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Thursday, July 16, 2009,12:00:00 AM

13/07: typical monday blues.

similar daily problems and troubles.
life is so mundane and exhausting.
someone, spice it up for me. -,-

14/07: i got out from the wrong side of the door.

i was still okay when i woke up in the morning and when i was still at home. but somehow when i left home, i turned emo. -,- only two things can make it happen. firstly is you and secondly is that. XD. all the bad memories came flowing back to me in the morning. i totally displayed my black face during PE and returned to normal after perspiring all the frustrations. my FFF got up from the wrong side of the bed and we dao-ed together.

i was super tired and stoned during the last part of math lesson. x= integration is something which i am really lousy at. x= i have yet to finish half the tutorial! x=

my chemistry tutor said he has uploaded the chemistry result and obviously when everyone went online during his lesson to check, he so did not! such a liar. and he better upload it before i get my econ results. if not i will definitely confront him. super irritated.

15/07:

i just went to read the entries in july 2008. woah. to think that i emo-ed on the same two days- 13th and 14th. LOL. interesting. i shall wait for 14/07/10 to come and compare the trend. x= to add on, chemistry result is still not out. what does lsk want?

performance is on friday. yet we are still not performing. much unhappiness within the group, much unhappiness within everyone, much unhappiness with me.

you won me by so much in the shut up game. GREAT.

cuba project is not finished. -,-
i shall attempt to wake up at 5 to finish it.

17/07: CCSP at Victoria Theatre.
25/07: .38 revolver shooting prelim!
26/07: OCIP LCIP.
07/08: NDP/ college day celebration.
13 weeks more to promo.

reminders!
> 09/08/09: TWO intensive months.
> 21/10/09: FREE FROM PAPERS!

movies (so near yet so far):
transformers: revenge of the fallen.
~~ice age 3: dawn of the dinosaurs.~~
i do not mind going for another round! (=
harry potter and the half blood prince.

off to lalaland for more adventures now.
hope to see you there? i doubt so.

Monday, July 13, 2009,2:45:00 AM

08/07: CCS practice.

the chairman of something of victoria theatre came at 6 to see our performance and gave comments. i do not think anyone copied them down? lol. as if all of us can remember. -,-

09/07: long lessons with great breaks.

thursdays are what i look forward to, yet am tired of. straight 2.5 hours of break but 3 hours of math. not forgetting that today mrs kwang informed the whole college that lessons will start at 0820 instead of 0850. so i had 3.5 hours of math. -,- i really think that it is her ploy to get the principal to approve this impromtu plan of hers.

she realized her dreams like what i have been saying. she has a math lesson seating plan now. did i forget to mention that we have a seating plan for all lessons? and chemistry lectures? this is so sickening. the four of us are separated. -,-

except econ lectures though. but ms aminah said she might be going to make one soon. according to our block test results. the lower your marks are, the more behind you will sit. for those who do not understand, she targets the last row.

i got my phone back, shopped and went for dinner with jiakhee before she flies the next day to bangkok for three days. oh yeah, i forgot to mention that after everything, i got 35 for VC 1 and do not have to take test three. she foiled my plan to ace VC 1. XD.

10/07: TGIF! with no plans. x=

super irritated with that mr chng. i seriously took offence with what he said about me. and he was lucky that i was not in a bad mood beforehand, thus i did not shoot him. after that, i was superbly angry. he was rude to a lot of us btw.

11/07: CCS practice from 0930 - 1230.

same routine: temperature taking, dilly dally, moved the props, a briefing and off we went. we started with two rounds of rehearsals, acting other people's roles. i acted as Boy A for the first and Robber A for the second. for the actual round, i stood in as Boy A.

the rehearsal was through without me in my role.
or even the existence of my role in the rehearsal.

after that was lunch at the food mall and mugging (differentiation) at long john silver's with vennecia and friends.

12/07: 13 hours again! =D

i slept from 1am till 2pm. i woke up and finished differentiation tutorial. blah blah blah.

thanks for singing that in my ears.
i tried and cannot forget the tune.

i just finished the cuba project.
it was slipshod but who cares. -,-

17/07: CCSP at Victoria Theatre.
25/07: .38 revolver shooting prelim!
26/07: OCIP LCIP.
07/08: NDP/ college day celebration.
13 weeks more to promo.

movies (so near yet so far):
transformers: revenge of the fallen.
ice age 3: dawn of the dinosaurs.
harry potter and the half blood prince.

off to lalaland now. hope to see you there.

Tuesday, July 7, 2009,7:20:00 PM

06/07: CCS practice from 1000 to 1300.

after the practice, i went to junction eight to send my g900 for repairs. the screen blanked out on me, keep switching on and off. x= it was 1080++ when i pressed for my number- 1114. i walked in junction eight for an hour, another 15 minutes in the shop before my turn. -,-

i saw some items of my list there. (=
umbro jacket.
reebok shoes.
umbro trackpants.
a possible new balance backpack.

not very prepared to receive block test results! x=

07/07: "first" day of term 3!

i woke up at 0645 diligently and WENT BACK TO SLEEP. -,- i was almost late and i did not have the luxury to tie my hair properly! it was then messed up during PE.

2 rounds on the track,
2 rounds of quadrangle (for me and sang only?),
2 rounds of carpark,
10 crunches,
10 lunges,
10 push-ups,
10 crunches.
i was not very faithful to cool-down and it hurts after math.

why must this happen to me? if it was some others, they would have just lived with it, lived HAPPILY with it. but since the result would be the same, i think i might as well study everything again and take the third test. at least it would be then a fairER judgement to my ability rather than a rushed night chionging everything. IT IS THE KET CONCEPTS THAT MATTERS.

08/07 : CCS practice.
08/07: photo taking sessions.
09/07 : CCS performance to JC1s.
this is SO cancelled as well. x=
16/07: VC 1 test three. (=
i believe in true ability than hasty work.
i believe in key concepts than mere luck.
17/07: CCSP at Victoria Theatre.
25/07: .38 revolver shooting prelim!
26/07: OCIP LCIP.
07/08: NDP/ college day celebration.

movies:
transformers: revenge of the fallen.
ice age 3: dawn of the dinosaurs.
harry potter and the half blood prince.
ghosts of girlfriends past.

reminders!
> 09/08/09: TWO intensive months.
> 21/10/09: FREE FROM PAPERS!

anyway. i am going to sleep now. =D

Monday, July 6, 2009,12:00:00 AM

03/07: rotting at home! =D

i have clocked another 17 hours in lalaland. XD. this is a required process to fix the sleep disorders. normal starvation would have already solved the diet disorders whereby emotion disorders have yet to be rectified. x=

04/07: carnival + NDP CR 3. (:

i went to my cousins' carnival alone. -,- west spring sec. i was quite shocked to see a couple of my friend and juniors there. razak, christina and friend, ting qing and li na. but i only exchanged a few sentences with them before walking around in the campus with my cousin.

after that, i met up with xiao-xing at suntec to see a gaming exhibition and saw ye qin. there were a lot of cosplay-ers. most of them are not familiar except bison and mario. we then went for a late lunch at 3 plus.

NDP combined rehearsal three. we got our tickets through jeremy and i enjoyed the performances. not that parade was not good, BUT THEN.

i saw kui ching at the holding area. i forgot what colour he wore, so i do not know what force is he from. but still cool. i heard from jeremy that the fireworks were only 25% yesterday but still quite a considerable amount.

after that it was late dinner for us. nothing much, just trainers left with HTA bus and FI stanford suddenly appeared. i went for dinner with xiao-xing, allison, jeremy, FI stanford, mark and julia. anyway, super seven incher is less than a five incher. -,-

i holland a bit to marine parade then home.

why do i give you 100% trust?
because i think i should,
that is why i must.

05/07: rotting.

i clocked 12 hours, but not 17.

CCS practice tml from 1000 to 1230. on youth day. snorts. 4 days of holiday shortened to 2. coz one was used to repair the sleep disorders and another for CCA and mug. IF possible.

i still care about you,
because i still love you.

Thursday, July 2, 2009,6:00:00 PM

27/06: start of system disorder.

i was going to sleep late tonight. nope, i mean i was waiting for my supper, then was not going to sleep so early. there is a BIT of difference there. hmm.

i went to lie down on my bed for a while (planned for a 15-minute power nap) but in the end i slept till 0630. i was almost late for CIP but anyway, a lot of people were late.

i did duty with a girl whose name i do not know how to spell. she is from SG23, KCPS and wu shu. hmm. we talked about a lot of things, like cars, academics, wu shu and others. =D

i did not manage to see PM Lee while WXY saw.

i went home, packed and slept at 1355. at 1405, something interesting happened. . .

i received 4 persistent calls from my FFF. -,- i muted two, i rejected one, sent a sms and finally picked up to ask what does she want. the conversation went like this:

me: what is it?
FFF: what are you doing? why are you sleeping? wake up now! study!
me: i just slept. only for five minutes then you called.
FFF: no, cannot sleep. it is only a few more hours. you will thank me in the future. hurry up, wake up to study. do not sleep!
me: just let me sleep la. i am very tired. i never sleep yesterday.
FFF: okay okay. i let you sleep for a while. how long do you intend to sleep until?
me: at least 2 hours.
FFF: huh! why so long. one hour not enough meh?
me: cannot. i will still be very tired. 2 hours.
FFF: okay lor, 2 hours ar. then why not 3 hours? hahaha.
me: 3 hours also cannot. i will be very tired. i need to sleep at least 2 or 7 hours. not more or less than that.
FFF: aiyo. you very weird leh. okay okay. 2 hours ar. i will call you later hor. from just now, you slept for half an hour liao. i give you another 1.5 hours to sleep. later i will call you.

which the phone call took about 10-15 minutes of my sleeping time? hahaha. but in the end, i slept till 5 and studied till the next morning.

28/06: four more to go!

last day to mug before everything starts. x=

it WAS always more optimistic to say how many to go, rather than how many down. but now, times have changed! it has no impact when you say, 3 more to go, coz you know that you have only 4 subjects. hahaha!

29/06: economics!

elasticity and costs essays and
demand and supply case study.

i went home after papers and lunch at subway with FFF and SFF (the abbreviation is really awful). i slept from 2pm to 7am! hahaha. a total of 17 hours. well done!

last three papers!

30/06: no paper today!

i woke up at 7am and only officially started work at 3pm. -,- i have been on the phone, on the net and on the verge of watching tv. x=

i only touched chemistry for a while and then vectors. gosh. it is really very bad not to be doing work and realizing you are lost in the world of numbers (and directions).

last three papers!

01/07: chemistry!

my favourite sia! i got the most distinct answer wrong. -,- not that the question is really easy. after my o levels SPA, people will ask around what is the metal and what gas was evolved. so this time round, people asked, what is the element? it was La and i got Ga. after staring at the periodic table, i found out that my calculated number of moles is half of the answer. x=

mole concepts.
oh yeah, i was telling FFF that we should leave one month per subject for promotional examinations. and we are ALREADY 0.5 month late!

3.5 months to promotional examinations!

last two papers!

02/07: math and history!

math was okay, not too bad as i had imagined, but the result is going to be definitely worse than my imagination. x= about 4 to 5 questions out of 10 from the question bank ($$). hahaha.

history was the worst of all subjects, as expected. i was not prepared plus my foundation is weak (now i doubt if i have any in the first place). i am really going to chiong for history. i think i will reduce the subject duration to 0.5 month and the rest for history. =D

i wonder if this will work. -,-

TWO excited announcements:
BLOCK TEST 2009 IS OVER.
NEXT UP: NATIONAL DAY.

03/07: rot at home. maybe i can study.
strike when the iron is still hot.
04/07: out with xiao-xing! (:
05/07: to be planned.
06/07: CCS practice.
07/07: TERM 3 STARTS.

movies:
transformers: revenge of the fallen.
ice age 3: dawn of the dinosaurs.
ghosts of girlfriends past.
harry potter and the half blood prince.

~~29/06 - 02/07: block test.~~
03/07 : jogathon (my card is empty!)
HAHAHA. IT IS CANCELLED!
04/07 - 05/07: CCS camp
this is cancelled as well. x=
06/07 : youth day holiday in lieu!
this will never, ever be cancelled!
if not i will self declare it as holiday.

but then ar, extra practice on 06/07.
08/07 : CCS practice.
09/07 : CCS performance to JC1s.
17/07: CCSP at Victoria Theatre.
25/07: .38 revolver shooting prelim!
26/07: OCIP LCIP.
07/08: NDP/ college day celebration.

> 09/08/09: TWO intensive months.
> 21/10/09: FREE FROM PAPERS!

anyway. i am going to sleep now. =D
the system will be repaired by tml.

no more diet disorders.
no more sleep disorders.
no more emotion disorders. =D

Saturday, June 27, 2009,1:00:00 AM

"if you want a living dead me,
i can grant your wish.

if you want me to have EQ zero,
i can grant it as well.

but then you never cared."

EQ zero. how low has my EQ got? i have many great friends now. people like queen b (who just talked to me yesterday), xiao hong, yin mei, ALL, wen yan, the rich one and others. living dead? EQ zero? somehow these adjectives are not for me. i have totally failed and also became louder this year. not in the sense of shouting, but literally as a person.

many know me as the parade commander, some others their UG, choir or CCS friend, nearly a hundred as their YTSS schoolmate and another hundred as their classmate. the special three know me as na dui. maybe i have been that outstanding as a passer-by A in their lives, coz i am one of the loudest?

all these do not show that i am a living dead or possess zero EQ. i have already said, those traits are in me, flowing in my blood. try draining me of my blood, and probably you can get rid of those exclusive characteristics. by then, the zhuang yi everyone knows will really be non-existent.

it is very miserable, trying to do everything that is not me. it has been such a long time, will i forgot that is the real me, who zhuang yi used to be and how was i like in the past. maybe a pathetic person who does nothing but waste time.

as least you still have the ability to remove the mask. i no longer see or even feel the difference between the mask and myself.

Friday, June 26, 2009,11:30:00 PM

hello people. here i am again, although i said that the next update was supposed to be after my block test. x=

what for putting in the emotions when nothing will be rewarded for the efforts? such insignificant and dumb inputs. oh well, that is you. what else to expect?

preparation for block test is still hopeless, nonetheless, i am putting in efforts to carry on with salvations. ): after hearing what queen b said about giving her mum a reason to get her her dream HTC, then i thought it is a forget-it case for me. -,-

my G705! ):

there is nothing great being faster or better, coz you had the headstart! you ought to be different from them, be outstanding from them. can you allow yourself to be slower or worse?

19/06: qi long's birthday bbq!

i went there with cheryl. i really have to thank her for that. we walked from carpark B to carpark i-do-not-know-what. it was the other end of ECP. -,- one hour walk from BBQ pit 20+ to BBQ pit 57.

we even thought that he pranked on us. lol. coz we saw some carpark with pit 56, without showing indication of pit 57.

20/06: father's day celebration at grandparents' house.

i bet i gained a few pounds. x=

21/06: zero concentration. -,-

li bu cong xin. -,-

22/06: chemistry.

23/06: math and chemistry.

i finished chemistry till IMF. last chapter for another day, before i started for math. it was such a torture attempting the questions, when i know nuts about it. i am going to put in another or two days for it, before i could even pass. what about my minimum C? x= this sucks.

24/06: zero [] and BBQ with them.

i do not even call it a class outing, coz the attendance is just 14 out of 26. slightly more than half. -,- abigial did not notice that we bought the cake for her birthday, but she knows it was for her (coz we already bought a vegetarian cake which she does not eat).

we met up with the PHD in tokcockcology and had great times. =D though we are in different course of life now, but then we are aiming for the same place!

plus i came up with a few abbreviations. =D

25/06: zero concentration. -,-

zhe shi ji shi kai shi de? wo de lian pi wei shen me guo le na me jiu hai shi shi ying bu liao yi qie ne? ta hai bian de geng jing bu qi xiao hua he pi ping. x=

26/06: i slept and overslept till 1250.

i managed to finish demand and supply. i am going for elasticity and costs tml! i believe i can do it. i have better concentration today than yesterday, so if i just maintain it, no problem! (=

it seems like what fang yu taught me is going to be useless for block test, but definitely not useless for promotion or A levels. my eventual aim is A level and not some block test.

27/06: rotting at home for econ!

i am not attending the meeting.
i am not going for 76th IC duty.
i am going to stay home for econ!

28/06: wellness ambassadors CIP.

i will be taking the 7am bus there for some sports thing, exact details unknown. -,- i only heard from xiao hong that it consists of a netball competition.

i will be mugging math on sunday.
wish me luck and zero distractions.