02/11: happy birthday to wen yan.

i went to college at 1 pm for the presentation of the cuba project after the JC 1's mother tongue papers. i got a subway cookie treat from hong yu! hahaha. random. after that, i went home to rot, i think? hahaha.

03/11: happy birthday to clarice and lucas.

i had lunch with tracy and buddy at 18 chefs. whole SG 12 was celebrating clarice's birthday there too. after which, i returned to college to get my spectacles from hong yu. she then editted her speech in the computer room while i was playing sudoku. hahaha.


04/11: happy birthday to carla.
04/11 - 06/11: DVD and drama day. ):

25/10: family-ful day!

lunch at paternal side,
dinner at maternal side.


26/10: boring lessons. -,-

after those sickening lessons, i went to find hong yu. nothing much. we went to northpoint and i stared at her eating her snackers meal from KFC after buying my DS charger.


27/10: chemistry and PE.

chemistry was a waste of my time plus i wasted being angry with THAT idiot. seriously, why does he exist? -,- to make me angry? hahaha. that is the only reason for his existence i guess.

i think i am such a lousy floorball player and everyone in my team will be angry with me sia! hahaha. i shall not describe how lousy i am. x= oh yeah. hong yu was happily sitting near us, without fear of the ball hitting her, since she is entertained by my DS. hahaha.

tracy, hong yu and i then did stupid things. or rather, tracy started it and expected both of us to follow. hahaha. hong yu and i got into the mood and started to play finger game down the column of tables. =D

late lunch with shawn and them. super hungry that i went hysterical and joked that hong yu is cooking for me through cooking mama and plus my constant chanting of "terrific! even better than mama!". =D


28/10: neutralized day.

lift spoilt and i had to go to the other end of the building to take the other lift to travel down. x= in the end, i was late for math for 45 mintues. hahaha. i forgot that we are watching this show called numb3rs by AXN. coz i was late, i gave that person a chance to scold me and give me faces for not attending her lesson. -,-

jogathon duty was okay. i was stationed at the last with clarice, jane, joshua and stephanie. oh oh oh, not forgetting christopher's often appearance by our station. hahaha! in the end, he still maanged to harass our people. ):

dinner with jun yang and hong yu at the longhouse. chicken and rice plus drinks. she is of course still hooked on my DS. hahaha! while i was still finishing the food, she started playing liaosxx.


29/10: long long long day. XD.

after 2 hours of econ doing newspaper articles after the goddess left, absissa and i journeyed out of college to have our brunch. =D we met suria, nasyir and their friend on our way out. the new security guard stopped us saying that JC 1s cannot leave college. nasyir said we were year 2 but still she has to see our passes. all five of us took out our ez link cards and IC indicating that we are born in 1991. hahaha! and we managed to leave. =D

brunch at LJS. we tried their breakfast meals. not bad but just a bit very oily. x=

haeundai (hai3 yun2 tai2 in chinese) at ang mo kio hub. haeundae. the name was so 'mysterious' that i did not know what she was talking about. like is there such a car show like 'hyundai'. the pronounciation is so similar that she argued with me about it! not that i want to say this, but i have to say this. =D marvin and lay woon agreed with me that the name reminded that of only hyundai and not the show.

we were still contemplating for jennifer's body after haeundai to relieve her whatever for her july 14th's ice age 3 trauma. hahaha! but in the end, we walked around in ang mo kio central, saw chen han wei shooting some show and suki sushi for tea time. =D and we also lied to hong yu that we watched both haeundai and jennifer's body. =D




first shot of how much we ate.




second shot coz tracy said the first does not really exhibit the large amount that we ate. hahaha!



tracy emitting light sia!




a normal shot after i turned her 'light' off. hahaha.


30/10: i skipped school. =D second time in year 2009.

that is because the activities are too nonsensical and totally not worth my attendance! like PE and helping the teacher with the biodiesel project. i am so regretful to say that those days of me being helpful are already over! like four years of council is not enough. definitely not enough to get the appreciation of the school. just some lousy certificate and a SHORT write up on my SGC, forget it.


i met hong yu for lunch and she defined what is zha (fried in chinese) de, zha zha de and not zha de. like LJS is zha zha, KFC is zha and mac is not much of zha de. HAHAHA.

we went to walk walk in popular, looking at story books, recipe books, foolscap, notepads, almost toys and sweets. we then saw qiqi, theodora and two more of tracy's friends. home sweet home for us after that.

movie poker king at ang mo kio hub. =D


31/10: happy birthday to mum!

promotion tests in the morning and i think i do not feel like talking about it? x= lunch was carl's junior. i finished jasmine's burger and slightly more than half of mine coz we ate each other's burger without realizing it. x= not much of an issue on my side, but on her side. x=

i went home, saw that everyone was sleeping when the designated time to leave home was 1600 when i reached home at 1545. -,- well. i watched tv till 1645 then went to sleep. super tired coz i woke up very early at 6am!


dinner was GREAT food. =D and i feel so fat after eating so much for the day. carl's junior lunch and such a spread for dinner. x=




before the meal starts and all of us were hungry, bored, cold and restless.




sneak shot from my sister while i was watching the tv. once again, food was yet to be served. i was hungry, bored, cold, restless and also waiting for replies. x=



some pork thing.





steamed fish with not-so-spicy chilli.





lemon chicken with cereal.





tofu with some sauce.





vege with not-so-spicy sambal.





fried something with lots of ingredients inside.




last but not least, the crab with butter, cereals and some other mysterious sauce.


01/11: nua nua nua day.

i woke up at 10, 11, 1, 2, 215 and 3 finally. hahaha. typical sunday for me. home cooked lunch and dinner! lunch was hokkien mee and dinner was rice with chicken drumstick, vegetables and tofu soup. not forgetting desserts which is chocolate chip ice cream on cone! =D


i knew that i can never fulfil what i said to jasmine yesterday. starve for three days and three nights for the amount of food i ate yesterday, but maybe i can just start with lesser amount of food that i take in. XD.





ta men shuo, yi ri bu jian, ru ge san qiu.
i cannot imagine the dec holidays! ):

11/10: final preparation for PAPERS.

12/10: ECON.

13/10: preparation for CA 2. i must get A. x=

14/10: MATH.

15/10: duty.

i received a text in the morning saying that my 7th LP cannot come for my party. totally lost the mood to study. ):

got in the mood again then left for lunch.

chit chatted, napped and back to study.

jing called and we talked for very long.

i went to meet pei xin and buddy at northpoint to get my birthday presents! =D monkey "wallet" and "pouch".

on the phone with my 7th LP for 30 minutes, went back and did not study anymore coz i lost the momentum le.


16/10: CHEMISTRY.

lunch at 18 chefs with sally and shawn while spark went home. we added two sets of ingredients to our meals and we were so full. upon saying that she was full, sally offered to finish my ice-cream for me. hahaha. but she added she will have have chocolate ice-cream. hahaha.

cleaned up my house when i reached home. =D
dirty house, dirty table, dirty mind. q=


17/10 - 19/10: slack slack slack. XD.


19/10: happy birthday to pei xin! =D she commented me for my creativity of the birthday sms to her. hahaha. of course!

revision for my history and the big deal with my 7th LP. (:


20/10: final salvation for history and THE paper!

it was horrible as i forgot all my points for CMC. but i think i did fairly well for my collapse of communism question. hopefully i cat get at least a 5 for question one and a 20 for question two to garner a pass. x=


21/10: party. =D

from 1145 to 1645, i have been waiting. knowing that it could be fruitless, but still i cannot dismiss the possibility. x=

pleasant surprises at 1930 when they turned up! (:

now i wonder if i had wanted,
what would have happened. (:


22/10: house activity! go-kart and reggae dance.

dumb indemnity form not signed by my parents. seriously, they could cope with more and better planning right!

reggae dance was fun and funny.
the teacher was so sexy and likes to show off as usual. he made two 'jokes' which are facts.



23/10: dragon boating at kallang!

teachers were late, played stupid games before we FINALLY split into groups to set off for what we wenbt there for.

paddles UP. =D

we then walked over to netball centre to bathe. after which, i sugessted taking photos! =D me and my wet messy hair, hong yu and her towel head plus tracy's failed towel head. hahaha!


i just told jing, that is probably the only part i like being in canberra. well. once in a lifetime huh. but still with a regret. ):


24/10: such a bad and another COOL dreams.

nothing much but my sister finally came back from india, back with the laptop and endless arguements about everything!


looking forward to every college day.
looking forward to seeing you. (:

09/10: happy birthday to me! (:

had fun "studying"! (:

0900: woke up.
0940: left house.
1000: haircut.
1100: get my medicine from the doctor's.
1200: boarded the train.
1230: reached toa payoh library.
1300: started work.
1330: lunch hour! =D
1515: back to studying.
1945: packing up.
20++: started dinner.
21++: playground and fitness corner.
2245: left for "home".
2315: hong yu's house!
0000: left for home. ):
0045: reached home.
0200: slept. (:

my cake with the melting ice-cream.




to think that i have always cared so much.
this time round i am giving you up, for sure.



10/10: .38 finals! =D

i forgot my keys but i remembered at the lobby.
i forgot my plasters and no one had. x=
so i shot, injured myself and underperformed.


but it was still:
149 for preliminary rounds
147 for first time (individual)
119 for the second (team)
i was already tired for the team shoot and do not really bother and do well. such bad attitude sia! mr chng gave me a birthday present! =D





belated wishes!
mas, mr chng, clarice, boss, roland.



happiness outweighs disappointment. (: (: (:

05/10: last two horrible hours.

i do not care about you like you CARE about us.
coz i know that you are not worth it.

time and time again, you have done this. time and time again, i have agreed. it is not worth to be your friend or even your acquaintance. talk about CBA, there is no benefit AT ALL.


06/10: surprises sprang on me.

i am a PMC student.
i volunteered to do a project on Cuba.
i am lazy.
i am inattentive in lessonS.
i deserve all YOUR scoldings.


yeah, i need the attention, but i hate it.


07/10: long day in college, lots of mugging time.

more accomplishments than usual, but still not enough. that is what i can do, but not what i can only do. really, i should just cut myself from this disdainful world.


whenever i put it on, i am seeing traces of the real me. should i keep it on all the times? or can i afford to lose myself forever?


08/10: study break day 1.

i look forward to myself performing! =D





right. you said i am lazy. it was only three questions! on top of that, i was sick for a whole week, full seven days. though i can still function, i still have other subjects. do not force me to dig out the fact that you made us have more hours of lessons on top of other h2s!

next, you said i am inattentive during lessonS. no doubt i was not listening to you on monday, that was only ONCE. you wrote lessonS. oh, i forgot that your ability of spoken english is so bad that always, "you made a mistakes." you have successfully transferred your inability to your written english. congratulations!

if you are so good, go back to malaysia, go back to VS. YJC does not need you! and stop digging your old past and tell us. we are not interested in stories, favouritism towards chan sik, sean, my CF or even ACCUSATIONS against seniors, samuel and SG19. i do not need them like i do not need you.

on the positive side, i am going to show you how a student who is lazy and inattentive during lessons would score an A for CA2. JUST YOU WAIT.



enough of the broken recording, some ANTs. x=

if you can use your way to remember things, why cannot i do the same? and you are also unable to substantiate your statement. why should i listen to you, even though i know that you MIGHT be correct.

that being your worse, could be what i am best in. but there is no guarantee that i am good in it. it is just that others are worse off, very much worse off.

i really am perplexed over how i should think and how i should feel. selfish? selfless? when to feel is to be against, it really hurts.

i never felt that i was normal. and thanks for telling me only after EIGHT months. i really need that now.


my mood is experiencing a roller coaster now.
this kind of pain to torture me now. that sucks.

one day. four days. twelve days. thirteen days.

02/10: back to college and felt better! (=

i hope this better is here forever. coz there were at least twice that i got false hopes. ): long day from 0910 to 1640. yawns. what can i expect huh. hahaha.

hope PSM gets well soon. hope she heeds our advices as well. x= a bit of sacrifice for the better of the future!

i did not stay for night study and went home. pig me cooked dinner (porridge with crab meat and hot dog), started my revision, realized i need a power nap, planned for 15 minutes and it turned out to be 2 hours. -,-


03/10: good morning at 1030.

i dreamt of me eating mac when i am still forbidden to eat such harmful stuff. i finished my fries and suddenly remembered i cannot eat such food and gave up my burger. next, his excellency came into the mac and sat beside me. seeing that i was smiling to the "Fated To Love You" commercial, he knew i watched that show and asked me about the ending or something.

i think i have gone mad.
or rather gone madDER.

lunch was at xiao hong's house-- porridge. but with more ingredients than usual! hot dog, meat floss, salted egg, fish cakes and others which i cannot eat-- cha siew, fried pork and wu xiang. she has not answered two questions of mine! i kept asking, she said she cannot hear or chose not to answer. =D

revision was CA 2.2 then i gave up to do CA 2.3 then gave up and floated past market structures. x= not much done today. ): coz i kept giving up. allah. how to do math when there are weird people around me?

firstly, there was a chinese guy (suspected by me to be tiong). he was reading a chinese novel, touching his nose every now and then-- doing suspicious movements, sliding his hand up his calf after touching his nose and vice versa, stretching every ten minutes or so.

SERIOUSLY.

secondly, there was a chinese middle-aged man. he was copying some things from a chinese book. his handwriting is nice sia! that was not the point. if not for the beginning when i see him copying in a serious mood and know that the library does not provide feng yue shu, i would have thought that he was reading one! smiling and um-chio to the book. -,-

HONESTLY.

that is a form of disturbance okay!
it is not the same as distraction. (:


anyway, my cousin just helped me with the china website that my uncle told us about it to view movies! cool. i just finished watching "The Final Destination". next will be after promo, HARRY POTTER! =D i am so slow in such trend.


HT: lectures 1-9: monday. others: depends.
CH: later part: tml. earlier part: after thursday.
MA: anytime when i feel like it.
EC: later part: tuesday. earlier part: after thursday.


04/10: happy birthday, wpm and dhanesh!





i need to fit myself into my timetable! like now!
i need to learn how to start BBQ fire! ASAP. =D
i need to finish planning for IT. before promo. (=


i am now left with 6 days to my birthday.
i am now left with ~eight days to papers!
i am now left with LOTS of revision to do.
CINPCCJPZY, way to go, you can do it. XD.

28/09: stomach flu still in me.

history test.
chemistry tutorial and lecture.
econ timed trial.
right hand felt lifeless after two 25 marks essay.

break was wasted without work done.
felt really not in state coz of stomach flu.
took early leave and missed math lesson.

went back to college to study after feeling somehow better. but still not much work was done, coz i guess i chose the wrong subject. math. -,-


29/09: NATIONAL POLICE CADET CORP.
officers' day and awards presentation ceremony.
50th anniversary celebration gala dinner.
launch of commemorative coffee table book.

i went to HTA after PC/CT.
my dinner was at table 21.
with: me, michelle, nicholas, zhiguang, jiamin, abdullah, florence, julitta and mark.

i think someone up there really wants me to leave NPCC alone until maybe at least promo is over. the moment i wanted to help to carry something, the glass cover of the display slide out and crashed onto the ground. well. i really am jinxed and cursed.


30/09: happy birthday jasmine! (:

felt really bad even during the first lesson.
rested in the library from 0920 t0 1030.
had one last tutorial from 1040 to 1140.
took early leave to home before noon. x=

this time round, i did not feel any better after reaching home like on monday. i kept sleeping and sleeping without much work done. ):


standing outside my house,
thinking of how foolish i am.
staring at the college gate,
looking at all the people.
waiting for something that does not happen,
waiting for someone who will never be mine.


01/10: happy children's day!

college declared it a holiday for us coz we have received some SAAs again. thanks to myself of course. these few days of revision have not been very productive. stomach flu's fault. plus i always procrastinate seeing the doctor. it is going to be one week soon. x=


I WANT TO EAT NICE NICE FOOD. ):
NOT UNTIL THE FLU IS GONE.
BACK TO CHEMISTRY. ):


i used to cry myself dry,
but it is of no use.
and i know. ):





i am now left with 8 days to my birthday.
i am now left with ~TEN days to papers!
i am now left with TONS of revision to do.