleep the night before and was on msn chatting till 4+ am. so i was basically dozing off under the weather causing me to have low blood circulation.
several voices woke me up. the most memorable one was jasmine's. she was standing less than a metre away from me and i woke up immediately upon hearing, "all of you are not in rehatkan diri position, so you better show that you are not." something like that. LOL. she did not realise i was dozing off. my position was standard, as in shoulders pulled back, arm locked and holding the sword correctly, BUT MY EYES ARE CLOSED. phew. my round hat "protected" me.
the night time was horrible. my mood changed. for those in ytss 4e4 art class will know this perfectly well. when i did not sleep the night before, my mood will turn foul at around 11am. but this time, it lasted till 8pm. LOL. i was reminded of joyful things, that's why?
22/12: ACTUAL CIBTC POP! fall-in early in the morning at 734. late like DUH. we practised the d07 formation.
ZAI is the only word to describe it. although the FIs are irritating, but one made sense.
do not stop when you are tired, stop when you are done. the burning sensation we enjoyed by producing the
hissing sounds. i was scolded for being too close to contingent 1 and then too far away from them again. bloody guy. IF YOU WANT TO SAY OUT THE TIMING, CAN YOU AT LEAST SAY THE CORRECT ONE? i think he has seriously forgot the fact that 148 are holding rifles and 4 are holding swords (this statistic is only for d07 CITs. HOTs are not included YET).
squad time and beautifying our uniforms. offline, online, afk (away from keyboard), afc (away from chair), appear offline, on the phone. joke of my round hat and russell's peak cap between only the 24 BRAVOians without the instructors realising that all 22 of us (except me and russell) are laughing.
the last lap of rehearsal. again the burning sensations and then the naggings.
we went to change into our number one and of course, EVERYONE WAS SMART! all the 152 hearts were thumping with excitement and anxiety for everything to be smooth-sailing. well well well. a slight drizzle triggered every heart to start praying. a bit of thunder caused us to curse and swear- some in the hearts, while some were vocal. of course, the excitement, anxiety and praying did not stop while cursing and swearing.
the sky was finally clearing at around 1750. BUT. thunder and lightning was present, so we went to drill shed to wait.
thank you mr charles chong for giving us the hope! wait wait wait. the moment came. wet weather contingency plan was activated, with many grumblings, curses, shoutings, jeerings, swears and what you may think of. this part was
SUPERBLY BO SEH.
we went into the Harmony Hall and formed up. the least boring part was the donning of our Cadet Inspector rank and the keluar baris. d07 was not shown, but our spirit was evident.
i hope we did not disappoint the CIIs who spent 5 months preparing for our course and many sleepless nights.it was then the MASS PHOTO-TAKING PART and THE MASS CHEERING FOR THE VIDEO!
we kept our arms by the contingent commanders' and parade commander's commands. COOL!
*REPEATED*ANYWAY. when we were marching back to classroom 53 (sad that it was not the usual classroom 13), INSTRUCTOR CAINE LIEW XIA RI was our I/C.
(this is an important point. please take extra note!) instructor Jasmine was marching beside me and zhi jun. as in when we fall-in, she is in front of me and behind zhi jun (cannot visualize, it is your problem).
when we are reaching the corridor outside the admin block, INSTRUCTOR TEO PUA WEI asked, "where the hell is your I/C?" many of us shouted, CAINE SIR!
that moment was classic. we should have asked someone to take a photo of the marching squad BRAVO!
pictures of CIBTC POP
@ 1:43:00 AM
the photos taken throughout the whole course of Cadet Inspector Basic Training Course (definitely lesser than jeremy, who takes simply anyone. hahaha).
this is of course me. there were definitely doubts about going to the gents or the ladies. and issues about my round hat and russell's peak cap.
ONLY BRAVO KNOWS.
me again. standing proud and tall in my rehatkan diri position.
the Yishun Town Secondary School's
Probationary Cadet Inspectors.
valerie and me! best food and gossip mate during ATC.
quan yi and me! we sat together and complained during 7 habits of mind lecture.
ms soh and me!
me and mrs lim!
me and ting ting tiffany!
me and si qian! she slept beside me in bunk 1 and accompanied me to the washroom several times. THANKS.
me and shu yee. yeah. she is the girl i mentioned earlier on, in the post of december 15, 2007.
me and rahimi!
me and kelvin! close friend in Move It!
me and kai yong!
me and hazimah! bunk mate in bunk 1 and she is d07's best female camper for RC component.
me and florence! contingent 2 and 3 commanders respectively.
me and yap min yen! best bunk + havoc mate.
me and elizabeth! me in rehatkan diri position.
me and lizzie! lizzie in sedia position.
me and ey! during the break.
me and edna! we met during SLC and knew each other more.
me and amera! our motivations are the coolest beings on planet earth.
mas and me! the forever irritating one. we do not understand each other's sms languages.
jia hao and mas! Honorary Officer who was given one peak less.
jia hong and me! instructor of the contingent commanders.
florence, russell, jia hong, norvin and me! instructors and contingent 3, 4, 1, 2 commanders.
cleopatra and me! with our 3d ranks. =D
me and tian yun! me in rehatkan diri position and she seems to be in senang diri position. LOL. x=
miss loo with kai yong!
contingent 3, 1, 4, 2 commanders!
24 BRAVOians! it is rather difficult to name them one by one, judging from their rows.
24 BRAVOians with our all-time beloved instructors Pei En and Jasmine! alright, this will be more difficult.
last but not least, me with the instructors!
me and instructor Pei En!
me and instructor Jasmine!
me and instructor Jasmine again! apparently i was not happy with the earlier photo without showing her pants. hahaha. in the end, i looked SO MUCH MORE horizontal. -,-
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ANYWAY. when we were marching back to classroom 53 (sad that it was not the usual classroom 13), INSTRUCTOR CAINE LIEW XIA RI was our I/C.
(this is an important point. please take extra note!) instructor Jasmine was marching beside me and zhi jun. as in when we fall-in, she is in front of me and behind zhi jun (cannot visualize, it is your problem).
when we are reaching the corridor outside the admin block, INSTRUCTOR TEO PUA WEI asked, "where the hell is your I/C?" many of us shouted, CAINE SIR!
that moment was classic. we should have asked someone to take a photo of the marching squad BRAVO!
CIBTC RC
Sunday, December 23, 2007 @ 3:15:00 PM
initially, i wanted to write out what happened each day according to the schedule. BUT THEN, since yap min yen kept asking me to post, i shall post that next time or even not post it at all. but still, this will still be a LONG post. just sit back and relax.
everyday i will wake around 4am. after i woke up, i will get my water bottle, poured a bit of water on the cover of my kiwi and start to polish. i will polish for one hour and start to do my reflections, any homework and preparing for the day.
mas and zhijun will always come to my and elizabeth's bunk to hurry us. it was only 540-545 each day. aiya. no choice. we HAVE to march to each destination in HTA, unless without corporate bag, which is
impossible?
all the anyhow fall-in outside our bunks. coz one shot march many people easier but then it was really sub-standard until cannot sub anymore. auto pilot instead of impit and belok. hahaha. and not forgetting the standard back becoming the standard front (especially for outside the mess)!
the boring PTs as the days passed by. RT is like only a bit changes except for the one led by jian de. the high school musical dance! however, everyone was stunned and not interested. if we were given more time and less target audience, it is definitely possible.
all the I were deeply hated by trainees, or at least most of the girls in my bunk. hahaha. ESPECIALLY BI (bunk inspection). uniform inspection was alright for me. hahaha. i think my uniform is okay. except for my belt and boots. boots hor, which i do not know why when it is time for inspections, the toe cap will be 'cloudy', but the sides are still as shiny.
lectures- ranging from the most boring one, to no-choice-must-keep-awake kind, to interactive kind. all the little actions we do to keep each other awake. at least i did not use the most extreme one. only lxlj knows what is the most extreme method. hahaha. anyway, i did give up and sleep but then, for most of the time, I TRIED to keep awake and was successful.
meal times! hahaha. my favourite slots for everyday- 7-8, 1-2, 7-8. sometimes, breakfast is horrible. at least i know i preferred
just bread and peanut butter to mee reebus, which is too spicy for me. and then hor. how to enjoy meals with my belt on? i could not eat to my heart's content. AND THE VERY LONG QUEUES!
all the million of tortures, here comes the greatest part!life skill lessons + squad time + instructors' lessons: my favourite! day 2 commences, i feel that instructor jasmine has started to bully me. hahaha. especially the s laid and z laid. i said that my reason was the same as, i think zhijun, but she insisted i say my reason out. ever since the s laid and z laid, i do not dare to answer any question, coz my answer is always different from the others. but once i am the ONLY ONE correct with all other 23 wrong! the interlocking of s and z.lesson learnt: stick to your answer when you feel that you are right. nvm if you are alone on your stand. if you are really wrong, learn from it.
instructor pei en teaches us about all the different square lashings, the reasons behind the clove hitches on different poles for the gyn lashing. i did not know the differences and reasons until she explained to us.
not forgetting desmond, the campcraft pro! he is really good and passionate in campcraft.
lesson learnt: what matters most is not the future prospectives, but interest.
i am already missing those days and times the bravoians spent together!
CIBTC misses.
Thursday, December 20, 2007 @ 12:01:00 PM
i will definitely miss everyone in squad BRAVO.INSTRUCTOR JASMINE: "waiting for christmas ar", "stunned diao", "zai", "super bo seh", the spider incident and the $ incident we shared.INSTRUCTOR PEI EN: "if you think your drills are not uo to standard, you semula yourself", her niceties, her lashing lesson and stories.
OMG.ain the caring one.
azraini the lame one.
cleopatra the plmgs spf and my gossip mate. plus funny languages!
elizabeth the plmgs spf and my havoc mate. plus funny languages!
jiaxin the secretary.
jolene the cute and funny one.
mas the forever irritating one.
zhijun the one who created history in the mess.
and zhuangyi the always kind, helpful, considerate, funny and lame one!
benson the silent killer.
derrick the quiet one.
desmond the campcraft PRO.
dzafir and _______.
Jia Hao the Honorary Officer.
jia sheng the cartoon like character.
jeremy the one who always kena sabotaged (yesterday then i know he is also spf).
joel the serious when serious, funny when funny one.
jonathan the leader and without his help, i would have died.
kang wen the timer with weird timing.
norvin the noisy but seemed quiet one.
kah wai the sleepy one and "what you want?".qaiyuum the one who persevered on.
rahimi the motivational and emo one.
russell the k9 dog unit officer.
15/12
Saturday, December 15, 2007 @ 10:37:00 PM
the post about CIBTC RC and stuff will come much later.
i woke up to recee pulau ubin with my group. in the end i had to leave earlier to get to beach road to get the things needed. lalala. we saw brandon, eunice, shuyee, lian yun, philo and some others. we had dinner together and that shu yee was hilarious.
we were saying how slow motion she can get and she crapping her way with me. she said i must tell her that a car is approaching in 2 km then she will have time to react. if not if she was knocked down, she will take 5 seconds to realise that she has been knocked down. aiya. and all those funny funny things she does.
and one more. coz she said she wanted to get my number during dinner. when we were walking out of the hawker centre, i asked her for hers.
me: so what is your number? (taking my phone out)
she: you want my number ar?
me: no la. (putting my phone back)
she: (grabbing the phone from my handphone pouch) eh. don't like that la.
me: so now is you want to give me your number, not i asked from you ar.
she: then what is your number?
me: (i did not reply her)
she: eh. you don't diao qi lai mai. later mai bu chu qu.
meaning you don't act hard to get. later no one will get.
me: -,- and reads her my number.
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i do not blame anyone for not knowing anything about my life, but can you at least try to understand? this kind of situation has happened to me time and time, i
always do not know who to turn to. definitely not them. although it has been happening for the hundredth and thousandth time, but it had never been so serious. is it really so difficult? if i had known it earlier, would i have shunned it?
but for now, i know i cannot escape my duties and stuff. but the thing is, while criticizing others, have you thought in their shoes? yes. i should not have slept yesterday away, but it can be really tiring. you are tired, i am tired, everyone is. i had only left earlier and have to do what i am supposed to. if you want the job and you think it is easy, you may want to take over me. i have never felt so tired and helpless.
i am persevering on because i want to prove everyone of them wrong. showers of criticisms and scoldings poured on me and who can i complain to? i am nowhere in between this and that. no one can understand. through struggles then will i grow? i really hope so. i have been through so much, which no one in this world understands, and i must be one of the oldest person on earth. no one is not tired at this point of time.
life is short, cherish it- i shall try. even if i died in the middle of the journey, i know that i have tried.
04/12
Tuesday, December 4, 2007 @ 10:16:00 PM
hello everyone. i am going for my 9d8n camp tml. i am going to wake up at 6 tml. boo! so early. hahaha. anyway, i will post the entries about the past few days when i come back on the 13th. i hope i can survive the camp without losing my temper. now packing frantically.
please do not attempt to call me and expect me to answer. coz i am having a camp. anyway, you may drop me a sms to contact me. if you did not manage to receive a reply from me from the 8th onwards, that only means that my phone has gone battery low or flat. we are not supposed to bring our chargers over there.
btw, i did a heinous crime today. i promise, i will not do it again.
plans after the camp:
dump all my used clothes into the washing machine.
bathe for 30 minutes.
- bathe twice (plus condition hair OR treatment)
dry my hair at an amazing speed
and.
SLEEP!how can i not sleep after a 9d8n camp?
28/11-02/12
@ 12:34:00 AM
28/11: i had my last day of work. blah.
29/11: i went to suntec city for interview for carrefour with yiling and vernicia. aiya. i can only work for 2 days a week, so i did not get it. "put on hold", whatever. hahaha. high chance vernicia and yiling can get the job. i was so emotionally unstable that i kept talking. GRR.
30/11: the always kind, considerate and helpful zhuangyi, woke up at 11am to go to novena with ms vernicia lim su yu for her poh kim (videos) interview. when she found out it was full-time, we said byebye and started to tour novena square and square 2. ntuc and blah blah. we spent about 10 minutes analyzing the signatures on the shop's glass door.
lalala. we then went to her mum's workplace to eat. she said, "mummy, why is our christmas decoration doing here?" after saying that, she plucked the thing out, realised it and stuck it back. we ate our stuff and we took a bus to orchard. PEIXIN! she complained she had not had lunch. hahaha. i kindly offered her the coffee milk, after that, i took back my offer. hahaha. we saw that she was suffering then we left (!). XD
vernicia and i walked the whole of orchard AND bugis within 3 hours (including the train journey) with a lightning speed. we had no intention of buying anything- no money. GRR. i am now having wicked thoughts (NO!). hai. i wonder when will THESE wicked thoughts leave me.
she went off to meet her mum at novena to buy shoes and i have to go home alone, for the second time. sian. anyway, i have to go home and prepare everything for day zero.
01/12: DAY ZERO. as usual, shoutings here and there, simply everywhere! we have also collected our corporate bags and course manuals. i volunteered to be the IC of squad BRAVO, coz no one wanted to be. my shouting of commands totally rusted. i often will forget how to turn the people and march. hahaha. i have not touched normal commands (non-NDP kinds) for 6 months. lalala. marched all over HTA for the familiarization and the rules for each venue.
we attended lectures like planning effective lesson and debriefing techniques. we had uniform inspection (UI), revise the objectives and expectations, know our kit list, our teaching syllabus and knowing the instructors, which never existed. i will explain further in the later post. i was clueless about what to do for dismissal. someone, i could not exactly remember who, told me that i should inform the instructors that we are leaving. i told Instructor Jasmine and we left.
i had to standardize the reflection books, the grade of twine that we are using and the POP attendance for BRAVO. grr. so many things to do. time is running short!
photos!
Sunday, December 2, 2007 @ 6:40:00 PM
this was the somethingland that mr chong yurong led us to. i have mentioned this in the earlier post- 27 november 2007.
taken when i was out to novena, orchard and bugis with vernicia. YEAH. i finally have straight legs!
this is the other side of the platform of bishan mrt station. i lied to vernicia that it was for LRT, since it is short and is only for a few doors. SHE BELIEVED. hahaha. how can a track be for MRT and LRT? hahaha. she still said she will never believe me again. nah. she will again.
disgusting remains of some mee and the disgusting mao sui. EW. anyway, after i took this photo, the bowl fell onto the floor. no doubt, the remains too.
