dream
Friday, August 31, 2007 @ 9:11:00 PM
for a moment, i thought my dream came true, as in the sleeping that dream.
i dreamt long time ago, i came down from the hall to the canteen. i was wearing npcc uniform with eric waring full council u (no link right?). i saw my class taking class photo with ms soh. i was shocked. no one told me there was photo-taking. no one told me anything. i ran to get changed into my class tee. when i ran past, i heard ms soh said, busy people. when i was done, they have gone for their own activity. i asked almost everyone and no one could answer me when was the photo-taking arranged.
i was hoping so much it will not happen today. except i was in npcc uniform instead of council full u. nothing of the above happened. the photo-taking was not held in the canteen. i knew about the photo-taking. it only commenced when eric and i were back. ms soh did not say nasty things.
i think i am WAY OFF paranoid and think TOO much.
it was such a happy day today. haha.
31/08
@ 8:21:00 PM
teachers' day celebration
peixin and i spent the night at sandy's house to finish the woodcraft construction kits. haha. i am the sole survivor. ms soh cheng peng's horses' legs were so difficult to complete and ms susan soh's small parts were so difficult to secure. i did not sleep at all for the kits. and, i still have not given it to her.
i took a taxi to school and i can conclude the taxi driver is reckless, extremely reckless. he drives very fast and i suffered from a jerky journey. he sped off suddenly and stopped suddenly, causing my woodcraft to drop and the parts to separate. i spent the whole night doing that and this is what i get. when i bent over to get it, the driver sped off again. i must be glad i did not fly off. it was almost the same as meteorite. basket.
everyone went down for assembly, as usual. we were the only graduating class, except 4/8, without performance. irritating. so much for being sec 4. so much for being graduating class. so much for the seniority in school. we were offered the back for being sec 4. enough is enough. sec 3s sit on chairs when sec 4s sit on the floor for pe is already outrageous. we have taught them a lot of things, but i think we forgot the part about respect. it is a two-way thing anyway. you do not give it to us, so can we.
we ignored those factors and the concert as great. the sec 4 fantastic dancers (esp ohleilei and her exciting acting! many thought it was for real), 4e3 with their crazy dance+billy, 4e5 with their, i do not know what to call that, 4e6 with the interesting and funny effects with their socks, 4e7 with their dance and song. not forgetting the sec5s with their dances and songs. federick's class and their mr yeo. lastly, 4e4 and our funny+touching video! all those parts with the favourite phrases of our teachers. ESP aerobics. ms soh, we really love you!
council photo-taking. me and eric (we) went down to the council room and we went back upon being informed to report at 1015 instead. after a while, we went down. first, the out-of-place timing when 4e4, 4e6 and 4e7 were celebrating. secondly, we were seated according to our heights, not post. thirdly, the whole process took such a long time. fourthly, almost no one was coordinating the whole thing. lastly, not everyone wore the expected attire, like stockings. (i am not saying the sec 4s). what can we expect when our shoes can go missing in the room?
we went back to our block, changed and took photos. ms soh waited for both of us, before the mass photo-taking session commenced. many, many funny photos were taken. the boys were jumping behind the main characters to get their faces in. irritating, but very, very funny! oh, the lively ms soh cheng peng. omg. melissa left a two person's share of cake for me. that was gigantic. nevertheless, thanks melissa!
ps: i finally took a photo with ms susan soh after the one at the spf presentation. lol.
26/08-29/08
Wednesday, August 29, 2007 @ 10:35:00 PM
sunday: i went to my grandparents' house. my great grandmother was discharged and back home but she still looks weak and on machine now.
monday: first day of prelim. i reached the bus-stop at 0700 to wait for the 962. around 0710, one came and it is a mini one. what the? it is already filled when it reached the sun plaza's bus-stop. around 0720 came another. it is a long one, but still full to the brim and it is worse than a can of packed sardines. in the end, the sec4s went to to take 2 taxis.
i so hate the frequency of the 962 bus.
i took one with lanyun, ms chiang and mr sim. our taxi reached the school and we saw everyone standing up. mdm saudah then asked us to get in the class for our papers. like whatever. papers were, i hope alright. i sort of sucked amanda's and sheena's powers. haha.
emaths paper was alright, really alright. except those gigantic amount of careless mistakes i have made when i am conscious. idiotic.
tuesday: sbq was easy to comprehend but i think it is of a certain difficulty to find the correct issue. i mistook today's science paper 3 as mcq. i tried to remember as many things as possible in the break before the paper. omg. i was so shocked. i had no idea why i thought it was mcq.
wed: i went to school for art while the others are having their mother tongue papers. i managed to finish that more-than-20% face and it looked FABULOUS. i still want to go touch-up with the teddy bear, the mess at the end of the hand, the doll and the table. the quality of the paint deteoriated and caused patched of stray paint to appear everywhere. omg!
25/08
Sunday, August 26, 2007 @ 2:00:00 AM
i woke and went to school for going through my compos (in the end, only 1 and jeremy's) with ms soh and english lesson with ms goh to go through the mock papers. my storyline led to many questions and i have a lot of careless tense errors.
while waiting for ms goh, i went to discuss about chemistry with yippy-yaya, ohleilei and satu kosong. i raised the topic about reactivity series and we shared our own way of memorising them. yippy-yaya's: please send cinderella mopping and zipping in the lamp, copper, silver, gold. ohleilei's: please stop calling me a zebra. i like called super girl.
yippy-yaya seeing satu kosong's face being blank, she initiated to make one together with her. it was something like, please stop calling me artistic. zhuangyi is talking like how chuanjing should then gold. they have not thought of the last word then they stopped.
small group teaching is indeed very helpful. more attention will be given to us. i then found out a truth. woah. quite shocking. haha. lunch with yippy-yaya, mas and zahi at ljs.
i saw mariah and madeline again. it was like the forth or fifth time. i heard a very irritating sound, which is of higher frequency. VERY IRRITATING. yippy-yaya slightly moved and i saw this so-mature boy (notice i use boy; he is younger than me definitely) playing the sound through his handphone to his friend. his friend looked as if he just had his hourly dose of drugs. sha xiao in chinese. i stared at them and said, "OI", without any hesitation on my part. the so-mature boy turned it off. i gave them a very fed-up look then i went to buy my meal. when i turned and look at the rest (mas, zahi and yippy-yaya), i caught the boys' looking at me, as if telling me that i am rude.
yes i am. yes i may be. who are the irritating people in the first place. it is due to this particular kind of black sheep, teenagers always get the blame or get the bad impression by the adults. not all teenagers are inconsiderate or rude. i cannot say it is the minority, but at least their attitude and behaviour attracts MORE attention than those who dared to stand up to them. i was also wondering if they were gangsters, would i still be blogging here? haha. i was really brave to stop them and stupid not to reconsider my actions at the same time.
nevertheless, zhuangyi, well done. LOL.
24/08
Friday, August 24, 2007 @ 12:38:00 AM
i have received more homework actually. this is the list of new or not yet finished homework.
physics: prelim paper 2006
english: broadrick paper 1 and xinmin paper 2 (i have just finished it! =D)
amaths: commonwealth paper 2, prelim 2005 and eoy 2005
emaths: zhenghua paper 2
ch (ss): canberra, bowen and northland papers
art: later at 1040, i will receive another paper. 6 periods to finish it. argh. must at least get b3 for paper 2.
i shall continue to work hard and work smart. this chance will only come once.
do it once, do it well.
P.S. aaron, do not forget our goal.
mug for prelims!
22/08-23/08
Thursday, August 23, 2007 @ 8:09:00 PM
yesterday: nice sleep till 745. hahaha. it is comfortable okay. i can imagine myself not turning up for school if my sister had not set the alarm clock for me.
i rather be late than never. now is revision AND preliminary examinations period. it is not beneficial to skip school. although the process is tiring. i wonder if art or school like this is more tiring. x=
maybe school is tougher. one whole day, from 730-530, all subjects. at least art does not really have what you call, homework
.
2 periods in the library. teachers went out for oral. i went to SGH to visit my great-grandmother. she looked really weak and xin ku. she is using an oxygen mask to breathe. she is on the bed with a special mattress under her to keep cool. not sure if it is pumped with air or whatever. she is unable to move much. felt really sad.
finished BEE CHOO!
today: happy birthday to amy and roland! and many others actually. haha. we went through our physics mid-year paper. i realised i am really dumb and weak in it. emaths= papers again. humanities: map-reading. english: BEE CHOO. emaths=papers, but i lost the mood. haha. i am only left with zhenghua paper 2. pe: exercises. horrible. made my knees go wobbly. haha. it was torturous. god, is really god.
we had our class discussion. futile is the best word to describe it. classroom was worse than recycle bin.
20/08-21/08
@ 8:06:00 PM
mon: i was SO tired. i struggled to keep myself awake. IT WAS SO TORTUROUS. can you imagine, you are so so so tired and you have to write? true, i write to keep myself awake. but i actually felt breathless for a couple of minutes! three periods of self-study as mdm chan went for a course or something. however, i did not accomplish much. NO. THIS WILL NOT HAPPEN AGAIN. howleong, you have to push me further! i have to, or rather, all of us must!
tues: today 2 periods of self-study. 2nd amaths lesson was like, lifeless? not like usual, but extremely lifeless. i finished my emaths june 2002 papers 1 and 2. haha. accomplishment! i taught jiamin (sec1) how to do maths. she also gave me a bottle of stars. omg. i was so shocked. i seldom take sec1s! haha. i take sec3s. well. haha.
4 chemistry papers, 2 amaths papers, 2 emaths papers, 2 ss papers.
16/08- 19/08
Sunday, August 19, 2007 @ 11:42:00 AM
last thurs: prelim practical. i was so scared why i cannot balance the ruler. i thought we cannot have negative values. after that it was mock chemistry. ss was self study. roumiao was so cute. seriously. i was so shocked.
if you think i had staged the show, i am sorry to tell you that i did not.
last fri: 7 people did not turn up for school. cheryl went home during recess for high fever. aiyo. everyone must take care. now prelim and revision for O's period. must not suddenly never come to school! take care, samurais!
last sat: i had amaths lesson. a day with strong wind. haha.
14/08-15/08
Wednesday, August 15, 2007 @ 11:58:00 PM
yesterday was my oral. omg. i was very nervous. i started reading aloud quite alright, except i stumbled along the way. and i also added a few words. for the picture discussion, i was about to move on to the old elderly lady (which is the prompt question), my examiner interrupted me and asked me. argh. i should have pretended not to hear him and continued to talk non-stop. for conversation, it was favourite food and charity (again!).
today was the briefing on retaking the mother tongue O's. mdm ho sort of did not allow me to retake. after everyone has left, i went to find mdm ho and all of them started to shoot me. fine. i remained quiet, like i can do or say anything much.
i am a human being. i have feelings. no way i am going to say any vulgarities. no way i am polluting my blog. i had enough with all of your insults, even though i am at fault. try putting yourself in my shoes. you think i want a b3? you think i am happy with it? i have put in efforts, perhaps not enough. do you know what is going through my mind then, now and in the future. please do not pretend you know me. no one knows me to the extent of 80%.
i wondered why i even asked howleong if it was appropriate to leave just like that, without informing anyone of them. i think i am too polite to the wrong people at the wrong time.
i learnt about the truth. my assumptions were right. it was my fault, like i have guessed and known. but you are unwilling to forgive me. i am not what you think. i have to reflect and stop all my stupid actions. sorry.
13/08
Monday, August 13, 2007 @ 11:41:00 PM
we got back our mother tongue results. well, it is my second time, but i am finally feeling the anxiety. the feeling is really breath-taking when ms soh tells us our results
one by one. slow and irritating process. not to mention any other naggings from other people. i got b3 with oral merit again. i am just too lazy to say any more. things have already gone so far. what can i do except bucking up?
today is the 111th day. i told myself i am going to forget all about you. i am going to start my 112th day as a brand-new person, with minimal memories of you. i do not know what really happened; only you know and you did not want to tell anyone about it. so be it. this process about forgetting a friend is not at all easy, but i have to. it is affecting my life too much, to an extent i am breaking down soon and i will not let it happen. i know you do not even care a hoot about what happened between us, but i do. have you ever considered my feelings? have you? i 100% doubt so, or at least your actions shown me that.i know i was not a very perfect person, although i am almost a perfectionist. you could have just told me what you do not like about me, and not suddenly start a cold war and refusing everyone to know what had happened between us, even your close friends. but you chose to start a cold war. there is nothing i can do to stop you, plus the fact that you do not care at all. i just to be a friend, if you think i might want more than that, sorry, you are mistaken and very wrong. is it so difficult to be a normal friend? i see not much of a difficulty.i welcome any comments, negative or positive. if any one of you choose to talk behind my back, thank you so much.
08/08
@ 9:12:00 PM
i was too busy and tired to carry on with this post the other day. i have received consolations from my friends and teachers. they felt that it is alright to make mistakes. i am not sure. not sure as in to the venue or the event is at all suitable for such a mistake. life still goes on.
i have to thank my friends who stood by me. sandy, who came to approach me first and knocked much sense into me.
amanda, who told me to cry my heart out.
masdiyanah,
sheena,
cheryl,
humaira and
zahi were part of the "amanda's gang". lol.
melissa for the omg, what happened. haha. and
patrine who received my calls and called me back even though my faulty phone hung up on her so many times (sorry!).
i really have to thank all of you for consoling me and listening to my endless rubbish.
AND for those who did not give a hoot, you should know where you stand in my heart now. thanks for letting me realising that you do not care about me and like wise, i will not care about you when the time comes. you do not deserve my attention. i have woken up.
thank you for everything, my true friends!i have to thank my teachers too.
ms soh cheng peng, although she did not say anything about it, but i know she cares a lot about the class, about me.
ms susan soh, she has been motivating me and asking me not to give up and stuff like this.
mr emmanuel teo, who told me that i am brave enough and the audience have not been fair to me.
mdm chan foong keng, who told me not to think too much and everyone makes mistakes.
thank you for everything, teachers!
for those people who jeered at me, although i really wanted all of you to vanish from the world, but i have to thank you. seriously. or rather, i want to thank myself. if i hadn't made the mistake, i would not have broke down. if i did not break down, i would not have realised who really cared about me.
i broke down, is not because of the embarrassment, although i claimed to some people. i broke down is because i do not know how to face those people who have had high expectations of me.
people, get this right and clear, i broke down is not because of those unappreciative people, but friends and close ones who appreciate me.
if you think we, npcc, or rather me alone, did not do well enough, think about it again. do you have the courage to go out and shout or present yourself in front of the whole school? do you have the ability to do better than us? human beings tend to criticise people rather than themselves. often a times, you can only hear people say, it is not my fault. i did not know or i was not informed. can't you ask others? why must others tell you before you ask?
P.S. for those who think you can do better than us or only me alone, i feel so apologetic, because ability and courage is not the key to success. you have to have the opportunity. sorry if you do not have it. you were not even offered to do it, so do you mind keeping quiet and watch the show quietly?
08/08
Saturday, August 11, 2007 @ 12:52:00 AM
national day celebration ps: this is going to be LONG
i woke at 5+ and met aaron and roland to school. all of us changed in the room (with much struggles, of course) and jeremy, roland and i rehearsed the turning and marching parts. roland and i tried shouting and were stopped by mr soh. i have not had enough practice. everything till then
seemed to fall in place, except my sinking collars.
everyone was at their positions and YTWO marched out. i wanted to watch but cannot. all eyes were on them and they were just beside me. they turned to face front and i looked up to ms pay. she nodded and i gave us the command to march out. i was seriously very nervous. i thought the previous muster parade was scary enough. this was worse.
a lot of my friends cheered for me. i felt really honoured but at the same time, i cannot smile. i have to give the "garang" face. i told myself, everyone has high expectations of me and you are watching me. i waited for the teachers to stop introducing and my first command came. there was this particular sec 2 guy (it seemed too polite to use guy, but i decided not to stain my blog) who was so EAGER to listen to my commands. he decided to be PROACTIVE and shouted, cannot hear. thank you for your feedback. but if you could just keep your big fat mouth shut and listen, you could hear it. i controlled myself. this is just one rude audience. i will not let him affect my performance,
although my legs were trembling.everything went on well, except rj scared me by showing me that face of his as if he cannot hear me, which is a little impossible? i tried to shout as loud as possible for jeremy, coz that time the kitchen was rather noisy and he could not hear me. he heard me and they marched out. blah blah. people laughed at gerald. FOR WHAT, i wonder. rude kids? he turned to face me and i reminded myself, he will not salute me. ok. this particular command went out of place when everything was falling into place nicely.
i expected roars of laughters. well, who would not laugh. i am speaking in a totally objective point of view. i would have sniggered at most, but not to the extent of what more than half of the school did. at that point of time, i really do not wish to show any slight change in my expression. in my mind, i was hoping to throw my drill cane on the floor and run as far and as fast as possible from the audience. i knew i could not. i turned and at ease. i sedia the parade, trying to use my best. roland marched in, i saluted him. initially i wanted to give him the disappointed look, but teachers have commented we exchange expressions too much. so i saluted him and marched off. it is his show now.
many thoughts went through my mind while a quarter of my attention was on roland's commands. i cannot afford to make any more mistakes. i thought: all the practices, trainings, rehearsals and the missing of lessons are just for today. it is a show for the school, for the school i was in since sec1, a show for the school to tell others, hey, npcc is not some idiotic cca without any coolness. it is as cool as any cca could be. but this time round, i think i have ended my show, ended my mission with just a syllabus.
from the time henry took roland and i out of the squad to try shouting, to the giving out of area 2's pop parade sequence, to changing it to ytss's ndp sequence, to missing lessons just for trainings and rehearsals, to me being the patriotic npcc cadet who chose to take part in the nation's birthday celebration, to a crazy woman shouting in the parade square. it went with a
poof! after a syllabus.
during this process, i have thought of why i have to take part. is it just for personal glory and honour? is it for the unit? is it for the school? i have missed much lessons and know nuts about almost everything just for a day, or rather a show which ended by a syllabus? is it worth it?
today is the day. i have always intended to impress you. i want to show you, i am not one who is proud, but in your context, arrogant of my rank. btw, i think i earned it, just like yours. please do not tell me your cca gave you sergeant because they like it, but you earned it. i have almost nothing to my name except my achievements in npcc and council. my studies are not good, which is 100% unlike yours. must you be like this? i do not know why. i am greatly affected by that passing remark of yours.
i really wonder what you think of me after the gone-wrong syllabus. what have been going through your mind throughout this 107 days, no one knows except you. you refused to tell anyone what went wrong between us. i will be extremely glad if things were as simple as nothing to talk, but obviously it is not. you would have replied my efforts to pluck the courage to strike up conversations, just for your nod or you asking others to answer my questions? but NO. you did not. this led me to wonder more. and i think this is just coming to an end. you are not going to affect me in a negative manner. yes, i will keep the encouragement message, regardless of you meant it or not.
it is time to march off. i told myself, this is almost the end. just the 36-7 steps and everything is over, if i do not faint. i made it. 36-7 steps was a success for me and roland, i think. we marched out and i walked away with aaron straight after berhenti. i felt nauseous and giddy. he suggested going back to class. i did not want to. i fear the jeerings. i fear the mockings. i fear any comments by my class, my classmates who have been with me for the past 19+ months. i really feared crowds at that point of time. i went reluctantly with aaron and he continued to the fourth floor while i slowly walked out of the stairway.
i reconsidered about joining my class. i turned and looked at them. some saw me but i chose to retreat to the toilet next to the laboratories. i washed my face, telling myself, i cannot break down. i must be normal, or at least try to. i looked at myself in the mirror and told myself, it will be over soon. the way back to integrity block looked short and yet difficult to finish. sandy came to me and asked me if i am alright. all the while my efforts to keep my tears back, failed me. i broke down. i really cannot face anyone after disappointing them.
sandy told me many things. "it was just a minor mistake. who does not make a mistake. everyone in our class is very supportive of you. no one laughed at you. it was the others." she is right. but i am still scared. not coz i have embarrassed myself, but i have disappointed so many people. i tried to stop and i went back with her. amanda and some others approached me and i cried again. i really cannot face crowds, i guess. on the contrary, amanda told me to cry my heart out. hmm. this time round, i cried longer, but still not to the fullest extent. and you still did not care, or rather, did not bother to find out until how leong asked you to console me. you asked him, not getting a reply and you left me there. is this what you mean, fair treatment?
i switched off my tap and started taking photos. my eyes were not that red either. i really wanted to take a photo with you. you told leiwin next time have event then will take. is it that i did not ask? i regret so. it was finale soon and i wanted to take with you after it. you, went home almost immediately. i wonder where, home to study? i really cannot understand you. you are really incomprehensible. you made me regret so many things and at the same time, hate myself so.
06/08-10/08
Friday, August 10, 2007 @ 9:34:00 PM
mon: happy birthday to jiajun! haha. he was saying that we might need to find a replacement for his flag party commander's post in case he dies from birthday bash. well.
i went home coz i was not feeling well. it was yiling (caught having sore eyes) then chuan jing (same: sore eyes). i was having severe flu, severe cough and fever in the morning, but by the time i went home, my fever subsided. i still went home. i missed two amaths lessons.
i went to buy sushi (lol), foodcourt to buy porridge and ntuc to buy lemons. patrine advised me to make honey with lemon to drink coz it can cure sore throat. i went home, ate lunch and medicine and fell asleep on the sofa when the medicine took effect. i woke up and start doing my homework. one seq. i may be ready to return to school the next day. a few of my friends advised me not to. coz if my sore throat or my illness or both persist, P2IC is inaudible or even invisible then. depends how i feel the next day.
tues: happy birthday to gerard! i still went back to school. i felt alright, except the severe flu and the severe cough (i joked it would be final stage of cancer except the blood part). i was not excused for the ndp training, but i wonder, what for. i have no one to train. lessons as per normal.
wed: national day celebration. i will elaborate that in the next post.
thurs: happy birthday to zixin and jiahui! national day. i woke up seeing 2 smses. woah. haha. peixin asked me what homework and HAPPY NATIONAL DAY! do not know why she so high for. haha. not as if my or her birthday. HAHA. another one from dharman. woke up late. then watched tv.
i then passed dina her homework and chit-chatted. i went to buy carrots after that. my mum asked me to buy oyster sauce. like she must ask me to buy at separate times. i bought gua zi, ice-cream soda and rambutans as well. tv tv tv. haha. i opened my amaths book at night, and realises i know almost nuts so i asked peixin out to study. haha.
fri: happy birthday to hui min! i woke up seeing 5 smses. woah. does the world miss me so much (bursting with laughters(bwl))? 2 from leng chee, which turned out to be wrong recipient and a sms to say, sorry wrong person. well, not the first time. wonder who is she smsing. haha. 1 from peixin, asking what time and where. 1 from kianru, inviting me to a jog/run at yishun park and 1 from dharman. i sort of ignored them initially. then phone went low battery. i managed to charge for about less than half an hour then went for brunch.
i managed to reply peixin coz hers seemed more important as i asked her out to study ma. leng chee's no need. haha. i have to reject kianru coz i do not think i can make it. i have not replied dharman then phone went dead.
we (peixin and i) then talked about many things, more of
us. the mimosa joke. haha. i think i am really funny at times. i shall post the picture and the joke, since peixin posted me, with my significant pose.
me: peixin, i have a very funny joke to tell you.
px: what if it is not funny?
me: it is definitely funny. at least you will give me those =.= look.
px: "looking rather excited"
me: "points to the security alarm thing, which writes, MIMOSA" look there. mimosa leh. i go and touch then it will shrink, you know.
px: "burst into fits of laughters and start hitting me"
i tried to add on: i go and touch, then it will shrink right? the sound it produces will also be softer. i go and touch then you go and steal. very soft then police cannot hear.
by this point of time, she gave me the =.= look.
all our jokes and everything at the cc. you can find the earlier part with yiling at her blog. find her link then check it out, if you want to.
after that, we went to vernicia's house to get her amaths tys coz peixin remembered she brought it home but cannot seemed to find it. ya. we then went in coz peixin said she wants to drink water. wah. green tea leh. haha. one of my fav, but kianru seemed to hate the smell. we then continued to wreck her house. while peixin and vernicia talked, i began to trace the pattern on her iron gate and later do switch-hand spin using her umbrella. FUNs.
went home from peixin's house. saw poheng with her friends. she twisted her ankle and she told me there is school today. hmm. i also do not know. haha. be more careful next time! take care la.
04/08
Monday, August 6, 2007 @ 10:47:00 PM
sat: last day of ndp rehearsals. met aaron and jeremy. blah blah. rehearsals delayed again. i shouted rather well for today and never zou yin. cheers! performance was nice but some a bit weird and random. haha.
took my first class drill badge test. the criteria is funny. ndp sequence and commands and npcc pledge. five of us passed it, like duh. we do not have marks, but they looked through it, and said we have the standard actually or something.
we went off the jelutung for practices. four of us, except roland, sat in mr soh's car middle portion. danial and ziyuan were sitting at the back. packed like sardines. danial and ziyuan were squashed with our bags. haha. the pole is long, the flag is big. what i am scared is that, i raise the flag too fast or too slow. and my slow march is like shit. we went off for lunch at only around 3+ almost died from hunger and everyone, except me and youwei, was having bad mood.
sun: woke at 6 when i am meeting aaron and jeremy at 625. i cheong into the toilet and got everything ready and half ran to the mrt station. i only ran when there is no one near me. i missed the train by a little then i waited for the next one. the next one arrived at 625. i met jeremy at the mrt station again. we always seemed to take the same train. we met aaron at 630. we half ran to school, changed and practised a few more times.
parade went on. i could not find the other line and i panicked. lucky youwei was there. phew. i also almost tucked at the wrong one, meaning i will lower the flag instead. heng it was only almost. other than that, it was alright.
went to makan at kfc. i studied amaths with aaron for 1.5 hours then we left. we saw evelyn, geena and weiru. they used those suspicious expressions at us. there is really nothing between us, and? haha. i went home and sleep then did some homework.
01/08- 04/08
Saturday, August 4, 2007 @ 10:25:00 PM
wednesday: reported to school at 730 for the physics thing. had physics test.
thursday: pe was very fun, playing captain's ball. all the jokes and funny happenings.
friday: had mock practical. i recorded one part wrongly. "upon heating, dark blue precipitate turned to become black precipitate with colourless liquid suspended" there can only be one precipitation.
hope it did not hurt you that much. i wished i had known earlier.
sat: 2nd last full dress rehearsal. i woke up at 610. cheonged out of the house. met jeremy and aaron and went to school together. rehearsal delayed by some other nonsense again. i had borrowed number 1 shirt from rachel and it definitely fits me better than the size 6, although the collar is a little loose (but still tighter than the size 6's). we kept adjusting our badges. take out this, put on that. troublesome.
i shouted quite proper today. i did not have any cock-ups today, (maybe because your absense that has caused me invisible stress) ? cheers.
i really hope.
