photos!
Thursday, November 29, 2007 @ 3:47:00 AM
GIGANTIC butterfly/moth, i am not so sure. flying around and scaring me. i did not mean to hurt it in any way.
yiling and me. at BHG waiting for ansar. i look retarded. (taken by my 3.2 megapixels handphone camera). ROFL. i am forever showing off! anyway, just to show everyone i have not changed in any way 23 days after O's ended.
my niece, elise.
elise again!
YTWO's preformance during the first day of open house.
the outside of the school. the name only occupied 60% of the area available.
yeah. my alma mater's banner.
yiling's all-time favourite. sesame seeds! it is on a snack. very very nice snack. cantonese or teo chew's.
jay chou's concert poster thing in downtown east, coasta sands' cheers.
dina and me.
me and yiling. the effects of the lights are wonderful! hahaha.
me and howleong during first night of chalet. i looked like i am in a state of shock or simply, too retarded.
27/11
Tuesday, November 27, 2007 @ 11:30:00 PM
27/11: happy birthday to chuanjing!
i woke up 10 today, wanting to go for a jog. in the end, it rained heavily. it is on such a rare occasion that i decided to go for a jog, but then of all times, it has to rain. in the end, i continued with my online show. finished 2 episodes only! nvm. i shall watch it the next time.
after that, i decided with yiling to go out to bugis to disturb those people at work. we went with yurong and disturbed ansar. BHG. be there for good things. OMG. so funny. he was jogging to and fro the store room to get the shoes. BEING A SALE ASSISTANT IS NO FUN. respect them alright!-> ansar said that.
i went to the airport, alone, to see kian ru back. i am so kind. hahaha. send her off and "see her back". when she smsed me, i still say, sorry i got work. cannot go to the airport today. LOL. i am the ultimate dumbness of all. she surprised me more than i surprised her when she saw me and asked, i thought you got work. SHE BOUGHT ME 5 BOXES OF BISCUITS. oh my! how am i going to finish them! now i am fat. after that is ultimate lump of fats. x=
i went back to bugis to find yiling and yurong. they are sitting at the side, waiting for ansar to be dismissed. we then went to find a toilet and walked around, instead of letting our butts rot. i called peixin to join us since her work is over. i almost succeeded in persuading her to come to bugis,
with all my FUNNY lies. especially the first one, which is who i am with. irritatingly funny. she said okay lor. after that, aiya cannot la. my father will something something. NVM. next time!
nothing much actually. then we went home. i chatted with peixin again. this time with yu rong's phone. hahaha. we chatted only for 16 minutes then yu rong was complaining- he has free incoming and why he complain ar? we talked about history, for some people, it is sad. hmm. today was a FANTASTIC day. LONG LONG TIME since i last hanged out with my friends. i really missed the days. perhaps, distance makes the heart grow fonder? hahaha. i am meeting peixin on thursday! YEAH SO EXCITED.
laughs out loud!
oh yes! i MUST mention this part. mr chong yu rong ar. he was sort of leading me and yiling to the mrt station. he pointed to the escalator beside mos burger. we followed. after i stepped onto the escalator, i saw this arrow pointing down, saying somethingland. i was like erm. why not mrt station. hahaha. i also forgot where to go coz i was tired. halfway through the trip down, we heard loud noises. we ended up in an ARCADE. i turned to him and said, mrt station. we took the escalator up and successfully waited for ansar at the BUGIS MRT STATION.
end of story.
16/11-18/11
Monday, November 26, 2007 @ 1:16:00 AM
this will be on vernicia's chalet. hahaha. so late then update. so sorry! 16th to 18th november.
i went to vernicia's house. and i met OW PEI XIN. woots. she told me fantastic news. rather heart-breaking. everytime must like that. HAI. nvm. we reached then they are already setting off. the load was much lighter than what i carried from melissa's house to the taxi- cartons of drinks!
we boarded a taxi and that uncle was so irritating. initially, i cannot take 5 people (me, peixin, ver, her mum and her bro). later when ver's mum told him that lionel (ver's bro) can take a separate taxi to where he was going. he said, aiya. take 5 for once (like i am going to believe). he was complaining that if he was caught for 5 people, blah blah blah. i showed the very tak-boleh-tahan face to ver's mum and she showed me the understanding face. hahaha. i know i am not suffering alone!
when we have reached downtown east, coasta sands (yes, again), he started it all. one must faster get off. if not my taxi mates will say why i took 5 people. walaoeh. he thinks he is the only one doing it? worrisome.
we saw the rest at the entrance when we have settled down a bit- catherine, wanjuun, jamie, guanyu (with her hair rebonded!) and yueru. blah blah. we played a little then while watching wan quan yu le, i fell asleep. really tired. hahaha. dinner at the foodcourt. the difference in the amount of food me and peixin ate, was drastic. i was hungry, with no lunch and just woke up. wolfed the food down- can be used to describe me.
we went back and then. erm. watched a bit of tv and playing cards. me, peixin, yueru and vernicia had ben's and jerry. whatever the VER MONSTER. $88.00. OH MY GOSH. i think they give you the whole machine. hahaha. but what machine at ben's and jerry? VER
nicia MONSTER. hahaha.
they were watching ai qing mo fa shi and i slept earlier. i have work the next day. anyway, it is either you bully me on bed, or vice versa. hahaha. peixin bullied me for the class chalet and yueru said i bullied her for this. this is fairness. by the way, peixin still bullied people for this. forever a bully.
i went for work to earn money for my laptop while the rest went to Red House and rode bicycles. i went back just nice for the bbq. bbq bbq bbq. i ate considerably more than what i ate during my class chalet. lalala. one can of carlsberg down too- i was thirsty. i continued to bbq marshmallows. very tasty ones, and not those sub-standard ones hor.
we went in to watch pu wei zhi ye, coz tang yu zhe is there. aiyo. i do not understand why. handsome is handsome. okay. we also discovered that ver and her bro has the same conception- handsome can liao, no need to sing live. pretty can liao, a bit fat nvm. LOL. we went out to walk walk after tang yu zhe's interview on yes 933 after monopoly. aiyo. again. peixin and ver were smiling while listening.
we came back and we watched CHUCKY AND HIS BRIDE. hahaha. the fourth or the third of the chucky the doll. WOOTS! very nice and exciting. but the screen saver of the laptop was a bit GRR. so what happened? the child continued to live? ending was not stated clearly. maybe filming the next movie, with only the child? but it will be rather boring.
this time round, 5 slept on 2 beds. hmm. i was seriously bullied by ver and cat. i cannot fall back asleep in that position so i slept on the floor. when i was about to fall asleep, ver's mum woke up and asked me to sleep on the bed. YEAH! hahaha. it was shiok! although i was in front of the mirror which i hate most.
the next day, we packed up and went to chong pang to have our lunch. ver was SO certain i can finish cat's food for her. well i really can, but i chose not to. i thought i would have food at home, but in the end, NO. i was rather disappointed and regretted not eating cat's food. HAHAHA.
13/11-15/11
Saturday, November 24, 2007 @ 10:15:00 PM
belated post about class chalet. so sorry! hahaha.
13/11-15/11: class chalet! i went to school early to get some stuff with chia wei in the bb room. after all the tug and tussle, we took 962, he met yee tat and i went home. after i have packed everything into ansar's big crumpler, and off i went to melissa's house after meeting jiajun. i took a taxi with jiajun, melissa and COUNCILLOR rou miao. we met peixin, mas and humaira after we reached downtown east, coasta sands.
lalala. we put all the frozen food and drinks into the fridge and we settled down for SAW II. woah woah woah. actually i have watched nearly half of it at siyuan's house the other time. but the ending was so sad. the father did not listen to the guy's instructions and in the end, he died or he survived with no feet. after SAW II, was ratatouille. aiya. i went to start the fire and did not watch it although i wanted to watch it SO MUCH.
i was so dumb to watch my chio chio nice nice nike sneakers to a chalet. i ended up barefooted walking all over the place. in the end, i stepped on many many interesting things. like a hotdog-which-was-ran-over-by-someone's-slippers, poles, satay sticks which my considerate classmates threw them onto the floor and finally HOT, BURNING CHARCOAL. i shouted for that. one hole in the sole of my foot for my barefooted-ness.
i averted your eyes when they told me to borrow it from you. and i gave the lamest yet so practical excuse on earth.i emo-ed again. i also do not know why. the music by the boys from the loudspeakers were awful, so i conveniently took out my handphone and stuck the earpiece into my ears. mumbling the songs coz i know i cannot sing without MOOD.
i think mood is more more more crucial than attitude. hahaha. like you only say mood to blog, not attitude to blog.
i ate pretty little, i guess. hahaha. given that i eat a lot a lot when i have the MOOD (again, you do not say:
attitude to eat). after that, it was the celebration. well well well. my eyes had the treatment by the poles. i was blinded for a few minutes. we played with cake after the celebration. so fun lor! hahaha. retarded. ms soh and ms goh then went to the "girls' room" to talk about tertiary education, some boys were watching 300 for the millionth time. chuanjing and dina were cooking and trying to save the fire. samuel and zhengrong were traveling to and fro our and 2e5's chalets. some of us were eating what they cooked (i was one of them, coz i was real hungry by then). i took a photo with howleong.
when ms soh and ms goh left, we went in then watched a bit of chu han jiao xiong. very nice show. i took photos with dina. and as usual we talked. there are just so many things under the sun for us to talk, but actually, we only talk about some issues, but they are never-ending.
one idiot got drunk. and he is so so so irritating. made many worry. made evelyn scared. made me very very angry. it was SHOW TIME! we continued with the marathon with dead silence and transformers then everyone slept. hahaha. that drunkard woke up from his slumber and we were so bored with only us awake. like last year, we were the only survivors? hahaha. it was so fun for last year. we jumped into those kids' ride then security guard chased us out!
after that, we really had nothing to do. i told him, why not i pretend to sleep then have nightmare and shout la. maybe everyone will wake up. hahaha. we waited till around 7 then some souls stirred. in the end, i cannot take it anymore! i went to the other room and slept. evelyn and geena also went over. i think i slept beside zhengrong. last year class chalet also? hahaha. aiya who cares la. i was dead bushed. i fell asleep after my head hit the pillow.
zhengrong woke up suddenly. usually, i will sleep like a log and will not realise. but imagine if you are sleeping then someone got off the bed like he jumped onto the bed. i did not care, i continued to sleep. this showed how pig i can get. hahaha. and yee tat with his, "walaoeh chiawei. i wanted hotcake meal with tea. why did you only buy tea?" i was half laughing but that REALLY woke me up. he persuaded me and evelyn to ask for macdelivery (i was rather sad to see the news which showed who won the 10K. i was not one of them. GRR).
me, yiling, evelyn, geena, eric, zhengrong, yurong and chiawei went to WILDWILDWET. it was my first time there, but i did not regret it. FUN FUN FUN. hahaha. especially the ride me and yiling took- which also evelyn and geena backed out at the queue. it was really exciting. you climbed all the way up there. then just for less than a minute. hahaha. and the queue is LONG. and the tsunami was WOOT!
shrooms-burger-mealed before going back to the chalet. very very hungry. we also ordered pizza. maybe we should have ordered mac. HIGHER CHANCE OF THE $10K prize! LOL. some went to the Red House but the rest remained in the chalet to play truth and truth in the boys' room. we also knew many many things. hahaha. eric and his not-worth-it, rose-and-jasmine-theory AND his STRAIGHTFORWARDNESS. aiyo. so funny! but it will not be fun if you are the victim.
suddenly almost everyone went to the other room (girls') to watch DAWN OF THE DEAD. i fell asleep many many times. and the ending was mysterious for me. coz it ended with something loud then i woke up. LOL. i think i am retarded, very very retarded. hahaha.
i slept beside peixin. i was already asleep so she said, "you are already properly lied there, so i just used the rest of the space lor." omg. like that also can. she also said, "i was avoiding the slot in the middle (of the two beds) so i moved nearer to you." and i almost fell on evelyn. imagine i really fell on the sleeping evelyn. MY GOSH. i do not know what will happen. she will be very scared and scream? hahaha.
the horrible truth. i hope while wearing them, he/she/they:
- admired until car crashed into them then they realised they are involved in an accident.
- develop athlete's foot (if they are not going to return).
- have sores forever (if they are not going to return).
- choke on fishballs or simply anything he/she/they eat/drink (return or not=no difference)
- fall(s) for every step they take.
i am not being vicious.
THEY DESERVE ALL THESE. i have not said the worst. (= i am already being kind. anyway, i will recognize if i see the stolen goods, for at least one pair. HURRAY TO THE DEATHS OF THE THIEVES. one more kind of people added to my hate-list. anyway, we checked out and home sweet home! i went home with evelyn and she is like, so funny lor. hahaha. i do not know why. i just say for fun. ROFL.
my hate-list!
1) smokers!
2) thieves
3) rapists/perverts
4) those who scold their parents like dogs
5) drug addicts
6) those who did not put in effort to find job and ask friends if they have lobang (KNS!)
7) those who waste parents' money on unnecessary stuff (cigarettes, drugs)
8) to be added...
22/11
Friday, November 23, 2007 @ 11:14:00 PM
22/11: as i had mentioned earlier, i am going to collect my uniform today. i went to HTA with a totally positive attitude. they are rude and brainless. i could have sworn to every god of every religion (no offence) that my hair can pass. that part of fringe is not long and it is not touching my brows.
they did not answer my question. i asked if my shoes pass. she started to say, when you want to buy shoes, you look out for the four colours: black, white, grey and dark blue. and ironically, i saw her Ns (new balance shoes) are outlined with red, whereas mine is with dark purple. well well well. who was the one who talked about being role models?
oh yes, about them being rude. one told me i did not sign for one part, so of course, human's instinct will ask the person to lend the pen, seeing that she is holding one.
me: mam, can you lend me your pen?
she: -----
me: nvm, i have my own pen (remembering my pen is in my pocket)
the most shiok part, i spoke like i have attitude problem. i am very happy and satisfied with it. protest in my style. after the submission of the forms, i was waiting for her to say, ok you may go or something. she adjusted her posture to look at the person behind me and said, next. if she was not what she is, she would have either get scolded by me or get slapped. i give them face. i give them now. now only.
after that was UNIFORM COLLECTION. that is why i go to HTA for. and not to be snubbed at. MY CADET INSPECTOR UNIFORM. well. it does not look good on anyone, except yourselves. my round hat is already seasoned. perhaps due to the small size. i am shocked that i took the smallest size. 6 and 5/8.
next to settle is my uniform (to iron and put on the buttons and collar lapels), my boots (season and polish) and then find my uniform cover. hahaha.
19/11-21/11
Thursday, November 22, 2007 @ 12:30:00 AM
the posts about the chalets will come later. i am still editing. this will come first coz i am very very agitated.
19/11: i resumed work, FINALLY. i went out of my house as usual.
take note: this part is not any lame part here. it contains important details. you know, HDB blocks. you know, lifts. you know, public lifts. BUT THE THING IS, there was this lady, walking out of the lift then i entered. i did not realise anything, until the door closes. THE LADY WAS SMOKING INSIDE THE LIFT. i have just finished bathing, with my hair washed! although it was less than one minute, it felt like eternity. smelly, stinky, disgusting, revolting. any negative words can describe.
i almost died inside the lift.
20/11: i had to meet mr soh in school with mas and rahimi. but i do not know why. i cannot contact him. in the night then i realised his number is changed. but what we know, mr soh has already told him. me and mas went back to the yishun campus. well. npcc room is not as small i had imagined it to be.
slightly bigger. things were cramped and very messy. we discussed a little about the arrangement of the logistics.
it was kbox, or rather supposedly. in the end, we were too broke, too little people and yes, it was cancelled. so only me and siyuan went for dinner. teckseng and aldrich went off earlier. we chatted about many things-- things in the past. but still quite hot topics alright!
finally, she called to inform me about the email sent. I WAS SUPPOSED TO RECEIVE IT LAST TUESDAY. it was one week late. nvm. i thought it was only some forms to fill in.
i thought, i thought. three attachments. i have to print and fill the forms, see a doctor, endorsement from OC unit (mr soh), photocopied NRIC, prelim results and bankbook. well. although i have repeated this for about 4 to 5 times, i will not hesitate to repeat it.
is my father or mother OC unit? is my father or mother a doctor? is my family or house running a business of photocopying (bookshop)? NO! all these were supposed to be done in a week's time, but because they were busy, we have to do these in less than 4 hours' time (email sent at 6++ and given that bookshop close at 10).
i have done my part by smsing to inform her.
she refuses to reply, talk coherently and politely, is it my problem? NO!21/11: i met up with rahimi to get the printed forms. after that, i boarded kianru's father's car to see them off to faraway taiwan.
the sec3 leaders are going to almost the same places we went earlier this year. they are not going to taipei 101, shi lin and all those fun places we left our footprints. they are going to 2 farms, syue mountain, *secret*(jiu fen) and then back to singapore.
i thought that was dumb. hahaha. but jiu fen will also be a good experience for them. 200 shops. my gosh. maybe cancelling out those shops that sell furniture and those which they might not be interested in.
let me, a shopper at jiu fen to intro you what are the jiu fen must-buys:
- tai yang bing ("sun" biscuits) it is similar to the wife's biscuits but different in a way too. hahaha.
- guo dong (jelly thing) although i did not buy, but i heard from others, it is really yums yums
- muah chee (muah chee la) it is also sold in singapore. so i do not really know why they must buy in taiwan. as in like, if i buy them, my mum will scold me.
- tie dan ("metal" eggs. actually just don't what animal's eggs) why metal, coz it is rather hard. it comes in many flavours. like hot, hot&spicy, original. it is sort of vacuumed packed.
basically, i think these are the food part. maybe they want to try the smelly beancurd. no one tried for our trip. hahaha. we were scared no one will talk to us. i sort of regretted it? my sister came back from taiwan and told me it was delicious, but really really smelly. i remembered me, yvonne, rachel and michelle will run when there is a shop selling it. it was really smelly. we wanted to smell nice, and not like smelly beancurd.
for the souvenirs part, i can say it was rather common. as in not like minitoons those kind you see. as in those which uses wood to manufacture them. wooden pen stands, wooden windchimes and stuff. the most uncommon thing bought from our trip was roland i guess. he bought a statue (chinese god, but i forgot which) for his family.
okay. i shall come back to the airport scene. their "name" was leopard. ours was apex. their bags were amazingly similar size for almost everyone's. suddenly, people cry. so scary. for my batch, everyone was too tired to cry i suppose. we have to fall-in in school at 530, 545 or 6. AM. so early. yawn until tears come out is more possible than cry. somemore, there are not so many people to see us off. only like some parents and some friends. you should have seen the crowd today. almost can assign 2 persons to each sec3 leader flying off.
i took photos with kianru and then for one i was ugly. for the second one she said she was awkward looking. the third one was rather alright. LOL. sort-of-goodbye hug then she cried. omg. scary la. suddenly you know. she cried until her contact lens went to the back of her eyeball. luckily, nothing happened. phew.
i really wish them all the best. they are going to scale the last 100m of the mountain and it is the see-god part. we did not make it up there for my trip coz it was raining with thunder. very very wasted. JIA YOU PEOPLE. YOU CAN DO IT!
emo thoughts again.
Monday, November 12, 2007 @ 9:56:00 PM
endless memories would be useless,if the ones with you were not in them.countless places would be ordinary,if you have not been there with me.
you talked to me the other day. you exaggerated things. in the past, i would think you are cute and thought it was funny. but now, i knew that all your jokes are not meant to make me laugh. i am just a guinea pig to experiment your jokes on. well well well. i do miss the days you make us laugh. but now. i know that your sense of humour is not for me.
things are very difficult for me now.
08/11-12/11
@ 8:23:00 PM
08/11: YTWO performance at istana. cool cool cool. i may be a music idiot to a certain extent, but i know how to listen from camy that the sounds are better. good good good. i chatted with mr chew again when we were back in school. and i helped to carry the kongo and i do not know why there is a bruise on my arm. hahaha.
dined with reshma, ruzzie, ruo han and ann. woots. all the funny funny stuff. it was felicia toh's birthday. so, happy birthday! quite belated though. felicia tan was scared of me, for i do not know why, what and how.
09/11: i forgot. no data saved in my phone.
10/11: i woke up early at 10 to get my haircut. YEAH! finally. cut 80% of my split-ends. i shall try to destroy the 20% by my own. littered places like trains and buses with my hair with split-ends. now my hair is more fizzy. ARGH.
elise's birthday celebration. she did not cry when i carried her and she rejects me quite a few times. GRR. watched TRANSFORMER. great great great. fantastic! SAM WITWICKY. it is worth to watch it many many times.
11/11: i went to check the chalet out with peixin and ansar. peixin was so cool with her big ear RINGS. i just love to treat it as the train's handle. hahaha. very funny happenings and people on the train.
12/11: happy birthday to ms soh! i woke up at 8 today. i then rolled across the road to evelyn's house. she totally ignored me when she opened the door and went to put her contact lenses. -,- when she finally saw me, i was glad. she passed me the money then i set off to humaira's house. chicken wings are with her, so i must take it to ansar's house to marinate them. WE WERE STRUGGLING WITH THEM.
we then went to kfc to meet melissa, chiawei, yurong and samuel to lunch. yurong dyed his hair brown at the back. hmm. weiru has dyed her hair too. woah woah woah. fast action ar. hahaha. i am so not going to dye my hair. at most i will only rebond. haha. rebond rebond rebond.
chiawei and i then went off to see the chalet after knowing the actual rooms. the rooms are alright, but a bit small without much walking space. movie marathon will be alright. there are two beds in a room, two mattresses, tv, dvd player, cupboard, fridge and toilet like DUH.
chiawei went back to yishun while me and ansar went to get marshmallows at marsiling. ex ex ex, so ex. handphone pouches we saw were beeauuutiful. LOL. or rather suitable for my new new new chio chio chio handphone. ((=
i went back home to have a short rest then out to get the $50 loan from leiwin. i was totally listless. i cannot see anyone clearly, plus my fringe covering half of my face. i waited and waited. won chwin lin finally appeared! i returned to yishun (met her in khatib) to buy satays. i realised i cleared almost all the stocks in cold storage. i took 7 chicken and 7 mutton. in the end, it was left with 1 chicken and 3 mutton. hahaha.
i dragged the satays and myself to humaira's house AGAIN. when i was waiting, many memories flowed into my mind. emo mood again, i guess. she and mas hysterically ran to me. blah blah blah. i finally went home and bathed. now sitting im my comfy sofa to use my laptop and drinking nutritious soup. ((=
next day's post will be after chalet, ABOUT
ALL THE FUN FUN FUN STUFF!
07/11-08/11
Thursday, November 8, 2007 @ 9:52:00 AM
07/11: happy birthday to dharman.
today is my first day of work back to kumon tiong bahru since i have stopped last year before christmas. i am looking forward to another direction of job- marking. i think it is very fun, but the thing is, you can never finish marking, unless there are no students.
i reached there at 150 and then i saw all my colleagues that i have not seen for almost a year. haha. they asked me about my O's and stuff. they taught me new stuff such as marking, picking and packing of worksheets. second time marking (last year only once), so there are considerable number of mistakes. i know them and am rectifying.
the kids there are still familiar to me as it has only been a year. esp a boy called chao hong. he can be quite irritating, coz he always ask all those questions that are not related to his classwork, homework or corrections. and he is also funny. jing wen too. very very cute with her chubby cheeks. hahaha. jie min even said her cheeks are not as bouncy coz it has turned into muscles.
i was very very tired. i have not adapted to sleeping normally at 11 or 12 and i have to wake up early sometimes for my work. i also have not rested enough since the end of O levels. if you have been staying up half or the whole night for might O's like me, i think you will understand how i feel.
i chatted with vernicia from 1140-0110am. to vernicia: thank you so much for your time. i think you have enough of my rubbish. hahaha. i see what i can do about the matters. if i have the time and money, i will heed your advice. and thank you for telling me what is my problem.08/11: as i slept considerably late last night and i have to wake up early for meeting at 9, i overslept. i woke up at 830. i went to bathe immediately i left my bed. i smsed melissa that i will be late and ansar to ask what he is wearing later. i dealt with my recalcitrant hair too. blah blah. i went out of the house.
i have this bad feeling as both did not reply me. i called ansar. he told me he just woke up. okay. i went to take the train to sembawang then (meeting venue). when i was waiting for the train (7 minutes -,-), ansar smsed, "call me. or you want me to call you?" i called him back and he told me the meeting has been postponed to tml and he did not inform me earlier was that information was passed down late like 12-1 AM. he was asleep and like what i had said earlier, he woke up late. and he said his parents are at home and he cannot leave his house so soon.
now i am dumped at sembawang. SO MUCH for waking so early despite being bushed after not resting enough from the stayed up nights and what aggravated my bad condition was yesterday's 7 hours of work. if i had known earlier, i will not bother to wake up SO early.
i called ansar, rachel and geena and asked what to do. SOMEMORE TODAY IS DEEPAVALI. festive mood while i was dumped ALONE at sembawang. behind is an excerpt from friday, november 2, 2007's post.
"LIBRANs: ... ... energetic and very sociable. hates to be alone. peaceful..."see that? i do not mind being alone, as long as i have my handphone, which has a function called mp3 and with all the fabulous songs from my favourite singers. but the importance is, i was dumped, there, like so rubbish. (now i see a lady peering into my house through the door, TWICE. wrong place la.)
what have i done to deserve that? can anyone tell me? or rather, can anyone tell me, what have i not done to deserve something BETTER? i even felt like smashing everything on my messy table to the floor. but on second thoughts, for what? my things are suffering and my table is already so messy, it will generate more work for me.
i do not know who and what i am scolding now. i am just very very angry. i have never felt so angry before, not in my life. even my juniors in NPCC and SC have not made me SO angry like now. balala.
i do not know why, what and how.
i really feel guilty; the guilt is still residing in my heart. i am feeling very terrible. i do not want to be diagnosed with the bystander syndrome.
對不起我愛你
Sunday, November 4, 2007 @ 11:39:00 PM
i thought i would have a quick post before i return to my revision for my 50% out of 70% left for O Levels. i am so so so excited to the end of O Levels. haha. excitement aside.
this is the lyrics of a song in
I'm 蕭瀟 album. though she is not that popular, i think her singing is nice. and this song is very nice and meaningful. i hope i can provide english one soon. haha. AFTER O LEVELS. everything is after O Levels.
對不起我愛你
記得那一天 窗外細雨綿綿
你捧著我的臉 輕輕說了再見
你說我不可以掉眼淚 你要記住我最美的笑臉
但我卻在你轉身的瞬間 看見了你 紅了雙眼
＊我愛你 我真的想永遠 好好愛你
是我叛逆善變又任性 一次一次傷透你的心
我好想你 我真的想你 快不能呼吸
我要告訴你 對不起 我愛你
記得那時候 我真的不懂事
你越溫柔越包容 我越放肆
原來幸福就是這樣子 我是孩子你是我的天使
現在多想窩在你的懷裡 這一輩子 永不分離
Repeat ＊
我好愛你 我真的想永遠 好好愛你
沒有你的手給我溫暖 我的世界冰冷黑暗
我好想你 我真的想你 快不能呼吸
我要告訴你 對不起 我愛你
我要告訴你 對不起 我愛你
very very slipshod translation.
Sorry I Love You
remember that day, outside the window, it was drizzling
you were holding my face, saying goodbye lightly
you said i cannot cry, you want to remember the most beautiful smiling face of mine
but at the moment you turned away, i saw you, with your eyes red
*i love you, i really want to, love you deeply forever
is my rebellious, ever-changing and stubbornness, which break your heart repeatedly
i miss you, i really miss you, till i almost cannot breathe
i want to tell you, sorry, i love you
remember that time, i was really insensitive
the more gentle and forgiving you are, the wilder i get
so this is how happiness is like, i am a child and you are my angel
really want to be in your arms, for this lifetime, we won't be separated
i love you so much, i really want to, love you deeply forever
without your hands to give me warmth, my world is cold and dark
i miss you so much, i really miss you, till i almost cannot breathe
i want to tell you, sorry, i love you
i want to tell you, sorry, i love you
i really feel guilty; the guilt is still residing in my heart. i am feeling very terrible. i do not want to be diagnosed with the bystander syndrome.
visit to yishun campus
Saturday, November 3, 2007 @ 1:47:00 PM
views about new campus.02/11: after lunch at BK, i suggested we (peixin, ansar and i) go to the new-renovated yishun campus to check it out. we asked the security guard, who was listening to her mp3, if we can enter the school. she seemed to have said okay to everyone.
we started our tour from the
supposedly platform and DNT block. we walked beside the tiny parade square. what went through my mind was, how are the UGs and the performers going to be inside for future NDPs or any parades. nvm. we walked along the corridors. some colours are disgusting. bright, concentrated yellow against the plain yellow background! the next door is some light chocolaty brown. erm...
that
was the home econs rooms.
btw, all the places i am saying here in this post, were the original rooms or places, not the new ones as i cannot remember. we also saw the
shelter? we went up the nearest staircase we saw. and i reminded them that, it was at the position where the toilet next to the home econs rooms.
we climbed up and we are now standing at the corridors of our ex- sec 1 classrooms. the corridors are wider. we also realised that the classrooms are squarish. -,- a bit weird huh. we then turned to walk to the hall. everything is connected to one another.
i agree with catherine; it is really like a polytechnic. i saw from cheryl's blog that the hall is like Home Team Academy's Harmony Hall. they have the chairs which can be kept. so cool. just imagine they will have the mass lecture. i am so jealous now. one is enough; the new campus has two of the halls.
the carpark path leading from the back of the DNT block, where YTWO & NPCC used to fall in, was replaced by the corridors outside the hall. well. the large area outside the auditorium can be a new place for the UGs or YTWO to fall in. we went to explore the canteen next, coz i said i heard from jessie that the
canteen is circular.
it was not so circular as i had imaged it to be. the chairs and tables are not there yet; it does not seem that bad
, yet. another thing is, ALL THE CCA ROOMS, INCLUDING COUNCIL ROOM, ARE JUST BESIDE THE CANTEEN. imagine the crowd just gets too messy and they can actually peer into council room, guides room, sjab room and ncc room. isn't the construction a bit problematic? the rooms are also very very very small. i thought our rooms in the un-renovated yishun campus were small enough, although the sembawang campus rooms were slightly bigger, but still small. now, the rooms are unfit for anyone to enter after placing the items inside.
i had a hard time finding npcc room. OMG. it is in the dark corridor between the basketball court and the canteen. OMG. we are beside bb. the neighbour does not matter; or maybe it does- we are suffering together. if there are anyone occupying the basketball court, we will die. of noise pollution.
(not to mention if there were any cockroaches from the canteen; i believe the school is free of cockroaches =S) small and dark, worse than storeroom. ALRIGHT, I SHALL BE OPTIMISTIC.
(but how?)the basketball court is really like a bird cage. not to mention the gates, but the FANS and ventilation. for goodness sake. on the bright side, there can be indoor competitions and parades, since the hall seems unavailable, by accordance to mr yong about the floorings.
there is no sound proof for the band room and it is retardedly situated on the fourth floor. omg. can you imagine the agony they are going through, moving the instruments down? i have tried that twice. NO FUN, NO JOKE.
many things are done in such a way that they are wasting space, a lot a lot. such as the fountainS, canteen, WIDE corridors. might as well donate the space to the CCA rooms. it is not privacy by giving us the corridor room; it is torture. it is like a storeroom. OMG.
summary:the campus is lower. (evidence is from the slope to outside)
the parade square has seriously shrunk (i wonder where the cars are to be parked during PTR sessions).
the platform has been replaced with the administration block. the direction of the canteen has changed.
one more fountain is built in front of the ex platform (waste space lor).
CONVENIENTLY, npcc room is located at some abandoned corridor.
and it is smaller than the dumb fountain in the middle of the car park.
the gym and the CCA rooms have been replaced with the DNT studios.
DNT block is replaced with the hall and the basketball court. (the grass patch also)
the piano area and bookshop ARE GONE! replaced with a building (above ex home econs rooms).
and that building is this; which is built beside the bougainvillea wing.
the fern lounge is left untouched and it looked like someone just threw it there.
home econs rooms
(more high class) have been moved to fourth floor.
IT rooms are replaced by some irritating rooms. (imagination & expression-art rooms lor)
ART ROOMS ARE NICER!
band room is next to beethoven and dance studio.
staff rooms are at the ex platform have 2 levels. (staircase leading up)
i do not see any air-conditioners anywhere.
i am still not over the fact that npcc room is like a storeroom, small, dark and ABANDONED. i wonder what we have done to deserve this, or rather what we have not done to deserve better. i complained to my sister. her comments are, then for what they built the foyer, pondok yidao, platform and pigeon hole? in the end still gone. i do not like the school now. it just does not give the homely feeling like the unrenovated campus or the sembawang holding site.
i really feel guilty; the guilt is still residing in my heart. i am feeling very terrible. i do not want to be diagnosed with the bystander syndrome.
02/11
Friday, November 2, 2007 @ 11:32:00 PM
i thought i would have a quick post before retiring and then wake up early for tml's morning jog. to ansar and peixin especially: i am
really waking up early for a jog.
we went to the cc to 'study' again. aiya. not very effective these few days. haha. tml is serious time! we went online using the cafe's computer. WAH. some superior foreign language-speaking people spammed catherine's and peixin's blogs wor! like so free and understood by all.
i chanced upon this, a few days ago. posting it now.
LIBRANs:
nice to everyone they meet. cannot make up their minds. have their own unique appeal. creative,
energetic and very sociable. hates to be alone. peaceful, generous. very loving and beautiful. flirtatious.
give in too easily. procrastinators. very gullible.
i saw this email from chia wei and from his blog, i realised he just read mine. haha. and i realised for this, sagittarius has almost the same characteristics, except it has more, a lot more.
LIBRANs:
nice to everyone they meet. their love is one of a kind. silly,
fun and sweet. have their own unique appeal. most caring person you will ever meet. however,
not the kind of person you want to mess with. you might end up crying.
the similar ones are in red.
SAGITTARIUS: spontaneous. high appeal. rare to find. great when found. so much love to give. not one to mess with. very pretty. very romantic.
nice to everyone they meet. their love is one of a kind. silly, fun and sweet. have own unique appeal. most caring person you will ever meet. amazing in the you know where
(you know?).
not the kind of person you want to mess with. you might end up crying.SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO LIM YI SHIUAN. haha.
CAPRICORNs: loves to bust
(?). nice. sassy. intelligent. sexy. predict future. irresistible. loves being in long relationships.
great talker. always gets what he or she wants. cool. loves to own Gemini's in sports. extremely fun. loves to joke. smart.
blah blah. i love horoscope and astrology stuff. haha. so fun. i shall sleep now. SO TIRED AND GETTING SICK. TML JOG JOG JOG.
cheers!
i really feel guilty; the guilt is still residing in my heart. i am feeling very terrible. i do not want to be diagnosed with the bystander syndrome.
01/11
Thursday, November 1, 2007 @ 3:14:00 AM
i studied with peixin, ansar, yiling and geena at the cc today. we were chatting outside the cafe happily after dinner. haha.
this is 100% of what i think.i really wonder why the response is really so pathetic. i can say that majority of the people who are not going, are the people who has been disappointing ms soh,
countlessly. your response is telling me that, you do not care about what ms soh has been doing for you and it does not matter. can you get even more heartless? you have benefited and you simply do not give it a hoot. i really wonder.
i really wonder why the response is really so pathetic. if you are not going because someone or some people asked you not to, i think your reason is just as weak as your stand. why must you listen to someone else to know what to do? why can't you believe in yourself? why can't you believe in what you see? plain listening is dumb. it is the same thing for listening comprehension. listening is not good enough; you have to analyse the answers.
i really wonder why the response is really so pathetic.
the crux does not lie in, who are planning it. the importance lies in, who are we planning it for. if this was to be a challenge, do you feel good when you win it in this way? i think it is very sore of you. you may seem concerned, but don't you think you are overdoing it? you think too highly of yourself. we have excelling cca leaders in the planning committee, do you think we cannot plan a simple class chalet? aren't you a bit TOO paranoid?
i am alright with the fact that not everyone can stay overnight for the class chalet. well, it will be confirmed be fun anyway. but,
not even the bbq? isn't that a little too,
pathetic? i know who are the people putting in the effort to drop by, like wei ru. she has work and she can only drop by at 930. what about the rest? O's will be officially and 100% over by then. but, all of you just simple do not give it a damn.
give it some thought, people.
i really feel guilty; the guilt is still residing in my heart. i am feeling very terrible. i do not want to be diagnosed with the bystander syndrome.
31/10
@ 3:14:00 AM
31/10: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY MOTHER! thank you for everything that you have done for me and very sorry for all the nastiness i have shown you. i promise to change. ((=____________________________________________________
i forgot to blog this for the post just now- 30/10. anyway it was too long. so i blogged it here.
after art, i received a piece of shocking news from someone. i am not sure if it is convenient to say who. but those who were with us will know.
oh man. why must you say things like, we are too immature to be your friends? must you say something so nasty and made me to say things to rebut you?
yes, we are immature but excuse me. may i know the reason why you have been viewing all of our blogs? yeah, laughing at our childishness and immaturity. we are too immature, but may i know why were you following us around? doing surveys of childish people and wondering where we go to? go home and interact with your mature friends, would you?
i feel that we are so much better than you, obsessed in the world of electronic gadgets and trying to act mature. there is no doubt that you have no friends in real life, but for your virtual life, we know nothing- as if we care. the people who you deemed as friends, or rather still friends, are because they are not the people who know you and your behaviour. basically, people who know you cannot stand you.
we have told you quite a number of times. you refused to change, not that we do not give you the chances. all your acts really piss us off. you think that we should do what you asked of us. as friends, we have to tolerate your rudeness, even if we have told you? if this is your definition of friendship, you are totally off the track.
you think that you are cool, but you are not, not only in my eyes but in everyone's. we think and we know you are just acting it out. cut it out. stop behaving like us. stop hanging out with us. stop pretending that you are with the immature gang. it is not that we despise you. we know that whatever we say, do not sink in that thick skull of yours. so why do we bother to say?
i think we are right to say that you are nothing without your electronic gadgets. yes, it may help you to become cool, but at the same time, make yourself hateful. it will only make us feel, "so what you have all these? you lack the basic interactive skills that a proper person should possess." a little bit more, and you will become a "zai nan" as what they say in taiwan. (zai as in house that zai and nan is boy that nan.) those who only stays at home, all day long, really never step out of the house, and meddle with the latest games and comics.
you are almost the main contribution to the noise pollution when it is quiet. you do not open your mouth, but somehow you just make a lot of noises. your pencils and the thing i hate most- you dragging your shoes. have you got no energy to lift your legs up and walk properly?
you are really alright when you do not act as though you own us or pretend to be cool. i think i can be friends, we can chat a bit about the nice phones and stuff. the thing is that, whenever we chat with you, you think we are very good friends and you will continue to talk incessantly. i do not like it. no one.
30/10
@ 2:04:00 AM
i was wanting to post this earlier on 30th october 2007, but my dad was using the laptop as usual. anyway, i was good and slept at 10 that night and woke up at 2 in the afternoon the next day. HAHA. so now, i am writing in the sense of 30th night.
it is mother tongue paper tml. so nervous. hahaha. i am not re-taking. just nervous for my friends who will be re-taking for the third time. i really pray for them to get an A or even better, A1. it really took quite a bit of courage. i do not have it and have no time to handle the consequences of the courage.
how can you take it when so many teachers just happily
"discussed" about you in front of you and as though your fate lies in their hands? i cannot take it. so i left. perhaps what ms goh said was right? when i grow up, i will thank the people like them, who have once discussed about me so openly and thus made me strive so hard to prove them wrong.
on the other hand, i really wondered if they really created such a big impact in my life.
what spurred me on, were not them. the people were my friends or rather enemies, regardless we are/were close or not.
what i can only say when i come back next year is that, thank you for rejecting my request to re-take my chinese. your kind reject has given me more time to study for other subjects.
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finally art is over! as i was telling huimeng on my tagboard, ART NOW IS SPELT AS O-V-E-R!
i will really miss the days we had. every night before any submission of boards or any lessons, we will always receive smses from our friends- why friends? coz our favourite shop is ART FRIEND. i know it is lame, so i just move on. from our friends to ask how much we have done. we will always be frantically asking, how. haha. it is torture but thinking of it, it was really fun. after art exam or anything, the reaction is always, phew, finally!
the mass work during the art camp. haha. we simply worked through our "movie time" which our dnt counterparts enjoyed. we really love ms kwa, as in FOR REAL, not sarcastic. we know we are really slow and need the time, so we did not really blame her. i remembered me falling asleep and then i was jolted awake and started to colour vigorously. it was the joke then. so embarrassing. i did not sleep for the night before. i did work and blogged. haha. so fun lor.
the deadline for canvas which was postponed many times. haha. i was still touching up for the last time on the submission day. we were running in the art room and screaming for help here and there. i remember ansar and i were happily scolding vulgarities coz we had no help and do not know what to do. i think the mess was really cool, having all the backs of the double-sided tape, labels like page 1/8 & many, developments, layouts, final layout, colour schemes, final colour schemes on the floor. it was really really messy. my room at its worst, pales in comparison with the art room then.
we really felt relaxed then. all the art lessons after the submission of canvas, were changed to self study. the sova and the dnt students were envious of us, but who suffered later, were the happy and lucky ones who got to study earlier. we reminded each other of the last self study lesson we were having. we received our paper 2 questions on 9 october 2007, 16 years after i was born. we also received the photo of our canvas and the motivational message from ms kwa behind the photo.
she even showed us a powerpoint about the rules and expectations. she also gave out the timelines and the appointments she wanted to have.
You think: I can finish my prep within 2 days.I say: GET REAL!!! You think: I don't have to start today... I'm too tired. I say: Like it or not, your art exam has already started NATIONWIDE. There are people out there using the FULL span of the next 3 weeks. You think: Layouts are not important. I say: Remember the tragic prelim? You think: It's too troublesome to go to school just to consult the teachers. I'm better off staying at home to do work. I say: Then why was the prelim so tragic?My logic: Quite frankly speaking, Ms Kwa and Mr Tan do have better visual senses. You are better off consulting us. It might save a lot of time!!6123 was marked with a FULL-stop after the invigilator said, please stop your work. and mr tan added with, there are two things you can do now. you can either dry your work or string your work up when you are ready.
looking back at the days, it was really short and the tortures of sleepless nights, seemed easy? of course. we are not experiencing them now.
the art days we had with our friends were really fun and we knew that our friends are with us. we were in it together.
the things ms kwa told us, sometimes made us laugh.
when she was giving out our past works."the shit that all of you submitted to me".yiling: "then why we still can get 60+?"her reply: "coz i cannot fail the whole level?"yiling: "but why prelim like that?"i forgot her reply.when she realised that eric was not around for all three sessions, she said, "he must be creating miracles at home."
i cannot help but feel the pinch on my heart caused by guilt after what she said before meeting the invigilators. "i wish all of you good luck" with a genuine smile on her face. why can't i wake up before the emergency bell rings?
