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PANG ZHUANG YI
true enough. well, if i am not talking when you see me, it can only mean two things; either i am overwhelmed by someone or i am E M O ing.
temper is on the SUPERB extreme. try me if you do not believe in that.
if a cluttered desk is a sign of a cluttered mind, of what, then is an empty desk?
no wonder my desk is always flooded. =D
speeches?
Wednesday, July 25, 2007 @ 10:20:00 PM
i chanced upon this when i was reading ansar's blog. it is quite cool, so i decided to do it too.
list down 6 things you want to say to 6 different people, don't reveal who they are.A.
i guess you do not read blogs, but i am still telling you this via here. i guess you are one of the few who manage to change my emotions at will. you can give me peace, satisfaction, anger, desperation, heart wreck and everything. i cannot say i hate you, i cannot say i love you. you do not talk to me nowadays, for god-and-you-know reasons why. you claimed you do not know. there is no way i can force you to talk to me, when you said you have got nothing to talk to me. not even the most random topic, i wonder? not even asking me what homework (but usually i ask you) or how is my art or even asking me to help you to do things? we are in the same combination, not as if i am in dnt, you art. i am in history, you geog. i am in malay, you chinese. i am in poa, you amaths. from what i heard from her, you said i am avoiding or rather ignoring you, but that is not the truth. i am afraid of your reaction when i look or smile at you. it is saddening and extremely hurting to see you diao me or look away immediately. i fear thus i avoid. i do not want us to be like that forever. i fear that we might still be like that on graduation day or feb 2008. i hate this. 2 aug is the 100th day from the day you sent that message.
B.
i have known you since sec1. all this while you have been selfish and giving off the message of "i am unfriendly. do not come near me". all this while, i could not forget you even if i am in 2e6. this is not easy. all this came back in sec3 again. everything including the negative things also came back. i thought you have changed, but i heard from her, you have not. i do not know how to say and what to say. i am speechless. you have been winning honours that i feel i should be the one receiving them. i told myself you deserved all that. but i have been learning a lot from you. sometimes i am really caught between you and others. i know you are caught between us and them. have they been expecting too much from us or are we not up to standard? i am wondering if there will be anything more between us.
C.
oh! you are such a great "friend", i suppose? you have been a great help to me. i really felt like crying whenever you praised me and you would deny you are praising me and that i was a natural shine. omg. i felt really praised to the skies. you have been offering me help since i was sec 2. our interaction has been more than what it should be. both you and her are concerned about me, but both shows in different ways. maybe i would prefer yours more as you seemed more approachable. i will not forget everything, the great moments we have spent and definitely, all the support you have given me. thanks a lot. i will consider the treat you have promised me. (=
D.
you have been such a great person to stand by me for this tough period of time. amaths is always fun with you. i know you are also in some kind of conflict, but you also shared your dear attention with me. i am really touched although i did not voice out. i do not really know how to express myself. all the rest might think i am often in the 'emo' mood, but i am thinking of great, important things, missions if you like. haha. i do not think there is someone who understands me to, like maybe, 80%? you are one of the few who can understand to the limit of A1 or A2 standard. lol. if there was such a subject, "do you think you understand pang? (dytyup subject code: 7264/03)" ugly name i know. haha. another thing is, our class is getting weirder and weirder each second passes. i am really glad you are near me, with me, although sometimes far, of course. you and your harry potter-ing. haha. jiayou. thank you for having so much trust in me. i would cry for one whole day, just thinking of the great things you have said to me and the times you stood by me, listening to my crap. not counting in the memorable times together. you always
entertain me in amaths and vice versa. you never fail to spite me. never. despite that, you are still my great friend!
E.
you ar. everyday with your friend in the same career. irritating. my A1 for my malay oral- "aku rasa cini cakap pasal, er, pasar malam. ya. aku nampak lelaki itu makan nasi ayam. aku rasa hadapan dia, abang dia. aku, er, tunggu.
HAHA. so fun! you have been my teacher and i have learnt a lot from you. we have been quite close since do not know when and how. haha. you ar. everytime spend so much. have you like, returned your sister the money? trying to court death? spend lesser, would you? it is scary to see someone's bank account dwindling (for yours, ALREADY dwindleD). one day see your wallet have $40-odd then two days later, $5. DAMN IT SCARY. save up. i open one bank account for you. only i have the password (rofl!). you are a good listener, i am too! although i emo
very often. i promise to return to my cheerful or rather a more suitable word, nonsensical dumb idiot, after my crisis.
F.
my best friend in lessons! all the funny happenings in art. haha. i will never forget. ESP that day when you talked on the phone, trying to prevent a fight. the unglamourous me and yiling. that day is simply cool. the dinners we had together, targeting at almost the same people everyday. the thing is, there will be different people and different things about them everyday. it has been a really fun experience with you. all your funny actions and expressions are no less than mine! you may look quiet, but after really knowing you for 4 (actually 3) years, nah. quiet is not the word to describe you. i remember sitting beside you for chinese in sec1 for a short period of time. we shall continue to be best friends alright? rock on!