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PANG ZHUANG YI
true enough. well, if i am not talking when you see me, it can only mean two things; either i am overwhelmed by someone or i am E M O ing.
temper is on the SUPERB extreme. try me if you do not believe in that.
if a cluttered desk is a sign of a cluttered mind, of what, then is an empty desk?
no wonder my desk is always flooded. =D
december.
Saturday, January 3, 2009 @ 1:15:00 AM
i am posting about december now.
actual course started and everything comes in. not only worries about squad charlie, but also worries about the planning for NCOC and worries for units' stuff. and the cui me is getting more and more cui, mentally and mentally?
not really the mental strain by the course (i am not that cui yet), but also a lot of crap which distracts my brain. sometimes i really hope that my brain could malfunction regarding those matters. just for some moments of peace.
stomach flu in the midst of RC two. and i guess it is really contagious. after i came back, i realized quite many people contracted it. there were three which i know of, just from squad charlie. such a horrendous illness which created quite a bit of unhappiness.
i did not have much time to rest but to push on for the next lap of the course: ATC. as it comes nearer, my worry for the supplementary paper becomes more eminent. x= i brought notes but i also doubt i will really sit down and study coz there is no time and how can you when all others are so busy?
i reached home SLIGHTLY earlier than RC for ATC and the next day waking up to prepare lots of things. either my estimation of time is bad or i am just slow. i will take both. -,- i did not sleep the night before IC and i was aux-ed down for the reassessment for drills soft skills. i almost fell flat sleeping while standing and assessing. x=
i got really angry with the charlians when they told me about those matters and when they thought i was joking with them. sometimes it is extremely bad that you are slightly laxer with your squad. what else can you forget on top of your collar lapels and white tee shirts?
you enter the harmony hall as a trainee, you come out as a CI.
once you enter the harmony hall, there is no return.
no more mistakes can be afforded.
to all the d08 charlians who may or may not see this post:
these twenty days could be long and tiring for some while short and maybe a breeze to the rest. you may feel like giving up in the midst, i am glad that all of you did not. some admitted that you have doubted your purpose of joining the course, and now, i hope that you have found your purpose.
all of you came to the course as an individual, learning from the Instructors. in the process of this, many of you have bonded, nevermind the time taken, and proven to us that all of you are no longer the same individuals that we have seen. we see ONE squad charlie.
results for the assessments are disappointing, at times some of your actions are even more, but there are also moments which we were glad to see all 26 of you grow individually and as a squad. the 26 of you form a squad, physically, and hopefully mentally.
it is always a challenge for everyone to maintain the standards after returning to each of your respective units when there are no Instructors to keep an eye on you anymore, and that is also why we kept mentioning about expectations and not betraying your standards. there is no telling of the future after we parted our ways, the future is in your hands, so are the futures of your cadets.
to my squad charlie:
there are too many things we can have in mind for one and other, but too little time to put them into words.
do not keep praises of others for yourself as you do not know when will the others need it to push on in life.
do not fear telling people what are their mistakes as you do not know how much will the mistakes cause them to lose.
do not doubt your abilities and thereby hesistate to do things as someone might be waiting for you to take actions.
always remember:
do not betray your standards;
rowdiness does not show the bond.
only when you expect, you see the improvements.